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THE HISTORY OF Lady JULIA MANDEVILLE.

VOL. I.

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THE HISTORY OF Lady Julia Mandeville.

In TWO VOLUMES.

By the TRANSLATOR of LADY CATESBY's LETTERS.

VOL. I.

LONDON: Printed for R. and J. DODSLEY in Pall-Mall. MDCCLXIII.

[1]THE HISTORY OF Lady JULIA MANDEVILLE.

To GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

I AM indeed, my dear George, the moſt happy of human beings; happy in the paternal regard of the beſt of parents, the ſincere eſteem of my worthy relations, lord and lady Belmont; and the friendſhip, the tender friendſhip of their [2] lovely daughter, the amiable lady Julia. An encreaſe of fortune, which you are kind enough to wiſh me, might perhaps add ſomething to my felicity, but is far from being neceſſary to conſtitute it, nor did it ever excite in my boſom an anxious wiſh. My father, though he educated me to become the moſt ſplendid ſituation, yet inſtructed me to be ſatisfied with my own moderate one; he taught me that independence was all a generous mind required; and that virtue, adorned by that liberal education his unſparing bounty laviſhed on me, would command through life that heart-felt eſteem from the worthy of every rank, which the moſt exorbitant wealth alone could never procure its poſſeſſors. Other parents hoard up riches for their children; mine with a more noble, more enlightened ſolicitude, expended his in ſtoring my mind with generous ſentiments and uſeful knowledge, to which his [3] unbounded goodneſs added every outward accompliſhment that could give grace to virtue, and ſet her charms in the faireſt light.

Shall I then murmur becauſe I was not born to affluence? No, believe me, I would not be the ſon of any other than this moſt excellent of men, to inherit all the ſtores which avarice and ambition ſigh for: I am prouder of a father to whoſe diſcerning wiſdom, and generous expanded heart, I am ſo obliged, than I ſhould be of one whom I was to ſucceed in all the titles and poſſeſſions in the power of fortune to beſtow. From him I receive, and learn properly to value, the moſt real of all treaſures, independence and content.

What a divine morning? how lovely is the face of nature! The blue ſerene of Italy, with the lively verdure of England. [4] But behold a more charming object than nature herſelf! the ſweet, the young, the blooming lady Julia, who is this inſtant ſtepping into her poſt chaiſe with lady Anne Wilmot. How unſpeakably lovely! ſhe looks up to the window, ſhe ſmiles; I underſtand that ſmile, ſhe permits me to have the honour of following her: I'll order my horſes, and whilſt they are getting ready, endeavour to deſcribe this moſt angelic of woman kind.

Lady Julia then, who wants only three months of nineteen, is exactly what a poet or painter would wiſh to copy who intended to perſonify the idea of female ſoftneſs; her whole form is delicate and feminine to the utmoſt degree: her complexion is fair, enlivened by the bloom of youth, and often diverſifyed by bluſhes more beautiful than thoſe of the morning: her features are regular, her mouth and teeth particularly [5] lovely; her hair light brown; her eyes blue, full of ſoftneſs, and ſtrongly expreſſive of the exquiſite ſenſibility of her ſoul. Her countenance, the beauteous abode of the loves and the ſmiles, has a mixture of ſweetneſs and ſpirit which gives life and expreſſion to her charms.

As her mind has been adorned, not warped, by education, it is juſt what her appearance promiſes; artleſs, gentle, timid, ſoft, ſincere, compaſſionate; awake to all the finer impreſſions of tenderneſs, and melting with pity for every humanwoe.

But my horſes are in the court, and even this ſubject cannot detain me a moment longer. Adieu!

H. MANDEVILLE.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[6]

YOUR raillery, my dear Mordaunt, gives me pain; that I have the tendereſt attachment to lady Julia is certain, but it is an attachment which has not the leaſt reſemblance to love. I ſhould be the moſt ungrateful of mankind to make ſo ill a return to the friendſhip lord Belmont honours me with, and the moſt ſelfiſh to entertain a wiſh ſo much to lady Julia's diſadvantage. My birth, it muſt be confeſſed, is not unworthy even her, ſince the ſame blood fills our veins, my father being deſcended from the eldeſt brother of the firſt earl of Belmont, great grandfather of the preſent: but it would ill become a man whoſe whole expectations are limited to the inheritance of 700l. a year (long very long, may it be before the greateſt of all misfortunes makes even [7] that little mine) to aſpire to the heireſs of twice as many thouſands.

What I feel for this moſt charming of women is the tenderneſs of a relation, mixed with that ſoft and lively eſteem which it is impoſſible to refuſe to the fineſt underſtanding and nobleſt mind in the world, lodged in a form almoſt celeſtial.

Love, for I have taſted its poiſoned cup, is all tumult, diſorder, madneſs; but my friendſhip for lady Julia, warm and animated as it is, is calm, tranquil, gentle; productive of a thouſand innocent pleaſures, but a ſtranger to every kind of inquietude: it does not even diſturb my reſt, a certain conſequence of love, even in its earlieſt approaches.

Having thus vindicated myſelf from all ſuſpicion of a paſſion, which in the preſent [8] ſituation of my fortune I ſhould think almoſt a criminal one, I proceed to obey you in in giving you the portraits of my noble friends, though, I aſſure you, my ſketches will be very imperfect ones.

Lord Belmont, who lives eight months of the year at this charming ſeat, with all the magnificence and hoſpitality of our ancient Engliſh nobility, is about ſixty years old; his perſon is tall, well made, graceful; his air commanding, and full of dignity: be has ſtrong ſenſe, with a competent ſhare of learning, and a juſt and delicate taſte for the fine arts; eſpecially muſick, which he ſtudyed in Italy under the beſt maſters that region of harmony afforded. His politeneſs is equally the reſult of a natural deſire of obliging, and an early and extenſive acquaintance with the great world.

[9] A liberality which ſcarce his ample poſſeſſions can bound, a paternal care of all placed by Providence under his protection, a glowing zeal for the liberty, proſperity, and honour of his country, the nobleſt ſpirit of independence, with the moſt animated attachment and firmeſt loyalty to his accompliſhed ſovereign, are traits too ſtrongly marked to eſcape the moſt careleſs obſerver, but thoſe only who are admitted to his neareſt intimacy are judges of his domeſtick virtues, or ſee in full light the tender, the polite, attentive huſband, the fond indulgent parent, the warm unwearied friend.

If there is a ſhade in this picture, it is a prejudice, perhaps rather too ſtrong, in favour of birth, and a ſlowneſs to expect very exalted virtues in any man who cannot trace his anceſtors as far back, at leaſt, as the conqueſt.

[10] Lady Belmont, who is about ſix years younger than her lord, with all the ſtrength of reaſon and ſteadineſs of mind generally confined to the beſt of our ſex, has all the winning ſoftneſs becoming the moſt amiable of her own; gentle, affable, ſocial, polite, ſhe joins the graces of a court to the ſimplicity of a cottage; and by an inexpreſſible eaſe and ſweetneſs in her addreſs, makes all who approach her happy: impartial in her politeneſs, at her genial board no invidious diſtinctions take place, no cold regards damp the heart of an inferior: by a peculiar delicacy of good breeding, and engaging attention to every individual, ſhe baniſhes reſerve, and diffuſes a ſpirit of convivial joy around her: encouraged by her notice the timid loſe their diffidence in her preſence, and often ſurprized exert talents of pleaſing they were before themſelves unconſcious of poſſeſſing.

[11] The beſt, and moſt beloved of wives, of mothers, of miſtreſſes, her domeſtick character is moſt lovely; indeed all her virtues are rendered doubly charming, by a certain grace, a delicate finiſhing, which it is much eaſier to feel than to deſcribe.

The oeconomy of her houſe, which ſhe does not diſdain herſelf to direct, is magnificent without profuſion, and regular without conſtraint: The effects of her cares appear, the cauſe is unobſerved; all wears the ſmiling eaſy air of chance, though conducted with the moſt admirable order.

Her form is perfectly elegant; and her countenance, without having ever been beautiful, has a benignity in it more engaging than beauty itſelf.

[12] Lady Anne Wilmot, my father, and myſelf, make up the preſent party at Belmont. Lady Anne, who without regularity of features has that animation which is the ſoul of beauty, is the widow of a very rich country gentleman; if it be juſt to proſtitute the name of gentleman to beings of his order, only becauſe they have eſtates of which they are unworthy, and are deſcended from anceſtors whom they diſhonour; who when riding poſt through Europe, happened to ſee her with her father at Turin; and as ſhe was the handſomeſt Engliſh woman there, and the whim of being marryed juſt then ſeized him, aſked her of Lord —, who could not refuſe his daughter to a jointure of 3000l. a year. She returned ſoon to England with her huſband, where during four years ſhe enjoyed the happineſs of liſtening to the intereſting hiſtories of the chace, and entertaining the—ſhire hunt at dinner: her [13] ſlumbers broke by the noiſe of hounds in a morning, and the riotous mirth of leſs rational animals at night. Fortune however at length took pity on her ſufferings, and the good 'ſquire overheating himſelf at a fox chace, of which a fever was the conſequence, left her young and rich, at full liberty to return to the chearful haunts of men, with no very high ideas of matrimonial felicity, and an abhorrence of a country life, which nothing but her friendſhip for Lady Belmont could have one moment ſuſpended.

A great flow of animal ſpirits, and a French education, have made her a Coquet, though intended by nature for a much ſuperior character. She is elegant in her dreſs, equipage, and manner of living, and rather profuſe in her expences. I had firſt the honour of knowing her laſt winter at Paris, from whence ſhe has been returned [14] about ſix weeks, three of which ſhe has paſſed at Belmont.

Nothing can be more eaſy or agreeable than the manner of living here; it is perfectly domeſtick, yet ſo diverſifyed with amuſements as to exclude that ſatiety from which the beſt and pureſt of ſublunary enjoyments are not ſecure, if continued in too uniform a courſe: we read, we walk, we ride, we converſe; we play, we dance, we ſing; join the company, or indulge in penſive ſolitude and meditation, juſt as fancy leads; liberty, reſtrained alone by virtue and politeneſs, is the law, and inclination the ſovereign guide, at this manſion of true hoſpitality. Free from all the ſhackles of idle ceremony, the whole buſineſs of Lord Belmont's gueſts, and the higheſt ſatisfaction they can give their noble hoſt, is to be happy, and to conſult their own taſte entirely in their manner of being ſo.

[15] Reading, muſick, riding, and converſation, are Lord Belmont's favourite pleaſures, but none that are innocent are excluded; balls, plays, concerts, cards, bowls, billiards, and parties of pleaſure round the neighboring country, relieve each other; and whilſt their variety prevents any of them from ſatiating, all conſpire to give a double poignancy to the ſweeter joys of domeſtick life, the calm and tender hours which this charming family devote to the endearing converſation of each other, and of thoſe friends particularly honoured with their eſteem.

The houſe, which is the work of Inigo Jones, is magnificent to the utmoſt degree; it ſtands on the ſummit of a ſlowly riſing ſtill, facing the South; and beyond a ſpacious court, has in front an avenue of the talleſt trees, which lets in the proſpect of a fruitful valley, bounded at a diſtance [16] by a mountain, down the ſides of which ruſhes a foaming caſcade which ſpreads into a thouſand meandering ſtreams in the vale below.

The gardens and park, which are behind the houſe, are romantick beyond the wantonneſs of Imagination; and the whole adjoining country diverſify'd with hills, valleys, woods, rivers, plains, and every charm of lovely unadorned nature.

Here Lord Belmont enjoys the moſt unmixed and lively of all human pleaſures, that of making others happy. His eſtate conveys the ſtrongeſt idea of the patriarchal government; he ſeems a beneficent father, ſurrounded by his children, over whom reverence, gratitude, and love, give him an abſolute authority, which he never exerts but for their good: Every eye ſhines with tranſport at his ſight; parents point him [17] out to their children; the firſt accents of prattling infancy are taught to liſp his honoured name; and age, ſupported by his bounteous hand, pours out the fervent prayer to heaven for its benefactor.

To a life like this, and to an ardent love of independence, Lord Belmont ſacrifices all the anxious and corroding cares of avarice and ambition; and finds his account in health, freedom, chearfulneſs, and ‘"that ſweet peace which goodneſs boſoms ever."’ Adieu! I am going with Lord Belmont and my father to Acton-Grange, and ſhall not return till Thuſday.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

WE returned yeſterday about ſix in the evening, and the moment we alighted, my Lord leading us into the [18] garden an unexpected ſcene opened on my view, which recalled the idea of the fabulous pleaſures of the golden age, and could not but be infinitely pleaſing to every mind uncorrupted by the falſe glare of tinſel pomp, and awake to the genuine charms of ſimplicity and nature.

On a ſpacious lawn, bounded on every ſide by a profuſion of the moſt odoriferous flowering ſhrubs, a joyous band of villagers were aſſembled: the young men dreſt in green, youth, health, and pleaſure in their air, led up their artleſs charmers in ſtraw hats adorned with the ſpoils of Flora, to the ruſtick ſound of the tabor and pipe; round the lawn, at equal intervals, were raiſed temporary arbors of branches of trees, in which refreſhments were prepared for the dancers: and between the arbors, ſeats of moſs for their parents, ſhaded from the ſun by green awnings on poles, round [19] which were twined wreaths of flowers, breathing the ſweets of the ſpring. The ſurprize, the gaiety of the ſcene, the flow of general joy, the ſight of ſo many happy people, the countenances of the enraptured parents, who ſeemed to live over again the ſprightly ſeaſon of youth in their children, with the benevolent pleaſure in the looks of the noble beſtowers of the feaſt, filled my eyes with tears, and my ſwelling heart with a ſenſation of pure yet lively tranſport, to which the joys of courtly balls are mean.

The ladies, who were ſitting in converſation with ſome of the oldeſt of the villagers, roſe at our approach, and my Lord giving Lady Anne Wilmot's hand to my father, and honoring me with Lady Julia's, we mixed in the ruſtick ball. The lovelieſt of women had an elegant ſimplicity in her air and habit which became the ſcene, [20] and gave her a thouſand new charms: ſhe was dreſt in a ſtraw-coloured luſtring night gown, the lighteſt gauze linen, a hat with purple ribbons, and a ſprig of glowing purple amaranthus in her boſom: I know not how to convey an idea of the particular ſtyle of beauty in which ſhe then appeared.—Youth, health, ſprightlineſs and innocence, all ſtruck the imagination at once—paint to yourſelf the exquiſite proportion, the playful air, and eaſy movement of a Venus, with the vivid bloom of an Hebe.—However high you raiſe your ideas, they will fall infinitely ſhort of the divine original.

The approach of night putting an end to the rural aſſembly, the villagers retired to the hall, where they continued dancing, and our happy partie paſſed the reſt of the evening in that ſweet and lively converſation which is never to be found but amongſt [21] thoſe of the firſt ſenſe and politeneſs, united by that perfect confidence which makes the moſt trifling ſubjects intereſting; none of us thought of ſeparating, or imagined it midnight, when my father opening a window, the riſing ſun broke in upon us, and convinced us on what ſwift and downy pinions the hours of happineſs flit away.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

NO, my friend, I have not always been this hero: too ſenſible to the power of beauty, I have felt the keeneſt pangs of unſucceſsful love: but I deſerved to ſuffer; my paſſion was in the higheſt degree criminal, and I bluſh, though at this diſtance of time, to lay open my heart [22] even to the indulgent eyes of partial friendſhip.

When your father's death called you back to England, you may remember I continued my journey to Rome: where a letter from my father introduced me into the family of count Meleſpini, a nobleman of great wealth and uncommon accompliſhments: as my father, who has always been of opinion that nothing purifies the heart, refines the taſte, or poliſhes the manners, like the converſation of an amiable, well educated, virtuous woman, had partiularly entreated for me the honour of the counteſs's friendſhip, whom he had known almoſt a child, and to whom he had taught the Engliſh language; I was admitted to the diſtinction of partaking in all her amuſements, and attending her every where in the quality of Ceciſbeo. To the arts of [23] the libertine, however fair, my heart had always been ſteeled; but the counteſs joined the moſt piercing wit, the moſt winning politeneſs, the moſt engaging ſenſibility, the moſt exquiſite delicacy, to a form perfectly lovely. You will not therefore wonder that the warmth and inexperience of youth, hourly expoſed in ſo dangerous a ſituation, was unable to reſiſt ſuch variety of attractions. Charmed with the flattering preference ſhe ſeemed to give me, my vanity fed by the notice of ſo accompliſhed a creature, forgetting thoſe ſentiments of honour which ought never to be one moment ſuſpended, I became paſſionately in love with this charming woman: for ſome months I ſtruggled with my love, till on her obſerving that my health ſeemed impared, and I had loſt my uſual vivacity, I took courage to confeſs the cauſe, though in terms which ſufficiently ſpoke my deſpair of touching a heart which I feared was too ſenſible to virtue [24] for my happineſs: I implored her pity, and proteſted I had no hope of inſpiring a tenderer ſentiment Whilſt I was ſpeaking, which was in broken interrupted ſentences, the counteſs looked at me with the ſtrongeſt ſorrow and compaſſion painted in her eyes; ſhe was for ſome moments ſilent, and ſeemed loſt in thought; but at laſt, with an air of dignifyed ſweetneſs, ‘"My dear Enrico,"’ ſaid ſhe, ‘"ſhall I own to you that I have for ſome time feared this confeſſion? I ought perhaps to reſent this declaration, which from another I could never have forgiven: but as I know and eſteem the goodneſs of your heart, as I reſpect your father infinitely, and love you with the innocent tenderneſs of a ſiſter, I will only entreat you to reflect how injurious this paſſion is to the count, who has the tendereſt eſteem for you, and would ſacrifice almoſt his life for your happineſs: be aſſured of my [25] eternal friendſhip unleſs you forfeit it by perſiſting in a purſuit equally deſtructive to your own probity and my honor; receive the tendereſt aſſurances of it,"’ continued ſhe, giving me her hand to kiſs, ‘"but believe at the ſame time that the count deſerves and poſſeſſes all my love, I had almoſt ſaid, my adoration. The fondeſt affection united us, and time, inſtead of leſſening, every hour increaſes our mutual paſſion. Reſerve your heart, my good Enrico, for ſome amiable lady of your own nation, and believe that love has no true pleaſures but when it keeps within the bounds of honor."’

It is impoſſible, my dear Mordaunt, to expreſs to you the ſhame this diſcourſe filled me with: her gentle, her affectionate reproofs, the generous concern ſhe ſhowed for my error, the mild dignity of her aſpect, plunged me into inexpreſſible confuſion, and ſhewd my fault in it's [26] blackeſt colours, at the ſame time that her behaviour, by increaſing my eſteem, added to the exceſs of my paſſion. I attempted to anſwer her, but it was impoſſible; awed, abaſhed, humbled before her, I had not courage even to meet her eyes: like the fallen angel in Milton, I felt

— " How awful goodneſs is, and ſaw
" Virtue in her own ſhape how lovely."

The counteſs ſaw, and pityed, my confuſion, and generouſly relieved me from it by changing the ſubject: ſhe talked of my father, of his merit, his tenderneſs for me, and expectations of my conduct; which ſhe was ſure I ſhould never diſappoint; without hinting at what had paſt, ſhe with the moſt exquiſite delicacy gave me to underſtand it would be beſt I ſhould leave Rome, by ſaying ſhe knew how ardently my father wiſhed for my return, [27] and that it would be the height of cruelty longer to deprive him of the pleaſure of ſeeing a ſon ſo worthy of his affection: ‘"The count and my ſelf,"’ purſued ſhe, ‘"cannot loſe you without inexpreſſible regret, but you will alleviate it by letting us hear often of your welfare: when you are united to a lady worthy of you, my dear Enrico, we may perhaps make you a viſit in England: in the mean time be aſſured you have not two friends who love you with a ſincerer affection."’

At this moment the count entered, who ſeeing my eyes filled with tears of love, deſpair, and admiration, with the tendereſt anxiety enquired the cauſe. ‘"I ſhall tell you news which will afflict you, my lord,"’ ſaid the counteſs. ‘"Signor Enrico comes to bid us farewel; he is commanded by his father to return to England; tomorrow is the laſt day of his ſtay in [28] Rome: he promiſes to write to us, and to preſerve an eternal remembrance of our friendſhip, for which he is obliged only to his own merit: his tender heart, full of the moſt laudable, the moſt engaging ſenſibility, melts at the idea of a ſeparation which will not be leſs painful to us."’

The count, after expreſſing the moſt obliging concern at the thought of loſing me, and the warmeſt gratitude for theſe ſuppoſed marks of my friendſhip, inſiſted on my ſpending the reſt of the day with them: I conſented, but begged firſt to return to my lodgings on pretence of giving ſome neceſſary orders, but in reality to give vent to my full heart, torn with a thouſand contrary emotions, amongſt which, I am ſhocked to own, hatred to the generous count was not the weakeſt. I threw myſelf on the ground in an agony of deſpair; I wept, I called heaven to witneſs the purity of my love, I accuſed the counteſs [29] of cruelty in thus forcing me from Rome; I roſe up, I begun a letter to her, in which I vowed an eternal ſilence and reſpect, but begged ſhe would allow me ſtill the innocent pleaſure of beholding her; ſwore I could not live without ſeeing her and that the day of my leaving Rome would be that of my death.—But why do I thus tear open wounds which are but juſt healed? let it ſuffice that a moment's reflexion convinced me of my madneſs, and ſhowed the charming counteſs in the light of a guardian angel ſnatching me from the edge of a precipice. My reaſon in ſome degree returning, I dreſt myſelf with the moſt ſtudious care, and returned to the Meleſpini palace, where I found the abbate Camilli, a near relation of the family, whoſe preſence ſaved me the confuſion of being the third with my injured friends, and whoſe lively converſation ſoon diſſipated the air of conſtraint I felt on [30] entering the room, and even diſpelled part of my melancholy.

The count, whoſe own probity and virtue ſet him far above ſuſpecting mine, preſſed me with all the earneſtneſs of a friendſhip I ſo little merited, to defer my journey a week: on which I raiſed my downcaſt eyes to madam Meleſpini; for ſuch influence had this lovely woman over my heart, I did not dare to conſent till certain of her permiſſion; and reading approbation in a ſmile of condeſcending ſweetneſs, I conſented with a tranſport which only thoſe who have loved like me can conceive: my chearfulneſs returning, and ſome of the moſt amiable people in Rome coming in, we paſt the evening in the utmoſt gaiety. At taking leave I was engaged to the ſame company in different parties of amuſement for the whole time I had to ſtay, and had the joy of being every day with the counteſs, [31] though I never found an opportunity of ſpeaking to her without witneſſes, till the evening before I left Rome, when going to her houſe an hour ſooner than I was expected, I found her alone in her cloſet: when I approached her, my voice faltered, I trembled, I wanted power to addreſs her; and this moment, ſought with ſuch care, wiſhed with ſuch ardor, was the moſt painful of my life. Shame alone prevented my retiring; my eyes were involuntarily turned towards the door at which I entered, in a vain hope of that interruption I had before dreaded as the greateſt misfortune; and even the preſence of my happy envied rival would at that moment have been moſt welcome.

The Counteſs ſeemed little leſs diſconcerted than myſelf; however recovering herſelf ſooner, ‘"Signor Enrico,"’ ſaid ſhe, ‘"your diſcretion charms me; it is abſolutely neceſſary you ſhould leave Rome; [32] it has already coſt me an artifice unworthy of my character to conceal from the Count a ſecret which would have wounded his nice honor, and deſtroyed his friendſhip for you. After this adored huſband be aſſured you ſtand firſt of all your ſex in my eſteem: the ſenſibility of your heart, though at preſent ſo unhappily miſplaced, encreaſes my good opinion of you: may you, my dear Enrico, meet with an Engliſh Lady worthy of your tenderneſs, and be as happy in marriage as the friends you leave behind. Accept,"’ purſued ſhe, riſing and going to a cabinet, ‘"theſe miniatures of the Count and myſelf, which I give you by his command; and when you look on them believe they repreſent two faithful friends, whoſe eſteem for you neither time nor abſence can leſſen."’

I took the pictures eagerly, and kiſſed that of the Counteſs with a paſſion I could [33] not reſtrain, of which however ſhe took not the leaſt notice. I thanked her, with a confuſed air, for ſo invaluable a preſent; and intreated her to pity a friendſhip too tender for my peace, but as reſpectful and as pure as ſhe herſelf could wiſh it.

The abbate Camilli here joined us, and once more ſaved me a ſcene too intereſting for the preſent ſituation of my heart: the Count entered the room ſoon after, and our converſation turned on the other cities of Italy, which I intended viſiting; to moſt of which he gave me letters of recommendation to the nobleſt families, wrote in terms ſo polite and affectionate as ſtabbed me to the heart with a ſenſe of my own ingratitude: he did me the honor to accept my picture, which I had not the courage to offer the Counteſs. After protracting till morning a parting ſo exquiſitely painful, I tore myſelf from all I loved, and bathing with tears her hand which I preſſed [34] eagerly to my lips, threw myſelf into my chaiſe, and, without going to bed, took the road to Naples. But how difficult was this conqueſt! How often was I tempted to return to Rome, and throw myſelf at the Counteſs's feet, without conſidering the conſequences of ſo wild an action. You, my deareſt Mordaunt, whoſe diſcerning ſpirit knows all the windings, the ſtrange inconſiſtencies of the human heart, will pity rather than blame your friend, when he owns there were moments in which he formed the infamous reſolution of carrying her off by force.

But when the miſt of paſſion a little diſperſed, I began to entertain more worthy ſentiments; I determined to drive this lovely woman from my heart, and conquer an inclination, which the Count's generous unſuſpecting friendſhip would have made criminal even in the eyes of the moſt abandoned libertine; rather owing this reſolution [35] however to an abſolute deſpair of ſucceſs then either to reaſon or a ſenſe of honor, my cure was a work of time. I was ſo weak during ſome months as to confine my viſits to the families where the Count's letters introduced me, that I might indulge my paſſion by hearing the lovely Counteſs continually mentioned.

Convinced at length of the folly of thus feeding ſo hopeleſs a flame, I reſolved to avoid every place where I had a chance of hearing that adored name: I left Italy for France, where I hoped a life of diſſipation would drive her for ever from my remembrance. I even profaned my paſſion for her by meeting the advances of a Coquette, but diſguſt ſucceeded my conqueſt, and I found it was from time alone I muſt hope a cure: I had been near a year at Paris, when in April laſt, I received a letter from my father, who preſſed my return, and appointed me to meet him immediately at the Hague, [36] from whence we returned together; and after a few days ſtay in London, came down to Belmont, where the charms of Lady Julia's converſation, and the eſteem ſhe honors me with, entirely compleated my cure, which, time abſence, and the Count's tender and affectionate letters, had very far advanced. There is a ſweetneſs in her friendſhip, my dear Mordaunt, to which love itſelf muſt yield the palm; the delicacy, yet vivacity of her ſentiments, the ſoft ſenſibility of her heart, which without fear liſtens to vows of eternal amity and eſteem.—O Mordaunt, I muſt not, I do not hope for, I do not indeed wiſh for, her love; but can it be poſſible there is a man on earth to whom heaven deſtines ſuch a bleſſing!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[37]

OH! you have no notion what a reformation: Who but Lady Anne Wilmot at chapel every Sunday? grave, devout, attentive; ſcarce ſtealing a look at the prettieſt fellow in the world, who ſits cloſe by me! Yes, you are undone, Bellville; Harry Mandeville, the young, the gay, the lovely Harry Mandeville, in the full bloom of conquering three and twenty, with all the fire and ſprightlineſs of youth, the exquiſite ſymmetry and eaſy grace of an Antinous; a countenance open, manly, animated; his hair the brighteſt cheſnut; his complexion brown, fluſhed with the roſe of health; his eyes dark, penetrating, and full of fire, but when he addreſſes our ſex ſoftened into a ſweetneſs which is almoſt irreſiſtible; his noſe inclining to the aquiline; his lips full and red, and his teeth of the moſt pearly whiteneſs.

[38]
There, read and die with envy:
" You with envy, I with love."

Fond of me too, but afraid to declare his paſſion; reſpectful—awed by the commanding dignity of my manner—poor dear creature, I think I muſt unbend a little, hide half the rays of my divinity to encourage ſo timid a worſhipper.

Some flattering tawdry coxcomb, I ſuppoſe; ſome fool with a tolerable outſide.

No, you never was more miſtaken, Bellville: his charms I aſſure you are not all external. His underſtanding is of the moſt exalted kind, and has been improved by a very extraordinary education, in projecting which his father has employed much time and thought, and half ruined himſelf by carrying it into execution. Above all the Col. has cultivated in his ſon an ardent love of independence, not quite ſo well [39] ſuited to his fortune; and a generous, perhaps a romantic, contempt of riches, which moſt parents if they had found would have eradicated with the utmoſt care. His heart is warm, noble, liberal, benevolent: ſincere, and violent in his friendſhips, he is not leſs ſo, though extremely placable, in his enmities; ſcorning diſguiſe, and laying his faults as well as his virtues open to every eye: raſh, romantic, imprudent; haughty to the aſſuming ſons of wealth, but to thoſe below him,

" Gentle
" As Zephyr blowing underneath the violet."

But whither am I running? and where was I when this divine creature ſeduced me from my right path? O, I remember, at chapel: it muſt be acknowledged my digreſſions are a little Pindaric. True, as I was ſaying, I go conſtantly to chapel. [40] 'T is ſtrange, but this lady Belmont has the moſt unaccountable way in the world of making it one's choice to do whatever ſhe has an inclination one ſhould, without ſeeming to deſire it. One ſees ſo clearly that all ſhe does is right, religion ſits ſo eaſy upon her, her ſtile of goodneſs is ſo becoming, and graceful, that it ſeems want of taſte and elegance not to endeavour to reſemble her. Then my lord too loves to worſhip in the beauty of holineſs; he makes the fine arts ſubſervient to the nobleſt purpoſe, and ſpends as much on ſerving his creator as ſome people of his rank do on a kennel of hounds. We have every external incitement to devotion; exquiſite paintings, an admirable organ, fine voices, and the moſt animated reader of prayers in the univerſe.

Col. Mandeville, whom I ſhould be extreamly in love with if his ſon was not five and twenty years younger, leaves us tomorrow [41] morning, to join his regiment, the —ſhire militia: he ſerved in the late war with honour, but meeting with ſome ill uſage from a miniſter on account of a vote in parliament, he reſigned his commiſſion, and gave up his whole time to the education of my lovely Harry, whoſe tenderneſs and merit are a full reward for all his generous attention.

Adieu!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

IL divino Enrico is a little in the Penſeroſo. Poor Harry! I am charmed with his ſenſibility, he has ſcarce been himſelf ſince he parted with his father yeſterday. He apologizes for his chagrin, but ſays no man on earth has ſuch obligations to a parent. Entre nous, I fancy I know ſome few ſons who would be of a different way of thinking: the Colhas [42] literally governed his conduct by the old adage that, ‘"Learning is better than houſe and land;"’ for as his ſon's learning advanced, his houſes and lands melted away, or at leaſt would have done, had it not been for his mother's fortune, every ſhilling of which, with half the profits of his eſtate, he expended on Harry's education; who certainly wants only ten thouſand pounds a year to be the moſt charming young fellow in the univerſe. Well he muſt e'en make the moſt of his perfections, and endeavour to marry a fortune, on which ſubject I have a kind of a glimpſe of a deſign, and fancy my friend Harry has not quite ſo great a contempt of money as I imagined.

You muſt know then, (a pretty phraſe that, but to proceed) you muſt know, that we accompanied Col. Mandeville fifteen miles, and after dining together at an inn, he took the road to his regiment, [43] and we were returning penſive and ſilent to Belmont, when my lord, to remove the tender mel ancholy we had all caught from Harry, propoſed a viſit at Mr. Weſtbrook's, a plump, rich, civil, cit, whoſe houſe we muſt of neceſſity paſs. As my lord deſpiſes wealth, and Mr. Weſtbrooke's genealogy in the third generation loſes itſelf in a livery ſtable, he has always avoided an intimacy, which the other has as ſtudiouſly ſought; but as it is not in his nature to treat any body with ill-breeding, he has ſuffered their viſits, though he has been ſlow in returning them; and has ſometimes invited the daughter to a ball.

The lady wife, who is a woman of great erudition, and is at preſent intirely loſt to the world, all her faculties being on the rack compoſing a treatiſe againſt the immortality of the ſoul, ſent down an apology; and we were entertained by Mademoiſelle la Fille, who is little, lean, brown, with ſmall pert black eyes, quickened [44] by a large quantity of abominable bad rouge: ſhe talks inceſſantly, has a great deal of city vivacity, and a prodigious paſſion for people of a certain rank, a phraſe of which ſhe is peculiarly fond. Her mother being above the little vulgar cares of a family, or ſo unimportant a taſk as the education of an only child, ſhe was early entruſted to a French chamber-maid, who having left her own country on account of a Faux Pas which had viſible conſequences, was appointed to inſtill the principles of virtue and politeneſs into the flexible mind of this illuſtrious heireſs of the houſe of Weſtbrook, under the title of governeſs. My information of this morning further ſays, that by the cares of this accompliſhed perſon, ſhe accquired a competent, though incorrect, knowledge of the French language; with cunning, diſſimulation, aſſurance, and a taſte for gallantry; to which if you add a ſervile paſſion for quality, and an oppreſſive inſolence to all, however worthy, who want [45] that wealth which ſhe owes to her father's ſkill in Change alley, you will have an idea of the bride I intend for Harry Mandeville. Methinks, I hear you exclaim. ‘"Heavens! what a conjunction"!’ 'Tis mighty well, but people muſt live, and there is 80,000l. attached to this animal; and if the girl likes him, I dont ſee what he can do better, with birth, and a habit of profuſe expence, which he has ſo little to ſupport. She ſung, for the creature ſings, a tender Italian air, which ſhe addreſſed to Harry in a manner and with a look, that convinces me her ſtile is l'amoroſe, and that Harry is the preſent object. After the ſong I ſurpriſed him talking low to her, and preſſing her hard, whilſt we were all admiring an India cabinet, and on ſeeing he was obſerved, he left her with an air of conſcious guilt which convinces me he intends to follow the purſuit, and is at the ſame time aſhamed of his purpoſe: poor fellow! I pity him; but marriage is his [46] only card. I'll put the matter forward, and make my lord invite her to the next ball. Don't you think I am a generous creature, to ſacrifice the man I love to his own good? When ſhall I ſee one of your ſelfiſh ſex ſo diſintereſted? no, you men have abſolutely no idea of ſentiment.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

IT is the cuſtom here for every body to ſpend their mornings as they pleaſe, which does not however hinder our ſome times making parties all together when our inclinations happen all to take the ſame turn. My lord this morning propoſed an airing to the ladies, and that we ſhould, inſtead of returning to dinner, ſtop at the firſt neat farm houſe where we could hope for decent accommodations. Love of variety made the propoſal agreeable to us all; and a ſervant being ordered [47] before to make ſome little proviſion, we ſtopped, after the pleaſanteſt airing imaginable, at the entrance of a wood, where leaving our equipages to be ſent to the neighbouring village, we walked up a winding path to a ruſtic building, emboſomed in the grove, the architecture of which was in the moſt elegant ſtile of ſimplicity: the trees around this lovely retreat were covered with wood-bines and jeſſamines, from which a gale of perfume met our approach: the gentleſt breath of Zephyr juſt moved the leaves, the birds ſung in the branches, a ſpring of the cleareſt water broke from the riſing ground on the left, and murmuring along a tranſparent pebbly bottom, ſeemed to loſe itſelf in a thicket of roſes: no rude ſound diſturbed the ſweet harmony of nature; all breathed the ſoul of innocence and tranquillity, but a tranquillity raiſed above itſelf. My heart danced with pleaſure, and the lovely lady Julia happening to be next [48] me, I kiſſed her hand with an involuntary fervor, which called up into her cheeks a bluſh ‘"celeſtial roſy red."’ When we entered the houſe, we were ſtruck with the propriety, the beauty, the ſimplicity of all around us; the apartments were few, but airy and commodious; the furniture plain, but new and in the moſt beautiful taſte; no ornaments but vaſes of flowers, no attendants but country girls, blooming as the morn, and dreſt with a neatneſs inexpreſſible.

After an elegant cold dinner, and a deſert of cream and the beſt fruits in ſeaſon, we walked into the wood with which the houſe was ſurrounded, the romantic varriety of which it is impoſſible to deſcribe; all was nature, but nature in her moſt pleaſing form: We wandered over the ſweetly varyed ſcene, reſting at intervals in arbours of intermingled roſes and jeſſamines, till we reached a beautiful moſſy grotto, [49] wildly lovely, whoſe entrance was almoſt hid by the vines which ſlaunted over its top. Here we found tea and coffee prepared as if by inviſible hands; Lady Anne exclaimed that all was enchantment, and Lord Belmont's eyes ſparkled with that lively joy, which a benevolent mind feels in communicating happineſs to others.

Lady Julia alone ſeemed not to taſte the pleaſures of the day: Her charming eyes had a melancholy langour I never ſaw in them before; ſhe was reſerved, ſilent, abſent, and would not have eſcaped Lady Anne's raillery, had not the latter been too much taken up with the lovely ſcene to attend to any thing but joy.

As friendſhip has a thouſand groundleſs fears, I tremble leſt I ſhould have been ſo unhappy as to offend her: I remember ſhe ſeemed diſpleaſed with my kiſſing her [50] hand, and ſcarce ſpoke to me the whole day: I will beg of Lady Anne to aſk the cauſe, for I cannot ſupport the apprehenſion of having offended her.

It was with difficulty Lord Belmont forced us at night from this enchanting retirement, which he calls his hermitage, and which is the ſcene of his moſt pleaſing hours. To Lady Anne and me it had a charm it did not want, the powerful charm of novelty: it is about four miles from Belmont houſe, not far diſtant from the extremities of the park. To this place I am told Lord Belmont often retires with his amiable family, and thoſe particularly happy in his eſteem, to avoid the hurry of company, and give himſelf up entirely to the uninterrupted ſweets of domeſtic enjoyment. Sure no man but Lord Belmont knows how to live!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[51]

LORD, theſe prudes—no, don't let me injure her—theſe people of high ſentiment, are ſo tremblingly alive all o'er—there is poor Harry in terrible diſgrace with Lady Julia for only kiſſing her hand: and amidſt ſo bewitching a ſcene too, that I am really ſurprized at his moderation; all breathed the ſoul of pleaſure;—roſy bowers and moſſy pillows, cooing doves and whiſpering Zephyrs—I think my Lord has a ſtrange confidence in his daughter's inſenſibility to truſt her in theſe ſeducing groves, and with ſo divine a fellow in company—But as I was ſaying, ſhe takes the affair quite ſeriouſly, and makes it an offence of the blackeſt die—Well, I thank my ſtars I am not one of theſe ſenſitive plants; he might have kiſſed my hand twenty times without my being more alarmed [52] than if a fly had ſettled there; nay a thouſand to one whether I had even been conſcious of it at all.

I have laughed her out of her reſentment, for it is really abſurd; the poor fellow was abſolutely miſerable about it, and begged my interceſſion, as if it had been a matter of the higheſt importance. When I ſaw her begin to be aſhamed of the thing, Really, my dear, ſays I, I am glad you are convinced how ridiculous your anger was, for illnatured people might have put ſtrange conſtructions.—I know but one way of accounting rationally—if I was Harry I ſhould be extremely flattered—one would almoſt ſuppoſe.—This anſwered,—I carryed my point, and transfered the pretty thing's anger to me; it bluſhed with indignation, drew up, and if mamma had not happened to enter the room at that inſtant, an agreeable ſcene of altercation would probably have enſued: ſhe took that opportunity [53] of retiring to her apartment, and we ſaw no more of her till dinner, when ſhe was gracious to Harry, and exceedingly ſtately to me.

O mon Dieu! I had almoſt forgot: we are to have a little concert this evening; and ſee, my dear Lord appears to ſummon me. Adio! Caro!

To HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſq

YES, my dear ſon, you do me juſtice: I am never ſo happy as when I know you are ſo. I perfectly agree with you as to the charms of Lord Belmont's hermitage, and admire that genuine taſte for elegant nature which gives ſuch a ſpirited variety to the life of the wiſeſt and moſt amiable of men.

But does it not, my dear Harry, give you at the ſame time a very contemptible [54] idea of the power of greatneſs to make its poſſeſſors happy, to ſee it thus flying as it were from itſelf, and ſeeking pleaſure not in the fruition, but in the temporary ſuſpenſion, of thoſe ſuppoſed advantages it has above other conditions of life? Believe me it is not in the coſtly dome, but in the rural cott, that the impartial Lord of all has fixed the chearful ſeat of happineſs. Health, peace, content, and ſoft domeſtic tenderneſs, the only real ſweets of life, driven from the gilded palace, ſmile on the humble roof of virtuous induſtry.

The poor complain not of the tediouſneſs of life: their daily toil makes ſhort the flying hours, and every moment of reſt from labor is to them a moment of enjoyment. Not ſo the great: Surrounded from earlieſt youth by pleaſures which court their acceptance, their taſte palled by habit, and the too great facility of ſatiating every wiſh, laſſitude and diſguſt creep [55] on their languid hours; and wanting the doubtful gale of hope to keep the mind in gentle agitation, it ſinks into a dead calm more deſtructive to every enjoyment than the rudeſt ſtorm of adverſity. The haughty Dutcheſs, oppreſſed with taſteleſs pomp, and ſinking under the weight of her own importance, is much leſs to be envyed than ‘"the milk-maid ſinging blithe,"’ who is in her eyes the object only of pity and contempt.

Your acquaintance with the great world, my dear Harry, has ſhown you the ſplendid miſery of ſuperior life: you have ſeen thoſe moſt wretched to whom heaven has granted the ampleſt external means of happineſs. Miſerable ſlaves to pride, the moſt corroding of human paſſions, ſtrangers to ſocial pleaſure, incapable of love or friendſhip, living to others not to themſelves, ever in purſuit of the ſhadow of happineſs, whilſt the ſubſtance glides [56] paſt them unobſerved, they drag on an inſipid joyleſs being: unloved and unconnected, ſcorning the tender ties which give life all its ſweetneſs, they ſink unwept and unlamented to the grave. They know not the converſation of a friend, that converſation which ‘"brightens the eyes:"’ their pride, an invaſion on the natural rights of mankind, meets with perpetual mortification; and their rage for diſſipation, like the burning thirſt of a fever, is at once boundleſs and unquenchable.

Yet tho' happineſs loves the vale, it would be unjuſt to confine her to thoſe humble ſcenes; nor is her preſence, as our times afford a ſhining and amiable example, unattainable to royalty itſelf: the wiſe and good, whate'er their rank, led by the hand of ſimple unerring nature, are ſeldom known to miſs their way to her delightful abode.

[57] You have ſeen Lord Belmont (bleſt with wiſdom to chuſe, and fortune to purſue his choice, convinced that wealth and titles, the portion of few, are not only foreign to, but often inconſiſtent with, true happineſs) ſeek the lovely goddeſs, not in the pride of ſhow, the pomp of courts, or the madneſs of diſſipation; but in the calm of retirement, in the boſom of friendſhip, in the ſweets of dear domeſtick life, in the tender pleaſing duties of huſband and of father, in the practice of beneficence, and every gentler virtue. Others may be like him convinced, but few like him have ſpirit and reſolution to burſt the magic fetters of example and faſhion, and nobly dare to be happy.

What pleaſure does it give me to find you in ſo juſt a way of thinking in regard to fortune! Yes, my dear Harry, all that in reality deſerves the name of good, ſo far as it centers in ourſelves, is within [58] the reach, not only of our moderate income, but of one much below it. Great wealth is only deſirable for the power it gives us of making others happy, and when one ſees how very few make this only laudable uſe of extreme affluence, one acquieſces chearfully in the will of heaven, ſatisfied with not having the temptation of miſapplying thoſe gifts of the ſupreme being, for which we ſhall undoubtedly be accountable.

Nothing can, as you obſerve, be more worthy a reaſonable creature than Lord Belmont's plan of life: he has enlarged his own circle of happineſs, by taking into it that of all mankind, and particularly of all around him: his bounty glides unobſerved, like the deep ſilent ſtream, nor is it by relieving ſo much as by preventing want, that his generous ſpirit acts: its his glory and his pleaſure [59] that he muſt go beyond the limits of his own eſtate to find objects of real diſtreſs.

He encourages induſtry, and keeps up the ſoul of chearfulneſs amongſt his tenants, by maintaining as much as poſſible the natural equality of mankind on his eſtate: His farms are not large, but moderately rented; all are at eaſe, and can provide happily for their families, none riſe to exorbitant wealth. The very cottagers are ſtrangers to all that even approaches want: when the buſier ſeaſons of the year are paſt, he gives them employment in his woods or gardens; and finds double beauties in every improvement there, when he reflects that from thence

" Health to himſelf and to his infants bread,
" The labourer bears." —

Plenty, the child of induſtry, ſmiles on their humble abodes, and if any unforeſeen [60] misfortune nips the bloſſoms of their proſperity, his bounty, deſcending ſilent and refreſhing as the dews of heaven, renews their blooming ſtate, and reſtores joy to their happy dwellings.

To ſay all in one word, the maxims by which he governs all the actions of his life are manly, benevolent, enlarged, liberal; and his generous paſſion for the good of others is rewarded by his creator, whoſe approbation is his firſt point of view, with as much happineſs to himſelf as this ſublunary ſtate is capable of. Adieu!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

YES, I am indeed fond of your Italiano; it is the language of Love and the Muſes: has a certain ſoftneſs and all that;—and by no means difficult to underſtand—at leaſt it is tolerably eaſy to underſtand as much of it as I do, as much [61] as enables one to be conceited, and give one's ſelf airs amongſt thoſe who are totally ignorant: when this happens, I look aſtoniſhed at the Gothic creatures.—‘"Heavens! my dear Madam, not know Italian? how I pity your ſavage ignorance! not know Italian! La Lingua D'Amore? Oh! Mirtillo! Mirtillo! Anima mia!"’—The dear creatures ſtare, and hate one ſo cordially, it is really charming.—And if one now and then unluckily blunders upon ſomebody who is more in the ſecret than one's ſelf, a downcaſt look, and Ho vergogna Signora, ſaves all, and does credit at once to one's learning and one's modeſtry. Flattered too by ſo plain a confeſſion of their ſuperiority, they give you credit for whatever degree of knowledge you deſire, and go away ſo ſatisfied—and exclaim in all companies, ‘"upon my word Lady Anne Wilmot is abſolutely an exquiſite miſtreſs of Italian, only a little too diffident."’

[62] I am juſt come from playing at ball in the garden, Lord Belmont of the party: this ſweet old man! I am half in love with him, though I have no kind of hopes, for he told me yeſterday, that lovely as I was, Lady Belmont was in his eyes a thouſand times more ſo. How amiable is age like his! ſo condeſcending to the pleaſures of the young! ſo charmed to ſee them happy! he gains infinitely in point of love by this eaſy goodneſs, and as to reſpect, his virtues cannot fail to command it.

Oh! a propos to age, my Lord ſays he he is ſure I ſhall be a moſt agreeable old woman, and I am almoſt of his opinion. Adieu! creature! I can no more.

By the way, do you know that Harry's Cittadina has taken a prodigious Penchant for me, and vows no woman on earth has ſo much wit or ſpirit, or politeſſe, as Lady Anne Wilmot. Something like a glimmering [63] of taſte this: I proteſt I begin to think the girl not quite ſo intolerable.

To the Earl of BELMONT.

My Lord,

AN unforeſeen inevitable misfortune having happened to me, for which a too careleſs oeconomy had left me totally unprovided, I find it neceſſary to ſell my eſtate and quit the country.

I could find a ready purchaſer in Mr. Weſtbrook, who with, the mercileſs rapacity of an exchange broker, watches like a harpy the decline of every gentleman's fortune in his neighbourhood, in order to ſeize on his poſſeſſions: but the tender affection I bear my tenants, makes me ſolicitous to conſult their good as much as poſſible in the ſale, ſince my hard fate [64] will not allow me longer to contribute to it myſelf: I will not here ſay more than that I cannot provide more effectually for their happineſs than by ſelling to your lordſhip.

I am, my Lord, Your Lordſhip's moſt Obedient and devoted Servant, James Barker.

TO JAMES BARKER, Eſq

SIR,

I Am extremely concerned any accident ſhould have happened which makes it poſſible I ſhould loſe from my neighborhood a gentleman of family, of ſo very worthy a character, and one I ſo greatly eſteem: but I hope means may be found to prevent what would be ſo extremely [65] regretted by all who have the pleaſure of knowing you.

As I have always regarded the independent country gentlemen as the ſtrength and glory of this kingdom, and the beſt ſupports of our excellent conſtitution, no increaſe of power or property to myſelf ſhall ever tempt me to leſſen the number of them, where it can poſſibly be avoided. If you have reſolution to enter on ſo exact a ſyſtem of oeconomy as will enable you to repay any ſum you may wantin ſeven years, whatever that ſum is, I ſhall be moſt happy in advancing it and will take it back in the manner moſt eaſy to you. I think I could trace out a plan by which you might retrench conſiderably in a manner ſcarce perceptible. I will to-morrow morning call upon you when I am riding out, when we will talk further on this ſubject; be aſſured none of the greedy Leviathans of our days can feel half the [66] pleaſure in compleating a purchaſe that I ſhall do in declining this, if I can be ſo happy as to keep you amongſt us. Your accepting this without heſitation, will be a proof of your eſteem which I can never forget, as it will ſhew you think too highly of me to fear my making an ill uſe hereafter of having had the happineſs of doing for you what, if we were to change preſent ſituations, I know you would rejoice in doing for me. I have a fund which I call the bank of friendſhip, on which it is my rule to take no intereſt, which you may command to its utmoſt extent.

I am, dear Sir, Your affectionate friend, and obedient ſervant, Belmont.

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[67]

WE have been dining Al freſco in a ruſtic temple in a wood near the houſe: romaneſque, ſimple; the pillars trunks of ancient oaks, the roof the bark of trees, the pavement pebbles, the ſeats moſs; the wild melody of nature our muſick; the diſtant ſound of the caſcade juſt breaks on the ear, which, joined by the chant of the birds, the cooing of the doves, the lowing of the herds, and the gently breathing weſtern breeze, forms a concert moſt divinely harmonious.

Really this place would be charming if it was a little more replete with human beings; but to me the fineſt landſcape is a dreary wild unleſs adorned by a few groups of figures.—There are ſquires indeed— [68] —well abſolutely your ſquires are an agreable race of people, refined, ſentimental, formed for the Belle paſſion; tho it muſt be owned the 'ſquires about Belmont are rational animals compared to thoſe my Caro Spoſo uſed to aſſociate with: my Lord has exceedingly humanized them, and their wives and daughters are decent creatures: which really amazed me at firſt, for you know, Bellville, there is in general no ſtanding the country miſſes.

Your letter is juſt brought me: all you ſay of levees and drawing rooms, is thrown away.

" Talk not to me of courts, for I diſdain
" All courts when he is by: far be the noiſe
" Of kings and courts from us, whoſe gentle ſouls
" Our kinder ſtars have ſteered another way.

[69] Yes, the rural taſte prevails; my plan of life is fixed; to ſit under a hill and keep ſheep with Harry Mandeville.

O mon Dieu! what do I ſee coming down the avenue? is it in woman to reſiſt that equipage? Papier machée—highly gilded—loves and doves—ſix long tailed grey Arabians—by all the gentle powers of love and gallantry, Fondville himſelf—the dear enchanting creature—nay then—poor Harry—all is over with him—I diſcard him this moment, and take Fondville for my Ceciſbeo—freſh from Paris—juſt imported—O all ye gods!

I left you ſomewhat abruptly, and am returned to fill up my epiſtle with the adventures of yeſterday.

[70] The great gates being thrown open, and the chariot drawn up to the ſteps, my charming Fondville, dreſt in a ſuit of lightcolored ſilk embroidered with ſilver, a hat with a black feather under his arm, and a large bouquet of artificial flowers in his button-hole, all Arabia breathing from his well ſcented handkerchief, deſcended, like Adonis from the carr of Venus, and full of the idea of his own irreſiſtibility, advanced towards the ſaloon—he advanced not with the doubtful air of a baſhful lover intimidated by a thouſand tender fears, but in a minuet ſtep, humming an opera tune, and caſting a ſide glance at every looking glaſs in his way. The firſt compliments being over, the amiable creature ſeated himſelf by me, and begun the following converſation,

Well, but my dear lady Anne, this is ſo ſurprizing—your ladyſhip in Campagna? I thought Wilmot had given you a ſurfeit of the poet's Elyzium—horrid retirement—how [71] do yo contrive to kill time?—tho' Harry Mandeville indeed—a widow of ſpirit may find ſome amuſement there.

Why really, Fondville, a pretty fellow does prodigiouſly ſoften the horrors of ſolitude.

O, nothing ſo well.

And Harry has his attractions.

Attractions! ah! L'Amore! the faireſt eyes of Rome—

But pray, my dear lord, how did the court bear my abſence?

In deſpair: the very Zephyrs about Verſailles have learnt to ſigh, la belle Angloiſe.

[72] And Miremont?

Inconſolable: ſtaid away from two operas.

Is it poſſible? the dear conſtant creature! how his ſufferings touch me!—but here is company.

Any body one knows?

I rather think not.

What the good company of the Environs, the Arriere ban, the Poſſe Comitatus?

Even ſo: my lord ‘"brings down the natives upon us,"’ but to do the creatures juſtice, one ſhall ſeldom ſee tamer ſavages.

Here the door opening, Fondville roſe with us all, and leaning againſt the wainſcoat [73] in an attitude of eaſy indifference, half bowing, without deigning to turn his eyes on thoſe who entered the room, continued playing my fan, and talking to me in a half whiſper, till all were ſeated, when my dear lady Belmont leading the converſation, contrived to make it general, till, tea being over, my lord propoſed a walk in the gardens, where having trifled away an hour very pleaſantly, we found muſick ready in the ſaloon at our return, and danced till midnight.

Lord Viſcount Fondville, he would not have you omit Viſcount for the world, left us this morning: my lord is extremely polite and attentive to him, on the ſuppoſition of his being my lover; otherwiſe he muſt expect no ſupernumerary civilities at Belmont; for as it is natural to value moſt thoſe advantages one poſſeſſes ones ſelf, my lord, whoſe nobility is but of the third generation, but whoſe anceſtry loſes [74] itſelf in the clouds, pays much greater reſpect to a long line of illuſtrious anceſtors than to the moſt lofty titles; and I am ſorry to ſay my dear Fondville's pedigree will not ſtand the teſt; he owes his fortune and rank to the iniquity of his father, who was deep in the infamous ſecret of the South Sea bubble.

'Tis however a good natured, inoffenſive, lively, ſhowy animal, and does not flatter diſagreeably. He owns Belmont not abſolutely ſhocking, and thinks lady Julia rather tolerable, if ſhe was ſo happy as to have a little of my ſpirit and Enjouement. Adio?

O Ciel! what a memory! this is not poſt day. You may poſſibly gain a line or two by this ſtrange forgetfulneſs of mine.

[75]

Nothing new, but that La Signora Weſtbrook, who viſited here yeſterday, either was, or pretended to be, taken ill before her coach came, and Harry, by her own deſire, attended her home in lady Julia's poſt chaiſe. He came back with ſo grave an air, that I fancy ſhe had been making abſolute, plain, down-right love to him: her ridiculous fondneſs begins to be rather perceptible to every body: really theſe city girls are ſo rapid in their amours, they won't give a man time to breath.

Once more, Adieu!

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[76]

I Have juſt received a letter which makes me the moſt unhappy of mankind: 't is from a lady whoſe fortune is greatly above my moſt fanguine hopes, and whoſe merit and tenderneſs deſerve that heart which I feel it is not in my power to give her. The general complacency of my behaviour to the lovely ſex, and my having been accidentally her partner at two or three balls, has deceived her into an opinion that ſhe is beloved by me; and ſhe imagines ſhe is only returning a paſſion which her ſuperiority of fortune has prevented my declaring. How much is ſhe to be pitied! my heart knows too well the pangs of diſappointed love not to feel moſt tenderly for the ſufferings of another, without the additional motive to compaſſion of being the undeſigned [77] cauſe of thoſe ſufferings, the ſevereſt of which human nature is capable. I am embarraſſed to the greateſt degree, not what reſolution to take, that required not a moment's deliberation, but how to ſoften the ſtroke, and in what manner, without wounding her delicacy, to decline an offer, which ſhe has not the leaſt doubt of my accepting with all the eager tranſport of timid love, ſurpriſed by unexpected ſucceſs.

I have wrote to her, and think I ſhall ſend this anſwer; I encloſe you a copy of it: her letter is already deſtroyed: her name I conceal: the honor of a lady is too ſacred to be truſted, even to the faithful breaſt of a friend.

[78]

To Miſs —

NO words, madam, can expreſs the warmth of my gratitude for your generous intentions in my favor, tho' my ideas of probity will not allow me to take advantage of them.

To rob a gentleman, by whom I have been treated with the utmoſt hoſpitality, not only of his whole fortune, but of what is infinitely more valuable, a beloved and amiable daughter, is an action ſo utterly inconſiſtent with thoſe ſentiments of honor which I have always cultivated, as even your perfections cannot tempt me to be guilty of. I muſt therefore, however unwillingly, abſolutely decline the happineſs you have had the goodneſs to permit [79] me to hope for, and beg leave to ſubſcribe myſelf,

Madam,
with the utmoſt gratitude and moſt lively eſteem, your moſt obliged and devoted ſervant H. Mandeville.

I ought perhaps to be more explicit in my refuſal of her, but I cannot bring myſelf to ſhock her ſenſibility, by an appearance of total indifference. Surely this is ſufficiently clear, and as much as can be ſaid by a man ſenſible of, and grateful for, ſo infinite an obligation.

You will ſmile when I own, that, in the midſt of my concern for this lady, I feel a ſecret, and, I fear, an ungenerous, pleaſure, in ſacrificing her to lady Julia's friendſhip, tho' the latter will never be ſenſible of the ſacrifice.

[80] Yes, my friend, every idea of an eſtabliſhment in the world, however remote or however advantageous, dies away before the joy of being eſteemed by her, and at liberty to cultivate that eſteem; determined againſt marriage, I have no wiſh, no hope, but that of being for ever unconnected, for ever bleſt in her converſation, for ever allowed uninterrupted, unreſtrained by nearer ties, to hear that enchanting voice, to ſwear on that ſnowy hand eternal amity, to liſten to the unreſerved ſentiments of the moſt beautiful mind in the creation, uttered with the melody of angels. Had I worlds, I would give them to inſpire her with the ſame wiſhes!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[81]

I Can't conceive, Bellville, what it is that makes me ſo much the men's taſte: I really think I am not handſome—not ſo very handſome—not ſo handſome as lady Julia,—yet I don't know how it is—I am perſecuted to death amongſt you—the misfortune to pleaſe every body—'tis amazing—no regularity of features—fine eyes indeed—a vivid bloom—a ſeducing ſmile—an elegant form—an air of the world—and ſomething extremely well in the Toute enſemble—a kind of an agreeable manner—eaſy, ſpirited, Degagée—and for the underſtanding—I flatter myſelf malice itſelf cannot deny me the beauties of the mind. You might juſtly ſay to me, what the queen of Sweden, ſaid to Mademoiſelle le Fevre, ‘"with ſuch an [82] underſtanding, are not you aſhamed to be handſome?"’

Abſolutely deſerted. Lord and Lady Belmont are gone to town this morning on ſudden and unexpected buſineſs: poor Harry's ſituation would have been pitiable, had not my lord, conſidering how impoſſible it was for him to be well with us both a Trio, ſent to Fondville to ſpend a week here in their abſence, which they hope will not be much longer. Harry, who is viceroy, with abſolute power, has only one commiſſion, to amuſe lady Julia and me, and not let us paſs a languid hour till their return.

O Dio! Fondville's Arabians! the dear creature looks up—he bows—‘"That bow might from the bidding of the gods command me"’

[83] Don't you love quotations! I am immenſely fond of them: a certain proof of erudition: and, in my ſentiments, to be a woman of literature is to be—In ſhort, my dear Bellville, I early in life diſcovered, by the the meer force of genius, that there were two characters only in which one might take a thouſand little innocent freedoms, without being cenſured by a parcel of impertinent old women, thoſe of a Belle Eſprit and a Methodiſt; and the latter not being in my ſtyle, I choſe to ſet up for the former, in which I have had the happineſs to ſucceed ſo much beyond my hopes, that the firſt queſtion now aſked amongſt polite people, when a new piece comes out, is, ‘"What does lady Anne Wilmot ſay of it?"’ A ſcornful ſmile from me would damn the beſt play that ever was wrote; as a look of approbation, for I am naturally merciful, has ſaved many adull one. In ſhort, if you ſhould happen to write an inſipid poem, which is extremely [84] probable, ſend it to me, and my Fiat ſhall crown you with immortality.

Oh! heavens! à propos, do you know that Bell Martin, in the wane of her charms, and paſt the meridian of her reputation, is abſolutely marryed to ſir Charles Canterell? Aſtoniſhing! till I condeſcend to give the clue. She praiſed his bad verſes. A thouſand things appear ſtrange in human life, which, if one had the real key, are only natural effects of a hidden cauſe. ‘"My dear ſir Charles, ſays Bell, that divine ſapphic of yours—thoſe melting ſounds—I have endeavoured to ſet it—But Orpheus or Amphion alone—I would ſing it—yet fear to truſt my own heart—ſuch extatic numbers—who that has a ſoul"’—ſhe ſung half a ſtanza, and, overcome by the magic force of verſe, leaning on his breaſt, as if abſorbed in ſpeechleſs tranſport, ‘"ſhe fainted, ſunk, and dyed away".’ Find me the poet upon earth who could have [85] withſtood this. He married her the next morning.

Oh! Ciel! I forgot the Caro Fondville. I am really inhuman. Adieu!

" Je ſuis votre amie tres fidelle".

I can abſolutely afford no more at preſent.

TO HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſq

YOU can have no idea, my dear Mr. Mandeville, how weary I am of being theſe few days only in town: that any one, who is happy enough to have a houſe, a cottage, in the country, ſhould continue here at this ſeaſon, is to me inconceivable: but that gentlemen of large property, that noblemen ſhould impriſon themſelves in this ſmoking furnace, when the whole land is a blooming garden, a wilderneſs of ſweets; when pleaſure courts [86] them in her faireſt form; nay, when the ſordid god of modern days, when intereſt joins his potent voice; when power, the beſt power, that of doing good, ſolicits their preſence, can only be accounted for, by ſuppoſing them under the dominion of faſcination, ſpell-caught by ſome malicious demon, an enemy to human happineſs.

I cannot reſiſt addreſſing them in a ſtanza or two of a poem, which deſerves to be wrote in letters of gold.

" Mean time by pleaſure's ſophiſtry allur'd,
" From the bright ſun, and living breeze ye ſtray:
" And deep in London's gloomy haunts immur'd,
" Brood o'er your fortune's, freedom's, health's decay,
" O, blind of choice, and to yourſelves untrue!
[87]
" The young grove ſhoots, their bloom the fields renew,
" The manſion aſks its lord, the ſwains their friend;
" While he doth riot's orgies haply ſhare,
" Or tempt the gameſter's dark deſtroying ſnare,
" Or at ſome courtly ſhrine with ſlaviſh incenſe bend.
" And yet full oft your anxious tongues complain
" That careleſs tumult prompts the ruſtic throng;
" That the rude village inmates now diſdain
" Thoſe homely ties which rul'd their fathers long:
" Alas! your fathers did by other arts
" Draw thoſe kind ties around their ſimple hearts,
" And led in other paths their ductile will:
[88] " By ſuccours, faithful counſel, courteous chear,
" Won them the ancient manners to revere,
" To prize their country's peace, and heavens due rites fulfill.

Can a nobleman of ſpirit prefer the rude inſults of a licentious London rabble, the refuſe of every land, to the warm and faithful attachment of a brave, a generous, a free, and loyal yeomanry in the country. Does not intereſt, as well as virtue and humanity, prompt them, by living on their eſtates, to imitate the heavens, which return the moiſture they draw from the earth, in grateful dews and ſhowers?

When I firſt came to Belmont, having been ſome years abroad, I found my tenants poor and dejected, ſcarce able to gain a hard penurious living. The neighbouring gentlemen ſpending two thirds of [89] the year in London, and the town, which was the market for my eſtate, filled only with people in trade, who could ſcarce live by each other: I ſtruck at the root of this evil, and, by living almoſt altogether in the country myſelf, brought the whole neighbourhood to do the ſame. I promoted every kind of diverſion, which ſoon filled my town with gentlemen's families, which raiſed the markets, and of conſequence the value of my eſtate: my tenants grew rich at the ſame rents which before they were unable to pay, population encreaſed, my villages were full of inhabitants, and all around me was gay and flouriſhing; ſo ſimple, my dear Mr. Mandeville are the maxims of true policy: but it muſt be ſo; that machine which has the feweſt wheels is certainly moſt eaſy to keep in order.

Have you had my old men to dine? at ſixty I admit them to my table, where they are always once a fortnight my gueſts. [90] I love to converſe with thoſe, ‘"whom age and long experience render wiſe";’ and, in my idea of things, it is time to ſlacken the reins of pride, and to wave all ſublunary diſtinctions, when they are ſo near being at an end between us. Beſides I know, by my own feelings, that age wants the comforts of life: a plentiful table generous wines, chearful converſe, and the notice of thoſe they have been accuſtomed to revere, renews in ſome degree the fire of youth, gives a ſpring to declining nature, and perhaps prolongs as well as enliven the evening of their days. Nor is it a ſmall addition to my ſatisfaction, to ſee the reſpect paid them by the young of their own rank, from the obſervation of their being thus diſtinguiſhed by me: as an old man, I have a kind of intereſt in making age an object of reverence; but, were I ever ſo young, I would continue a cuſtom, which appears to me not leſs juſt than humane.

[91] Adieu! my eſteemed, my amiable friend! how I envy you your larks and nightingales!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

POSITIVELY, Bellville, I can anſwer for nothing: theſe ſylvan ſcenes are ſo very bewitching, the vernal grove, and balmy Zephyr, are ſo favourable to a lover's prayer, that if Fondville was any thing but a pretty man about town, my ſituation would be extremely critical.

This wicked Harry too has certainly ſome evil deſign; he forms nothing but enchanting rural parties, either a quarrée, or with others of the young and gay: not a maiden aunt has appeared at Belmont ſince his reign commenced; he ſuffers no ideas to enter our imaginations but thoſe [92] of youth, beauty, love, and the ſeducing pleaſures of the golden age. We dance on the green, dine at the Hermitage, and wander in the woods by moonlight, liſtening to the ſong of the nightingale, or the ſweeter notes of that little ſyren lady Julia, whoſe impaſſioned ſounds would ſoften the marble heart of a virgin of eightyfive.

I really tremble for my fair friend; young, artleſs, full of ſenſibility, expoſed hourly to the charms of the prettieſt fellow upon earth, with a manner ſo ſoft, ſo tender, ſo much in her own romantic way—

A rap at my door—Fondville is ſent for away—company at his houſe—ſets out immediately—I muſt bid the dear creature adieu—

I am returned: pity me, Bellville.

[93]
" The ſtreams, the groves, the rocks remain,
" But Damon ſtill I ſeek in vain.

Yes, the dear man is gone; Harry is retired to write letters, and Lady Julia and I are going to take a walk, Tete à Tete, in the wood. Jeſu Maria! a female Tete à Tete!—I ſhall never go through the operation—if we were en confidence indeed it might be bearable: but the little innocent fool has not even a ſecret.

Adio!

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[94]

O Mordaunt! I am indeed undone: I was too confident of my own ſtrength: I depended on the power of gratitude and honor over my heart, but find them too weak to defend me againſt ſuch inexpreſſible lovelineſs: I could have reſiſted her beauty only, but the mind which irradiates thoſe ſpeaking eyes—the melting muſic of thoſe gentle accents, ‘"ſoft as the fleeces of deſcending ſnows,"’ the delicacy, yet lively tenderneſs of her ſentiments—that angel innocence—that winning ſweetneſs—the abſence of her parents, and lady Anne's coquetry with lord Fondville, have given me opportunities of converſing with her, which have for ever deſtroyed my peace—I muſt tear myſelf from her—I will leave Belmont the moment my lord returns—I am for ever loſt—doomed to wretchedneſs—but [95] I will be wretched alone—I tremble leſt my eyes ſhould have diſcovered—leſt pity ſhould involve her in my miſery.

Great heavens! was I not ſufficiently unhappy! to ſtab me to the heart I have juſt received the following letter from lord Belmont.

TO HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſq

THE preſent member of parliament for — being in a ſtate of health which renders his life extremely uncertain, it would be very agreable to me if my dear Mr. Mandeville would think of offering himſelf a candidate to ſucceed him. I will however be ſo plain as to tell him, he will have no aſſiſtance from me except my wiſhes, and has nothing to truſt to but his merits and the name of Mandeville; [96] it being a point both of conſcience and honor with me, never to intermeddle in elections. The preſervation of our happy conſtitution depends on the perfect independence of each part of which it is compoſed on the other two: and the moment, heaven grant that moment to be far diſtant! when the houſe of lords can make a houſe of commons, liberty and prerogative will ceaſe to be more than names, and both prince and people becomeſlaves.

I therefore always, tho' the whole town is mine, leave the people to their free and uninfluenced choice: never interfering farther than to inſiſt on their keeping themſelves as unbyaſſed as I leave them. I would not only withdraw my favor from, but proſecute, the man who was baſe enough to take a bribe, tho' he who offered it was my neareſt friend.

[97] By this means I have the pleaſure alſo of keeping myſelf free, and at liberty to confer favors where I pleaſe; ſo that I ſecure my own independence by not invading that of others.

This conduct, I cannot help thinking, if general, would preſerve the ballance of our glorious conſtitution; a ballance of much greater conſequence to Britons than the ballance of power in Europe, tho' ſo much leſs the object of their attention. In this we reſemble thoſe perſons, who, whilſt they are buſied in regulating the domeſtic concerns of their neighbours, ſuffer their own to be ruined.

But to return from this unintended digreſſion: You will perhaps object to what I have propoſed, that during your father's life you are not qualified for a ſeat in parliament. I have obviated this objection. Lady Mary, the only ſiſter of [98] my father, has an ample fortune in her own power to diſpoſe of: ſome part of it was originally her own, but much the larger part was left her by her lover, Sir Charles Barton, who was killed in queen Anne's wars, the very morning before he was to have ſet out for England to complete his marriage. Being the laſt of his family, he had made a will, in which he left his eſtate to lady Mary, with a requeſt, that, if ſhe did not marry, ſhe would leave it to one of the name of Mandeville. As ſhe loves merit, and has the happineſs and honor of our houſe warmly at heart, I have eaſily prevailed on her to ſettle 500l. a year on you at preſent, and to leave you a good part of the reſt at her death. Her deſign hitherto, I will not conceal from you, has been to leave her fortune to my daughter, of whom ſhe is infinitely fond; but Julia has enough, and by leaving it to you, ſhe more exactly fullfils the will of Sir Charles, who, tho' he has not expreſsly made the [99] diſtinction, certainly meant it to a male of the Mandeville name. The eſtate is about 2000l. a year; her own fortune of 14000l. I ſhall not oppoſe her leaving to my daughter.

I know too well the generous ſentiments of your heart to doubt that, in procuring this ſettlement, I give to my country a firm and unſhaken patriot, at once above dependance on the moſt virtuous court, and the mean vanity of oppoſing the juſt meaſures of his prince, from a too eager deſire of popularity: not that I would have you inſenſible to praiſe, or the eſteem of your country; but ſeek it only by deſerving it, and tho' it be in part the reward, let it not be the motive of your actions: let your own approbation be your firſt view, and that of others only your ſecond.

You may obſerve, my dear Mr. Mandeville, I only caution you againſt being led [100] away by youthful vanity to oppoſe the juſt meaſures of your prince: I ſhould wrong the integrity of your heart, if I ſuppoſed you capable of diſtreſſing the hands of government for mercenary or ambitious purpoſes: a virtuous ſenator will regard, not men, but meaſures, and will concur with his bittereſt enemies in every ſalutary and honeſt purpoſe; or rather, in a public light, he will have no enemies, but the enemies of his country.

It is with caution I give even theſe general hints; far be it from me to attempt to influence your judgment: let your opinion be ever free and your own; or where your inexperience may want information, ſeek it from the beſt, and moſt enlighten'd of mankind, your excellent father, who has long ſat with honor in the ſame houſe.

Let me now, my amiable friend, thank you for your obliging attention, not only [101] to the ladies, of whom I could not doubt your care, but of my tenants, one of whom writes me word, that coming to enquire when I ſhould return, with a look of anxiety which ſhew'd my return was of conſequence to him, you took him aſide, and enquiring his buſineſs, found he wanted, from an accident which had involved him in a temporary diſtreſs, to borrow 100l. for which you gave him a draught on your banker, with a goodneſs and ſweetneſs of manner, which doubled the obligation; making only one condition, which the overflowing of his gratitude has made him unable to keep, that it ſhould be a ſecret to all the world.

Can Lady Mary do too much for a man who thus ſhews himſelf worthy the name of Mandeville, the characteriſtick of which has ever been the warmeſt benevolence?

[102] Another would, perhaps, inſiſt on returning the money to you, but I will not rob you of the pleaſure of making an honeſt man happy: you will however obſerve, that it is this once only I indulge you; and that you are the only perſon from whom I have ever ſuffered my family, for ſuch I eſteem all placed by Providence under my protection, to receive an obligation: 'tis is a favor I have refuſed even to your father.

Do not anſwer this: I ſhall poſſibly be with you before a letter could reach me.

Adieu.

Can I, after this letter, my dear Mordaunt, entertain a wiſh for lady Julia, without the blackeſt ingratitude? no, tho' I will not accept his generous offer, I can never forget he has made it. I will leave Belmont—I will forget her—what have I ſaid? forget her? I muſt firſt loſe all ſenſe of my own being.

[103] Am I born to know every ſpecies of miſery? I have this moment received a ſecond letter from the lady I once mention'd to you, filled with the ſofteſt and moſt affecting expreſſions of diſintereſted tenderneſs: indiſcreet from exceſs of affection, ſhe adjures me to meet her one moment in the ruſtic temple, where ſhe is waiting for me; her meſſenger is gone, and as I will not hazard expoſing her by ſending my ſervant, I have no choice left but to go: Heaven knows how unwillingly! ſhould we be ſeen, what an appearance would ſuch a meeting have! I left Lady Julia to write letters, and on that account excus'd myſelf from attending her: yet can I leave her whom love alone has made imprudent, to the conſequence of her indiſcretion, and the wild ſallies of a mind torn by diſappointment and deſpair! I will go: but how ſhall I behold her! how tell her, pity is all I can return to ſo generous a paſſion? Theſe trials are too great for a heart like mine, [104] tender, ſympathetic, compaſſionate; and ſoften'd by the ſenſe of it's own ſufferings: I ſhall expire with regret and confuſion at her ſight.

To Col. BELLVILLE.

OUR party laſt night did not turn out ſo much in the ſtill-life way as I expected—unfortunate that I am—two rivals at once—la Belliſſima Julia has moſt certainly a penchant for Harry—'tis abſurd, for the thing is impoſſible: in the firſt place I am rather afraid he has a kind of attachment to this creature, and in the ſecond, I know Lord Belmont's ſentiments on this head, and that with all his generoſity, no man breathing has a greater averſion to unequal marriages: the difference is ſo immenſe in every thing but birth and merit, that there remains not a ſhadow of hope for her. But theſe people of high [105] heroics are above attending to ſuch trifling things as poſſibilities—I hope I am miſtaken, but the ſymptoms are ſtrong upon her, as you ſhall judge.

I left you laſt night to accompany Lady Julia to the wood we are both ſo fond of: the evening was lovely beyond deſcription, and we were engaged in a very lively converſation, when, as we approached the temple, we ſaw Harry, who had juſt left us on pretence of writing letters, come out of it with the deteſtable Weſtbrook leaning familiarly on his arm, her pert eyes ſoftened into languiſhment, and fixed eagerly on his: the forward creature ſtarted at ſeeing us, and attempted to fly, which Harry prevented, and withdrawing his arm from hers, as if mechanically, advanc'd ſlowly towards us, with a look ſo confus'd, a mien ſo diſorder'd, ſo different from that eaſy air which gives ten thouſand graces to the fineſt form in the world, as convinced me [106] that this meeting was not accidental. Lady Julia ſtop'd the moment ſhe ſaw them, a deep bluſh overſpread her face, ſhe fixed her eyes on the ground, and waited their approach ſilent and unmov'd as a ſtatue. Not ſo the cit! the creature's aſſurance, and the eaſe with which ſhe recover'd herſelf and addreſſed Lady Julia, excited equally my aſtoniſhment and indignation. She told her ſhe came to wait on her Ladyſhip, and the fineneſs of the evening had tempted her to leave her coach at the entrance of the wood: that as ſhe walked thro' ſhe happen'd to meet Mr. Mandeville, quite by chance ſhe aſſured her Ladyſhip; as he would teſtify. Harry diſdain'd to confirm her falſhood even by an aſſenting look: his ſilence, the coldneſs of his manner, with the air of dignity and ſpirit Lady Julia aſſumed, almoſt diſconcerted her; we walk'd ſilently to the houſe, where the girl only ſtay'd till her coach was order'd round, and then left us; her eyes [107] aſk'd Harry's attendance, but he choſe not to underſtand their language.

This evening was the only unpleaſant one I ever paſt at Belmont: a reſerve unknown before in that ſeat of ſincere friendſhip, took place of the ſweet confidence which uſed to reign there, and to which it owes its moſt ſtriking charms: we retired earlier than uſual, and lady Julia, inſtead of ſpending half an hour in my apartment, as uſual, took leave of me at the door and paſſed on to her own.

I am extremely alarmed for her—it would have been natural to have talk'd over ſo extraordinary an adventure with me, if not too nearly intereſted—There was a conſtraint in her behaviour to Harry all the evening—an aſſum'd coldneſs—his aſſiduity ſeem'd to diſpleaſe her—ſhe ſigh'd often—nay once when my eyes met hers I obſerved a tear ready to ſtart—ſhe may [108] call this friendſhip if ſhe pleaſes, but theſe very tender, theſe apprehenſive, theſe jealous friendſhips, between amiable young people of different ſexes are exceedingly ſuſpicious.

It is an hour later than her uſual time of appearing, and I hear nothing of her: I am determined not to indulge this tender melancholy, and have ſent up to let her know I attend her in the ſaloon, for I often breakfaſt in my own apartment, it being the way here for every body to do whatever they like.—

Indeed! a letter from Lady Julia!—a vindication?—nay then—‘"guilty upon my honor."’—Why imagine I ſuſpect her?—O! Conſcience!

Her extreme fear of my ſuppoſing her in love with Harry, is a convincing proof that ſhe is, tho' ſuch is her amiable ſincerity, [109] that I am ſure ſhe ſhas deceived herſelf before ſhe would attempt to deceive me; but the latter is not ſo eaſy; ſitters by ſee all the game.

She tells me, ſhe cannot ſee me till ſhe has vindicated herſelf from a ſuſpicion which the weakneſs of her behaviour yeſterday may have cauſed: That ſhe is not ſure ſhe has reſolution to mention the ſubject when preſent; therefore takes this way to aſſure me, that tender and lively as her friendſhip for Mr. Mandeville is, it is only friendſhip; a friendſhip which his merit has hitherto juſtified, and which has been the innocent pleaſure of her life: That born with too keen ſenſibilities (poor thing! I pity her ſenſibilities) the ill treatment of her friends wounds her to the ſoul. That zeal for his honor and the integrity of his character, which ſhe thinks injured by the myſterious air of laſt night's [110] adventure, her ſhock at a clandeſtine and diſſembled appointment ſo inconſiſtent with that openneſs which ſhe had always admired in him, as well as with the reſpect due to her, now ſo particularly in her father's abſence under his protection, had occaſioned that concern which ſhe fears may make her appear to me more weak than ſhe is.

In ſhort, ſhe takes a great deal of pains to lead herſelf into an error; and ſtruggles in thoſe toils which ſhe will find great difficulty in breaking.

Harry's valet has juſt told my woman his maſter was in bed but two hours laſt night: that he walked about his room till three, and roſe again at five, and went out on horſeback, without a ſervant. The poor fellow is frighted to death about him, for he is idolized by his ſervants, [111] and this man has been with him from his child-hood. But adieu! I hear Lady Julia upon the ſtairs: I muſt meet her in the ſaloon.

Poor ſoul! I never ſaw any thing like her confuſion when we met: ſhe bluſhed, ſhe trembled, and ſunk half motionleſs into her chair: I made the tea, without taking the leaſt notice of her inability to do it; and by my eaſy chit chat manner ſoon brought her to be a little compoſed: though her eye was often turned towards the door, though ſhe ſtarted at every ſound, yet ſhe never aſked the cauſe of Harry's abſence, which muſt however ſurprize her, as he always breakfaſts below.

Foreſeeing we ſhould be a very awkward party to day a Trio, I ſent early in the morning to aſk three or four very agreeable [112] girls about two miles off, to come and ramble all day with us in the woods: happily for poor Lady Julia, they came in before we had done breakfaſt, and I left them to go and look at ſome ſhellwork, whilſt I came up to finiſh my letter.

Harry is come back, and has ſent to ſpeak with me: I am really a perſon of great conſequence at preſent. I am in a very ill humor with him; he may well be aſhamed to appear, however the worſt of criminals deſerves to be heard. I will admit him: he is at the door. Adio.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[113]

GREAT heaven! what a night have I paſt! all other fears give way before that of diſpleaſing her. Yes, let me be wretched, but let her not ſuppoſe me unworthy: let her not ſee me in the light of a man, who barters the ſentiments of his ſoul for ſordid views of avarice or ambition; and, uſing means proportioned to the baſeneſs of his end, forges a falſehood to excuſe his attendance on her, ſeduces an heireſs to give him clandeſtine aſſignations, and in a place guarded, doubly guarded at this time, by the ſacred and inviolable laws of hoſpitality from ſuch unworthy purpoſes.

I will clear my conduct, though at the hazard of expoſing her whoſe love for me [114] deſerves a different treatment: let her be the victim of that indiſcretion by which ſhe has ruined me—and can I be thus baſe?—Can I betray the believing unſuſpecting heart—my mind is diſtracted—but why do I ſay betray? I know Lady Anne's greatneſs of mind, and for Lady Julia—yes, the ſecret will be as ſafe with them as in my own boſom.

Shall I own all my folly? I cannot, though ſhe ſhall never know my paſſion for herſelf, ſupport one moment the idea of Lady Julia's imagining I love another.

I will go to Lady Anne, as ſoon as ſhe is up, and beg her to convince her lovely friend my meeting this Lady was accidental: I will not, if I can avoid it, ſay more.

[115] I cannot ſee her before this explanation. I will ride out, and breakfaſt with ſome friend: I would not return till they are gone back to their apartments, that I may ſee Lady Anne alone.

Lady Anne has probed me to the quick: I have truſted her without reſerve as to this affair, I have begged her to vindicate me to Lady Julia, who is walking in the garden with ſome ladies of the neighborhood: we are going to follow them, I am to take the ladies aſide, whilſt Lady Anne pleads my cauſe: ſhe calls me. Farewell.

She forgives me, and I am moſt happy. Lady Anne has told her all, and has had the goodneſs to introduce me to her as we walked, unobſerved by the ladies who [116] were with us. I have kiſſed her hand as a ſeal of my pardon. That moment! O Mordaunt! with what difficulty did I reſtrain the tranſport of my ſoul!

Yes, my friend, ſhe forgives me, a ſweet benign ſerenity reigns in her lovely eyes; ſhe approves my conduct; ſhe is pleaſed with the concern I ſhow at giving pain to the heart which loves me; her chearfulneſs is returned, and has reſtored mine; ſhe rules every movement of my heart as ſhe pleaſes: never did I paſs ſo happy a day. I am all joy; no ſad idea can enter; I have ſcarce room even for the tender compaſſion I owe to her I have made wretched. I am going to bed, but without the leaſt expectation of ſleep: joy will now have the ſame effect as I laſt night found from a contrary cauſe. Adieu!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[117]

I Have reconciled the friends: the ſcene was amazingly pathetic and pretty: I am only ſorry I am too lazy to deſcribe it. He kiſſed her hand, without her ſhowing the leaſt ſymptom of anger; ſhe bluſhed indeed, but, if I underſtand bluſhes—in ſhort, times are prodigiouſly changed.

The ſtrange miſſes were of infinite uſe, as they broke the continuity of the tender ſcene (if I may be allowed the expreſſion) which however entertaining to Les Amies, would have been ſomething ſickly to my Ladyſhip, if it had laſted.

And now having united, it muſt be my next work to divide them; for ſeriouſly I am apt to believe, the dear creatures are [118] in immenſe danger of a kind of Penchant for each other, which would not be quite ſo convenient.

I have ſome thoughts, being naturally ſentimental and generous, of taking Harry myſelf, meerly from compaſſion to Lady Julia. Widows, you know, are in ſome degree the property of handſome young fellows, who have more merit than fortune; and there would be ſomething very heroic in devoting myſelf to ſave my friend. I always told you, Bellville, I was more an antique Roman than a Briton. But I muſt leave you: I hear Lady Julia coming to fetch me: we breakfaſt a Trio in a bower of roſes.

O heavens! the plot begins to thicken—Lucretia's dagger-Roſamonda's bowl—Harry has had a letter from his charmer—vows ſhe can't live without him—determined to die unleſs the barbarous man relents.—This [119] cruel Harry will be the death of us all.

Did I tell you we were going to a ball to-night, ſix or ſeven miles off? She has heard it, and intends to be there: tells him ſhe ſhall there expect the ſentence of life or death from his lovely eyes: the ſignal is appointed: if his ſavage heart is melted, and he pities her ſufferings, he is to dance with her, and be maſter of her divine perſon and eighty thouſand pounds, to-morrow; if not—but ſhe expires at the idea—ſhe entreats him to ſoften the cruel ſtroke, and not give a mortal wound to the tendereſt of hearts by dancing with another.

You would die to ſee Harry's diſtreſs,—ſo anxious for the tender creature's life, ſo incenſed at his own wicked attractions, ſo perplext how to pronounce the fatal ſentence—for my part I have had the utmoſt difficulty [120] to keep my countenance.—Lady Julia, who was to have been his partner, ſighing with him over the letter, intreating him not to dance, pitying the unhappy loveſick [...], her fine eyes gliſſtering with a tear of tender ſympathy.

The whole ſcene is too ridiculous to be conceived, and too fooliſh even to laugh at: I could ſtand it no longer, ſo retired, and left them to their ſoft ſorrows.

You may talk of women, but you men are as much the dupes of your own vanity as the weakeſt amongſt us can be. Heaven and earth! that with Harry's underſtanding and knowledge of the world, he can be ſeriouſly alarmed at ſuch a letter. I thought him more learned in the arts ‘"of wilful woman laboring for her purpoſe."’ Nor is ſhe the kind of woman; I think I know more of the nature of love, than to imagine her capable of it. If there [121] was no other lover to be had indeed,—but he is led aſtray by the dear ſelf-compleacency of contemplating the ſurprizing effects of his own charms.

I ſee he is ſhocked at my inſenſibility, and fancies I have a moſt unfeeling heart, but I may live to have my revenge. Adio! I am going to my toilet. ‘"Now awful beauty puts on all its arms."’

The coach is at the door: Harry is dreſt for execution; always elegant, he is to-day ſtudiouſly ſo; a certain proof to be ſure that his vanity is weaker than his compaſſion: he is however right, if ſhe muſt die, he is to be commended for looking as well as he can, to juſtify a paſſion which is to have ſuch fatal effects: he ſees I obſerve his dreſs, and has the grace to bluſh a little. Adio! Caro!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[122]

WE are again at Belmont. But Oh, how changed! all our heroicks deſtroyed—poor Harry, I can't look at him without laughing.

Our journey thither was penſive, our converſation ſentimental; we entered the ball room trembling with apprehenſion, where the firſt object which ſtruck our eyes, was the tender, loveſick, dying maid, liſtening with the moſt eager attention to Fondville, who was at the very moment kiſſing her hand; her whole ſoul in her eyes, her heart fiuttering with a pleaſure which ſhe could not conceal, and every feature on the full ſtretch of coquetry.

An involuntary frown clouded the lovely countenance of my Harry, which was not [123] leſſened by his obſerving a malicious ſmile on mine: he advanced however towards her, when ſhe, not doubting his deſign was to aſk her to dance, told him, in a faltering voice, with a mixed air of triumph and irreſolution, her eyes fixed on her ſon, that ſhe was engaged to Lord Fondville.

Harry was thunderſtruck: a glow of indignation fluſhed his cheek, and he left her without deigning to make her any reply; which I obſerving, and fearing ſhe might miſinterpret his ſilence, and that the idea of his ſuppoſed diſappointment might flatter the creature's vanity, took care to explain to her that he was engaged to Lady Julia before we came; a piece of information which made her feel to the quick, even through the pleaſure of dancing with a Lord; a pleaſure which has inconceivable charms for a citizen's daughter, and which love itſelf, or what ſhe pleaſes [124] to call love, could not enable her to reſiſt.

The attention of all the company was now turned on Harry, and Lady Julia, who were dancing a minuet: the beauty of their perſons, the eaſy dignity of their air, the vivid bloom of their cheeks, the ſpirit which ſhone in their eyes, the inimitable graces of their movement, which received a thouſand additional charms, (from what I hope no one obſerved but myſelf,) their deſire of pleaſing each other, gave me an idea of perfection in dancing which never before entered my imagination: all was ſtill as night; not a voice, not a motion, through the whole aſſembly. The ſpectators ſeemed afraid even to breathe, leſt their attention ſhould be one moment ſuſpended: Envy herſelf ſeemed dead, or to confine her influence to the boſom of Miſs Weſtbrook. The minuet ended, a murmur of applauſe ran through the room, [125] which, by calling up her bluſhes, gave a thouſand new charms to Lady Julia, which I obſerved to the cit, adding alſo aloud that it was impoſſible any body ſhould think of dancing minuets after them; in which ſentiment every body concurring, we began country dances. Harry never looked ſo lovely; his beauty, and the praiſes laviſhed on him, having awakened a ſpark of that flame, which her ambition had ſtifled for a moment, the girl endeavor'd, at the beginning of the evening, to attract his notice, but in vain: I had the pleaſure to ſee him neglect all her little arts, and treat her with an air of unaffected indifference, which I knew muſt cut her to the ſoul. She then endeavored to pique him by the moſt flaming advances to Fondville, which, knowing your capricious ſex as I do, rather alarmed me; I therefore determined to deſtroy the effect of her arts by playing off, in oppoſition, a more refined ſpecies of coquetry, which [126] turned all Fondville's attention on myſelf, and ſaved Harry from the ſnare ſhe was laying for him, a ſnare of all others the hardeſt to eſcape.

When I ſaw I had by the moſt delicate flattery chained Fondville to my carr for the night, and by playing off a few quality airs inſpired him with the ſtrongeſt contempt for his city partner, I threw myſelf into a chair, where, affecting an exceſs of languor and fatigue, and wondering at the amazing conſtitutions of the country ladies, I declared my intention of dancing no more.

Sir Charles Mellifont, who danced with me, ſat down on one ſide, and Fondville on the other, pouring forth a rhapſody of tender nonſenſe, vowing all other women were only foils to me, envying Sir Charles's happineſs, and kiſſing my hand with an affection of tranſport, which pleaſed me, [127] as I ſaw it mortified the cit, who ſat ſwelling with ſpite in a window near us, in a ſituation of mind which I could almoſt have pitied.

I ſat a full hour receiving the homage of both my adorers, my head reclined, and my whole perſon in an attitude of the moſt graceful negligence and inattention, when obſerving the Cittadina ready to faint with envy and indignation, turning my eye careleſsly on her, O, heavens! Fondville, ſaid I, you are an inhuman creature; you have abſolutely forgot your partner: then ſtarting up with Sir Charles rejoined the dance with an air of eaſy impertinence, which ſhe could not ſtand, but burſt into tears and withdrew.

You muſt know this affair was all of my contriving; I was determined to try the reality of the girl's paſſion, to quiet Harry's conſcience as to cruelty of rejecting [128] her ſuit, and remove thoſe apprehenſions for her life, which ſeemed ſo infinitely to diſtreſs him.

Full of theſe ideas, I wrote by one of my ſervants to Fondville, immediately after Harry communicated to us the Cittadina's tragedy letter, commanding him to be at this ball, dreſt for conqueſt, to enquire out Miſs Weſtbrook, whom he had never ſeen, to pretend a ſudden and violent paſſion for her, and to entreat the honor of being her partner: that it was a whim I had taken into my head, that I would explain my reaſons another time, but inſiſted on his implicit obedience.

‘"He came, he ſaw, he conquered,"’ as I imagined he would: ‘"I knew her rage for title, tinſel, and people of a certain rank,"’ and that Fondville was exactly calculated for the meridian of her taſte, underſtanding and education. The overcharged [129] ſplendor of his dreſs and equipage muſt have infinite advantages, with one who had ſo long breathed city air, over the genuine elegance of Harry Mandeville's; nor was it poſſible in the nature of things for the daughter of an exchange broker to prefer even perſonal perfection to the dazzling blaze of a coronet; Harry's charms gave way before the flattering idea of a title, and the gentle God reſigned his place to the greater power, Ambition.

Things to be ſure have taken rather a diſagreeable turn; but ſhe muſt thank her own inconſtancy, and be content for the future with making love to one man at a time.

I have only one more ſcene of mortification in view for her, and my malice will be ſatisfied; I would invite her to a ball at Belmont, let Harry dance with [130] Lady Julia, take Fondville myſelf, and pair her with the moſt diſagreeable fellow in the room.

You have no notion how Harry's vanity is hurt, though he ſtrives all he can to hide it; piqued to death; juſt like one of us, who are pleaſed with the love, though we diſlike the lover: he begins to think it poſſible ſhe may ſurvive his cruelty.

Lady Julia is all aſtoniſhment, had no idea of ſuch levity—the amiable ignorant—how little ſhe knows us—the character of half the ſex. Adio! I am going with Lady Julia, to pay ſome morning viſits in the environs.

Till this morning I had no notion how much Lord and Lady Belmont were beloved, or, to ſpeak with more propriety, [131] adored in their neighborhood: the eager enquires of the good ladies after their return, their warm expreſſions of eſteem and veneration, are what you can ſcarce conceive: the ſwell of affection, which their preſence reſtrained, now breaks forth with redoubled impetuoſity.

There are really a great many agreeable people hereabouts: Belmont is the court of this part of the world, and employs its influence, as every court ought to do, in bringing virtue, politeneſs, and elegant knowledge into faſhion. How forcible, how irreſiſtible are ſuch examples in ſuperior life! who can know Lord and Lady Belmont, without endeavoring to imitate them, and who can imitate them without becoming all that is amiable and praiſe worthy?

Do you know, Bellville, I begin extremely to diſlike myſelf? I have good [132] qualities, and a benevolent heart, but have exerted the former ſo irregularly, and taken ſo little pains to rule and direct the virtuous impulſes of the latter, that they have hitherto anſwered very little purpoſe either to myſelf or others. I feel I am a comet, ſhining, but uſeleſs, or perhaps deſtructive, whilſt Lady Belmont is a benignant ſtar.

But, for heaven's ſake, how came the ſpirit of reflexion to ſeize me? There is ſomething in this air.—O Cielo! una Carrozza!—my dear Lord Belmont. I fly—Adio!

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[133]

THEY are come; the impatient villagers crowd the hall, eager to behold them, tranſport in every eye, whilſt the noble pair ſcarce retain the tender tear of glowing benevolence. How lovely a picture was the audience they come from giving! how ſweet the intercourſe of warm beneficence and ardent gratitude! my heart melted at the ſight. This evening is devoted to joy—I alone—O Mordaunt! have I known this paradiſe only to be driven for ever from it?

I cannot to night mention leaving Belmont; to morrow I will propoſe it; I am in doubt where to go; my father is abſent from camp on a viſit of a fortnight, to the Duke of —, his Colonel. I [134] have ſome thoughts of going to Lord T—'s, till his return: perhaps I may come to town; all places but this are equal to me yet: I muſt leave it; I am every moment more ſenſible of my danger: yes, Mordaunt, I love her, I can no longer deceive myſelf; I love her with the fondeſt paſſion; friendſhip is too cold a name for what I feel, too cold for charms like hers to inſpire: yet, heaven is my witneſs, I am incapable of a wiſh to her diſadvantage; her happineſs is my firſt, my only object—I know not what I would ſay,—why does fortune for ever oppoſe the tender union of hearts!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[135]

MY Lord has brought us a thouſand preſents, a thouſand books, a thouſand trinkets, all in ſo exquiſite a taſte—He is the ſweeteſt man in the world certainly—Such delight in obliging—'Tis happy for you he is not thirty years younger and diſengaged; I ſhould infallibly have a paſſion—He has brought Harry the divineſt horſe; we have been ſeeing him ride, ‘"ſpring from the ground like feather'd Mercury"’—you can have no conception how handſome he looks on horſeback—poor Lady Julia's little innocent heart—I can't ſay I was abſolutely inſenſible myſelf—you know I am infinitely fond of beauty, and vaſtly above diſſembling it: indeed it ſeems immenſely abſurd that one is allowed to be charm'd with living perfection in every ſpecies but our own, and [136] that there one muſt admire only dead colours: one may talk in raptures of a lifeleſs Adonis, and not of a breathing Harry Mandeville. Is not this a deſpicable kind of prudery? For my part, I think nature's coloring vaſtly preferable to the nobleſt attempts of art, and am not the leſs ſenſible to the graces of a fine form becauſe it is animated. Adieu! we are going to dine at the hermitage; Lord Belmont is to be my Ceciſbeo.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

HOW inconſiſtent is the human mind! I cannot leave Belmont, I cannot give up the delight of beholding her: I fancy a ſoftneſs in her manner which raiſes the moſt flattering ideas; ſhe bluſhes when her eyes meet mine—Tho' I ſee the madneſs of hope, I indulge it in ſpite of myſelf. No one can deſerve her; yet, as Lord [137] Belmont honors me with his eſteem, I would perſuade myſelf fortune alone forbids—I will ſtruggle with impoſſibilities; I have many and powerful friends; we have a prince in the early prime of life, the ſeaſon of generous virtue; a prince to whom the patriot glow, and that diſintereſted loyalty, which is almoſt my whole inheritance, cannot but be the ſtrongeſt recommendations; to him it may be merit to have ſuffered when the baſeſt of the people roſe on the ruins of their country: thoſe ample poſſeſſions, which would have deſcended to me, and might have raiſed my hopes to the moſt angelic of womankind, were gloriouſly ſpent in endeavouring to ſupport the throne, when ſhook by the rage of faction and narrow-minded bigotted enthuſiaſm; the younger branch of our family eſcaped the ſtorm by having a minor at it's head: to this accident, the partiality of an anceſtor, and the military talents of his father, lord Belmont owes [138] the affluence he ſo nobly enjoys, and which I only, of all mankind, have cauſe to regret.

Theſe circumſtances raiſe a flattering hope—my views are confuſed, but I will purſue the track. If I ſucceed, I may openly avow my paſſion; if not, the ſecret of my love ſhall die with me: never, my friend, will I attempt her heart by unworthy means: let me endeavour to deſerve, and leave to heaven to determine whether I ſhall poſſeſs, the nobleſt gift it has to beſtow.

Farewel.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

I Have heard from my father on the ſubject of Lady Mary's intended ſettlement, who extremely diſapproves my intention of entirely declining it, which he thinks cannot be founded on any motives [139] worthy of me, but on a falſe pride of diſdaining to be obliged, which is in this caſe unjuſt, and greatly below my character: that I might as well object to receiving a part of his eſtate, which he intends to ſettle on me at the ſame time: he ſays Lord Belmont acts properly, and conſiſtently with himſelf, and does not at all mean to break in on that independence which can never be too highly valued: that Lady Julia would ſcarce perceive ſuch an addition to her already ſplendid fortune, whilſt this ſettlement fixes in ſome degree of affluence the elder branch of the family, which loſt its ſuperiority, by the injuſtice of an anceſtor, and that heroic loyalty which has ever characterized our houſe. That he will talk further with me on this ſubject when we meet, but in the mean time adviſes me, as a friend zealous for my intereſt, yet not the leſs attentive to my honor, and the propriety of my conduct, to accept the immediate ſettlement of 500l. [140] a year, which will enable me to be ſerviceable to my country; but to poſtpone to ſome diſtant time ſettling the whole, and to inſiſt that Lady Mary be convinced I deſerve her friendſhip before ſhe laviſhes it ſo profuſely on me.

This advice gives me pleaſure, as it coincides with my own preſent ſentiments; eager to purſue my ſcheme of riſing to ſuch conſequence as may juſtify my hopes of the only event deſirable to me in this world, I am happy in the thought of appearing in every light in which I can attract the notice of my prince; and by ſteadily ſerving him and my country, whoſe true intereſt muſt ever be the ſame, deſerve that favor on which all my deſigns are founded.

The time not being yet arrived when I can ſerve the nobleſt cauſe in the ſenate, I will go to Germany, and endeavour firſt to ſignalize myſelf in the manner moſt ſuited [141] to my period of life, the ſeaſon of action, not of counſel: it is ſhameful at my age, to recline in the flowery bower of indolence, when the whole world is in arms; I have not yet begun to live; my time has hitherto been leſs paſs'd in acting, than in preparing to act, my part on the great theatre of human life.

O Mordaunt! ſhould I ſucceed in my views! ſhould the hour come when I may openly avow my paſſion for the moſt lovely of womankind! this is the ſweet hope which fires my ſoul, and animates me to the glorious purſuit. Why do cloſeted moraliſts, ſtrangers to the human heart, rail indiſcriminately at love? when inſpired by a worthy object, it leads to every thing that is great and noble; warmed by by the deſire of being approved by her, there is nothing I would not attempt. I will to-day write to my father for his conſent, [142] and embark immediately for the army.

I have juſt received your letter: you call my deſign madneſs, the light in which every animated purpoſe will appear to minds inactive, unimpaſſioned, and ſunk in the lethargic calm of lifeleſs tranquillity.—Mordaunt, you ſpeak the cold language of a heart at reſt: talk not of impoſſibilities; nothing is impoſſible to a ſoul impelled by the moſt lively of all paſſions, and ardent in a purſuit on which its whole happineſs depends; nothing is impoſſible to him who aſpires to pleaſe the moſt lovely, the moſt amiable, the moſt exalted of her ſex.

I feel, I know I ſhall be ſucceſsful; I aſk not advice, but declare my ſettled purpoſe: I am already determined, and if your friendſhip be warm as mine, you will not torture me by further oppoſition. My father alone has power to change my reſolution, [143] but it is a power he will not exert: I ſhall aſk his permiſſion, but inform him at the ſame time, that, by refuſing, he cuts off all the hope of my future days, and chains me down to a life of taſteleſs inſenſibility.

I know him well; he will adviſe, he will remonſtrate, if he diſapproves; but he will leave me that freedom of choice which is the inherent right of every rational being, and which he never, in one inſtance, invaded, when I was much leſs capable of judging for myſelf.

Fearful however leſt he ſhould diſapprove my paſſion for Lady Julia, I ſhall not declare it to him at preſent; but, as I never will even tacitly deceive him, I ſhall tell him I have a motive to this deſign, which I beg his leave to conceal from him till I have a proſpect of ſucceſs.

[144] I this morning mentioned leaving Belmont, but my Lord inſiſts on my ſtaying a few days longer, which are devoted to domeſtic happineſs. I cannot refuſe without making him ſuſpect ſome latent cauſe; nor will it make any difference in my plan, ſince I muſt wait ſomewhere an anſwer from my father, which will reach Belmont about the time I ſhall now leave it. Tomorrow ſe'nnight expect me in town: I ſhall ſtay but two nights: I need little preparation: my equipage and attendance are already greatly beyond my fortune, and rather ſuited to what you call the madneſs of my expectations: my father, the moſt generous of mankind, has always proportioned my expences more to my birth than his moderate income: as my companions have ever been of the firſt rank, he has ſupported me greatly above myſelf, and on a full equality with them, leſt I ſhould be dazzled to mean compliances with their faults, by the falſe ſplendor [145] they might receive from a ſuperiority in theſe outward diſtinctions.

Did I tell you Lord Belmont had preſented me with a beautiful Arabian horſe, which he bought when in town? What delight has he in giving pleaſure to others! what addition, if that can admit addition, to the happineſs of the man who is bleſt with Lady Julia, will it be to be ſo nearly allied to worth like Lord Belmont's!

O Mordaunt! were it poſſible!—it is, it muſt—I will not give room to the fainteſt idea of diſappointment.

Adieu! I have this moment a letter from my father, which I muſt anſwer to night.

TO HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſq

[146]

IT gives me the warmeſt pleaſure, my dear ſon, to find you are pleaſed with the expenſive education I have given you, though it reduces your fortune conſiderably below what it might otherwiſe have been: I conſidered that wealth, if neceſſary to happineſs, which I do not believe, might be acquired; but that the flying hours of youth, the ſeaſon of inſtruction, are never to be recalled.

I have the happineſs to ſee you reward and juſtify my cares by a generous freedom of thinking, and nobleneſs of ſentiment, which the common methods of education might have crampt, or perhaps totally deſtroy'd. It has always appeared to me, that [147] our underſtandings are fettered by ſyſtems, and our hearts corrupted by example: and that there needs no more to minds well diſpoſed than to recover their native freedom, and think and act from themſelves. Full of this idea, I have inſtructed you how, but never what to think; I have pointed out the road which leads to truth, but have left you to diſcover her abode by your own ſtrength of mind: even on the moſt important of all ſubjects, I have ſaid no more, than that conviction muſt be on the ſide of that religion, which teaches the pureſt and moſt benevolent morality, is moſt conducive to the general happineſs of mankind, and gives the moſt ſublime idea of the Deity.

Convinced that the ſeeds of virtue are innate, I have only watched to cheriſh the riſing ſhoots, and prune, but with a trembling hand, the too luxuriant branches.

[148] By virtue I would here be underſtood to mean, not a partial attention to any one duty of life, but that rectitude of heart, which leads us to fulfil all, as far as the frailty of human nature will permit, and which is a conſtant monitor of our faults. Confucius has well obſerved, that virtue does not conſiſt in never erring, which is impoſſible, but in recovering as faſt as we can from our errors.

With what joy, my deareſt Harry, did I early ſee in you that warmth oftemper, which is alone productive of every extraordinary exertion of the human mind, the proper ſoil of genius and the virtues; that heat from which light is inſeparable!

I have only one fear for you; inured to a habit of profuſe expence, I dread your being unable to practice that frugality, which will now be indiſpenſable. To lady Mary's intended ſettlement, I will add a [149] third of my eſtate, but even that is below your birth, and the manner of life to which you are habituated. But why do I doubt you! I know your generoſity of ſpirit, and ſcorn of every ſpecies of ſlavery; that you will not deſcend to be indebted, to with-hold a moment the price of laborious induſtry, or leſſen the honeſt profit of the trader, by a delay yet more deſtructive to yourſelf than to him.

Intended to become a part of the legiſlative power, you are doubly bound to keep yourſelf from all temptation of corruption or dependence, by living within your income; the ampleſt eſtate is wretched penury, if exceeded by the expences of its poſſeſſor.

Need I ſay more to recommend oeconomy to a ſpirit like yours, than that it is the fountain of liberality, and the parent of independence?

You enquire after the place where I am: it is, except Belmont, the ſweeteſt ſpot I [150] ever beheld, but in a different ſtyle: the ſituation is rather beautiful than magnificent. There is a mild elegance, a refined ſimplicity in the air of all around, ſtrongly expreſſive of the mind of its amiable poſſeſſor; a poetic wildneſs, a luxuriant glow, like that of primeval nature, adorned by the hand of the Graces.

The ſame ſpirit of liberty breathes here as with you: we are all perfectly at home; our time is ſubject to no reſtraint but that which our deſire of obliging each other makes a voluntary impoſition.

I am now alone, ſitting in an arbour, attentive to the lively chant of the birds, who ſwell their little throats with a morning hymn of gratitude to their creator: whilſt I liſten, I think of thoſe ſweet lines of Cowley:

" All round the little winged choir,
" Pathetic tender thoughts inſpire:
[151] " With eaſe the inſpiration I obey,
" And ſing as unconcern'd and as well pleas'd as they."

'Tis yet early day: the flocks and herds are ſpreading over the diſtant meadows, and joining the univerſal ſong of praiſe to the beneficent Lord of nature.

Rejoicing in the general joy, I adore the God who has expanded ſo wide the circle of happineſs, and endeavour to regulate my own deſires by attending to the ſimplicity of theirs.

When I ſee the dumb creation, my dear Harry, purſuing ſteadily the purpoſes of their being, their own private happineſs, and the good of their peculiar ſpecies, I am aſtoniſhed at the folly and degeneracy of man, who acts in general ſo directly contrary to both; for both are invariably united.

The wiſe and benevolent creator has placed the ſupreme felicity of every individual [152] in thoſe kind domeſtic ſocial affections, which tend to the well-being of the whole. Whoever preſumes to deviate from this plan, the plan of God and nature, ſhall find ſatiety, regret, or diſappointment his reward.

I this moment receive your letter: you judge perfectly well in ſaying, there is an activity and reſtleſsneſs in the mind of man, which makes it impoſſible for him to be happy in a ſtate of abſolute inaction: ſome point of view, ſome favourite purſuit is neceſſary to keep the mind awake. 'Tis on this principle alone one can account for what ſeems ſo extraordinary to the eyes of impartial reaſon, that avarice and ambition ſhould be the vices of age, that men ſhould moſt ardently purſue riches and honours at the time when they have the leaſt proſpect of enjoying them; the lively paſſions of youth ſubſiding, ſome active principle muſt be found to replace them; and where that warm benevolence of heart is wanting, [153] which is a perpetual ſource of ever new delight, I do not wonder they engage in the chaſe of wealth and power, though ſure ſo ſoon to melt from their graſp.

The firſt purpoſe of my heart, next to that ſuperior and general one of making myſelf acceptable to my creator, was to render the moſt angelic of women, your lovely mother, happy, in that heaven was pleaſed to diſappoint my hopes, by taking her to itſelf; my ſecond has been to make you the moſt amiable of men, in which, I am not afraid to ſay to yourſelf, I have been ſucceſsful, beyond my moſt ſanguine wiſhes.

Adieu, my dear ſon! may you ſucceed in every purpoſe of your ſoul as fully as I have done in this, and be as happy as your virtues have made your father!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[154]

O heavens! Bellville! Nay, there is abſolutely no reſiſting a man that carries one off. Since you have mentioned the thing, I ſhall not abate you a ſcruple. There is no ſaying how charming it will be: let common beauties inſpire whining, ſubmiſſive, reſpectful paſſions; but let me—heaven! earth! to be run away with at four-and-twenty—a paragraph in the papers.—‘"Yeſterday the celebrated lady Anne Wilmot was forcibly carried off by a gentleman who had long in vain deprecated her pity: if any thing can excuſe ſo atrocious an action, the unrivalled beauty of the lady"’—Dear Bellville! when do you begin your adventure?

But, in ſober ſadneſs, how come you ſo flippant on the ſudden? Thus it is with [155] you all; uſe you ill, and not a ſpaniel can be more under command: but the leaſt encouragement quite ruins you. There is no ſaying a civil thing, but you preſume upon one's favour ſo intolerably.—

Why, yes, as you ſay, the hours paſt pleaſantly enough at Sudley farm. Pretty rural ſcenes, tender Platonic chat, perfect confidence, the harmony of ſouls in uniſon; infinite flattery on your ſide, and implicit belief on mine: the ſprightly god of love gave wings to the rapid hours. The gentle Muſes too.—I think, Bellville, you are a pretty enough poet for a man of faſhion; flowery, mild, not overburdened with ideas.

" O, can you forget the fond hours,
" When all by yon fountain we ſtray'd."

I wiſh I could remember the reſt; but you are a cruel creature, never will leave me a [156] copy of any thing, dreading the ſeverity of my criticiſm: nay, you are right; yours are excellent verſes, as Moliere ſays, to lock up in your bureau.

Peace to the gentle ſpirit of him who invented cards! the very bond of peace, and cement of ſociety.

After a philoſophical enquiry into the ſummum bonum, I find it to conſiſt in play: the more ſublime pleaſures require relaxation, are only for holyday wear, come but now and then, and keep the mind too much expanded: all other delights, all other amuſements, pall; but play, dear, divine, ſeraphic play, is always new, The ſame to-day, to-morrow, and for ever.

[157] It reconciles parties, removes diſtinctions, and reſtores what my lord calls the natural equality of mankind.

I have only one fault to find with it, that for the time it extremely weakens, or rather totally ſuſpends, the impreſſions of beauty: the fineſt woman in the world, whilſt at the card-table, is regarded by the moſt ſuſceptible man only as a being which is to loſe its money.

You will imagine ſucceſs produced theſe wiſe reflexions: yes, we have been playing a moſt engaging pool at quadrille in the wood, where I have with the utmoſt compoſure won an immenſity. If I go on thus, all objections to our union will be removed: I ſhall be literally a fortune in myſelf.

Without vanity, I have ſome little ſkill in the game; but, at preſent, there is no [158] great degree of merit in winning of the friends, who happened to be of my party, with an abſurd conceited ſquire, who loves quality, and thinks it the greateſt honor in the world that I will condeſcend to win his money. We had four tables under the ſhade of a ſpreading oak.

I can no more.—

Adieu.

We have had a penitential letter from the Cittadina, with another from Papa, offering 30,000l. at preſent, and 50,000l. at his death, on condition lord Belmont will get Harry an Iriſh title: knows its a bad match, but wont baulk his girl's fancy; and beſides, conſiders Harry has good blood in his veins: we rejected it politely, but with a little of the Mandeville ſtatelineſs.

O Heavens! Fondville's valet—A billetdoux.—I ſhall be cruel,—This murderous [159] form—I muſt abſolutely hide myſelf, or wear a maſk, in pity to mankind.—My Lord has taken the letter—He brings it me—He is on the ſtairs—How! gone on to lady Belmont's apartment!—A billet, and not to me!—What can it mean?—Can the dear man be falſe?

The infidel! Yes, he has left me—forgot his vows.—This bewitching lady Julia; it is really an heroic exertion of virtue not to hate her. Could you have thought it poſſible—but read his cruel letter.

[160]

To the Earl of BELMONT.

My Lord,

YOUR Lordſhip will be perhaps ſurprized—Yet why ſurprized? Lady Julia is abſolutely an immenſe fine creature: and though marriage, to thoſe who know life, cannot but ſeem an impertinent affair, and what will ſubject me to infinite ridicule; yet cuſtom, and what one owes to one's rank, and keeping up a family!—

In ſhort, my Lord, people of a certain conſequence being above thoſe romantic views which pair the vulgar, I choſe rather to apply to your Lordſhip than the Lady, and flatter myſelf my eſtate will bear the ſtricteſt inſpection: not but that I aſſure your Lordſhip, I ſet a due value on Lady Julia's charms; and though I have viſited every court in Europe, and [161] ſeen all that is lovely in the Beau ſexe, never yet beheld the fair whom I would ſo ſoon wiſh to ſee fill the rank of Lady Viſcounteſs Fondville as her Ladyſhip.

If my pretenſions are ſo happy as to be favorably received by your Lordſhip, I will beg leave to wait on Lady Julia tomorrow, and my lawyer ſhall attend your Lordſhip's wherever and whenever you pleaſe to appoint. Believe me, my Lord, with the moſt perfect devotion,

Your Lordſhip's moſt Obedient and very Humble Servant, Fondville.
[162]

To Lord Viſcount FONDVILLE.

My Lord,

I Am the laſt man in the world to whom it was neceſſary to apologize for an intention of entering into a ſtate which, I have experienced, is productive of ſuch exquiſite felicity.

My daughter's choice is perfectly free, nor ſhall I ever do more than adviſe her, in an affair of ſuch conſequence to herſelf; but from what I know of her character, think it highly improbable ſhe ſhould approve the pretenſions of a man, who profeſſes being above thoſe tender affections which alone can make happy ſenſibility like hers.

Allow me to take the liberty of obſerving, in anſwer to the latter part of your [163] Lordſhips letter, that there are few ranks which Lady Julia Mandeville has not a right to fill. I am, my Lord,

Your Lordſhip's moſt Obedient and devoted Servant, Belmont.

Don't come to Belmont I charge you, I ſhall have this invincible Lady Julia ſeduce you too. Beſides I have ſome reaſons why I chuſe our attachment ſhould not yet come to a criſis; till when, I will take Lady Belmont's advice and be prudent: obey in ſilence; let me have no more ſighs till the milder influence of the heavens diſpoſe me to be gracious. I am always in good humor in Autumn; your ſate may poſſibly be determined in little more than a month: aſk no queſtions: [164] ſuſpend your paſſion, or at leaſt the outward expreſſion of it, and write to me in Amico. Adieu!

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

I Have been riding alone with Lord Belmont this morning, a pleaſure I very often enjoy, and on which I ſet infinite value: in thoſe hours of perfect confidence, I am certain of being inſtructed and amuſed, by a train of ideas uncommon, enlarged, noble, benevolent; and adapted to inſpire me with a love of virtue, by ſhowing her in her native charms: I ſhall be all my life the wiſer and worthier man, for the hours I have paſſed at Belmont.

[165] But, O Mordaunt! ſhall I be the happieſt! that is in the boſom of futurity: a thouſand times have I been tempted, in theſe hours of indulgent friendſhip, to open all my heart to Lord Belmont.

I know his contempt of wealth, and how little he thinks it conducive to happineſs. ‘"Heaven,"’ ſaid he to me this very morning, ‘"has bleſt me with affluence: I am thankful, and endeavor to deſerve, by applying an ample portion of it to the purpoſes of beneficence. But for myſelf, my pleaſures are of ſo unexpenſive and ſimple a kind, that a diminution of fortune would take very little from my private felicity: Health, content, the ſweets of ſocial and domeſtick life, the only enjoyments ſuited to the nature of man, are and ought to be within the reach of all the ſpecies: yes, my dear Mr. Mandeville; it gives a double reliſh to all my pleaſures, [166] to reflect that they are ſuch as every man may enjoy if he will."’

Can this man, my dear Mordaunt, ſacrifice the real happineſs of his child, the calm delight of domeſtic friendſhip on which he ſets ſuch value himſelf, to the gaudy trappings of taſteleſs grandeur? Did ſhe approve my paſſion, I ſhould hope every thing from the moſt indulgent of fathers.

He has refuſed Lord Fondville for Lady Julia, whoſe fortune is as large as avarice itſelf could deſire: Good heaven, that ſuch a man, without one other recommendation, without a ſoul to taſte even the charms of her perſon, can aſpire to all that can be imagined of perfection?

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[167]

O Ciel! I faint! what a world do we live in! How many unavoidable enemies to enjoyment! It is ſometimes too cold, ſometimes too hot to be happy! One is never pleaſed a week together. I ſhall abſolutely grow a ſnarling philoſopher, and find fault with every thing.

Theſe unconſcionable lovers have dragged me croſs an open meadow, expoſed to the ſun's burning rays—no mercy on my complexion—Lady Julia, ſure for her own ſake,—yet ſhe is laughing at my diſtreſs. I am too languid to ſay more.—O for a cooling breeze!

" The whiſpering zephyr, and the purling rill."

[168] We are going to have an addition to our group of friends: Emily Howard, daughter to the late dean of —, a diſtant relation and rector of the pariſh, being expected to-morrow at Belmont: ſhe is Lady Julia's friend in the moſt emphatical ſenſe of the word. Do you know I feel extremely inclined to be jealous of her? and am angry with myſelf for ſuch meanneſs?

To Col. BELLVILLE.

SHE is come, this redoubtable Emily Howard; and, I find I have only a ſecond place in Lady Julia's friendſhip: I would hate her if I could, but it is really impoſſible: ſhe is ſo gentle, ſhe ſteals ones affection imperceptibly, and one has the [169] vexation to be foced to love her in ſpite of ones ſelf.

She has been here three days, and in that ſhort time ſhe has gained amazingly upon my heart: her perſon is little, finely proportioned, and delicate almoſt to fragility; her voice and manner ſoft and timid; her countenance a mixture of innocence and ſweetneſs which would diſarm the rage of a tyger: her heart is tender, kind, compaſſionate; and tremblingly awake to friendſhip, of which ſhe is univerſally the object: Lady Julia doats on her, nor am I ſurprized at it: ſhe appears ſo weak, ſo helpleſs, ſo exquiſitely feminine, it ſeems cruelty not to be her friend: no one ever ſaw her without wiſhing her happineſs: the love one has for her ſeems of a peculiar ſpecies, or moſt nearly reſembles that inſtinctive fondneſs one feels for a beautiful child: it is independent of eſteem, for one loves her before one knows her. It is the [170] pleaſanteſt kind of affection that can be conceived.

Yet though ſhe is extremely handſome, or rather, to ſuit the expreſſion to her form, extremely pretty, ſhe is very little the taſte of men; her exceſſive modeſty renders both her beauty and underſtanding in ſome degree uſeleſs to her; ‘"not obvious not obtruſive,"’ ſhe eſcapes the the obſervation of common eyes; and though infinitely lovely, I never heard ſhe was beloved.

For this very reaſon, the women do her ample juſtice; ſhe is no woman's rival, ſtands in nobody's way, which cannot fail of exciting a general good will towards her, in her own ſex; they even allow her more beauty than ſhe really has, and take a delight in ſetting her charms in oppoſition to every impertinent thing the men are fond of. Yes, ‘"the girl is very well, [171] but nothing to Emily Howard,"’ is the common cry on the appearance of a new beauty.

There is another ſtrong reaſon for loving her; tho' exact in her own conduct, ſhe has an indulgence to that of others, which is a conſequence of her exceſſive gentleneſs of temper, and her ſeeing every action on the favourable ſide: one could own one's greateſt weakneſs to her almoſt without bluſhing, and at this very moment I dare ſay Lady Julia is confeſſing to her her paſſion for Harry Mandeville, who is riding out with my lord. I dare ſay ſhe would find an excuſe for my indiſcretion in regard to you, and ſee only the delicacy of our friendſhip.

She ſings and dances angelically, but ſhe bluſhes to death if you tell her ſo.

[172] Such gentle unaſſuming characters as theſe, make the moſt agreeable friends in the world; they are the mild green of the ſoul, on which it reſts itſelf from more glaring objects: one may be abſurd, one may be vain, one may be imprudent, ſecure of being heard with indulgence: I know nothing which would make her more what I mean but her being a fool: however the indulgent ſweetneſs of her temper anſwers almoſt the ſame purpoſe.

I am diſconſolate that the Caro Enrico is going to deſert us; but the cruel man is inflexible to all my ſoft perſwaſions, and determined to leave us on Wedneſday.

Adieu!

The ſweet Emily is going on Thurſday for ten days to Sir George Martin's, and then returns to finiſh the ſummer here.

[173] O, do you know that I am credibly informed, her favorite Suivante having told it to one, who told it to another, who told it to a good old goſſiping lady, who told it to me, that the Cittadina, who has in vain wrote Harry a penitential letter, is playing off the ſame arts, the ſame dying airs, to Fondville, which had ſuch extreme ill ſucceſs with him; the ſiege is at preſent ſuſpended, not by his addreſſing Lady Julia, which is a profound ſecret to her and every body without theſe walls, but by his mother's death, which has called him haſtily to town; and which by the way adds 2000l. a year to his income. Do you know, that I think the thing may do, if Lady Julia continues cruel; they are abſolutely formed for each other, and it would be a thouſand pities to part them.

To Col. BELLVILLE.

[174]

CERTAINLY next to a new lover the pleaſanteſt thing upon earth is a new friend: let antediluvians take ſeven years to fix, but for us inſects of an hour, nothing can be more abſurd: by the time one has try'd them on theſe maxims, ones taſte for them is worn out. I have made a thouſand friendſhips at firſt ſight, and ſometimes broke them at the ſecond: there is a certain exertion of ſoul, a lively deſire of pleaſing, which gives a kind of volatile ſpirit to a beginning acquaintance, which is extremely apt to evaporate. Some people make a great merit of conſtancy, and it is to be ſure a very laudable virtue; but for my part, I am above diſſembling, My friendſhips wear out like my clothes, but often much faſter.

[175] Not that this is the caſe in regard to Emily Howard; no, really, I think this Penchant is very likely to be laſting; may probably hold out the ſummer.

To-morrow, when Harry leaves us, my Lord, to divert our chagrin, takes us, with three ſtrange belles, and five moſt engaging beaux, a ramble I cannot tell whither.

O heavens! one of our male animals has diſappointed us. Abſolutely I ſhall inſiſt on Harry's attendance; he ſhall defer his journey, I am reſolved: there is no ſupporting a ſcarcity of beaux.

He goes with us; Lady Julia's eyes have prevailed; ſhe had ſeduced him before I went down: his chaiſe is ordered back to wait for ours.

Adio, Cariſſimo.

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[176]

I AM ſtill here; when ſhall I have ſtrength of mind to go? not having heard from my father in the time I expected, I was determined to go to Lord T—'s, whoſe zeal for my intereſt, and great knowledge of mankind, makes him the propereſt perſon I can conſult. My chaiſe was this morning at the door, when my Lord told me, Lady Julia intreated my ſtay a few days longer: ſhe bluſh'd, and with the lovelieſt confuſion confirm'd my Lord's aſſertion: all my reſolution vaniſhed in a moment; there is enchantment in her look, her voice—enchantment which it is not in man to reſiſt.

[177]

I am every hour more unhappy: Lord Fondville's propoſal gives me infinite uneaſineſs; not that I fear ſuch a rival; but it has raiſed the idea of other pretenſions, which may be accepted before it is time for me to avow my deſigns: I have paſs'd this night in forming ſchemes to prevent ſo fatal a blow to all my hopes; and am determined to own my paſſion to the lovely object of it, and entreat her, if no other man is ſo happy as to poſſeſs her heart, to wait one year the reſult of thoſe views which that love which has inſpired may perhaps proſper.

Not certain I ſhall have courage to own my tenderneſs in her preſence, I will write, and ſeize ſome favourable opportunity to give her the letter on which all my happineſs depends: I will aſk no anſwer [178] but from her eyes. How ſhall I meet them after ſo daring an attempt?

We are going to the pariſh church; the coach is at the door: Adieu! ſhe comes! What graces play round that form! What divinity in thoſe eyes! O Mordaunt, what taſk will be difficult to him who has ſuch a reward in view!

To Col. BELLVILLE.

OUR ramble yeſterday was infinitely agreeable; there is ſomething very charming in changing the ſcene; my Lord underſtands the art of making life pleaſurable by making it various.

We have been to the pariſh church, to hear Dr. H. preach; he has that ſpirit in [179] his manner without which the moſt ſenſible ſermon has very little effect on the hearers. The organ, which my Lord gave, is excellent. You know I think muſick an eſſential part of public worſhip, uſed as ſuch by the wiſeſt nations, and commanded by God himſelf to the Jews; it has indeed ſo admirable an effect in diſpoſing the mind to devotion, that I think it ſhould never be omitted.

Our Sundays here are extremely pleaſant: we have, after evening ſervice, a moving rural picture from the windows of the ſaloon, in the villagers, for whoſe amuſement the gardens are that day thrown open.

Our ruſtic Mall is full from five till eight, and there is an inexpreſſible pleaſure in contemplating ſo many groups of neat, healthy, happy-looking people, enjoying the diverſion of walking in theſe lovely [180] ſhades, by the kindneſs of their beneficent Lord, who not only provides for their wants, but their pleaſures.

My Lord is of opinion that Sunday was intended as a day of rejoicing not of mortification; and meant not only to render our praiſes to our benevolent Creator, but to give reſt and chearful relaxation to the induſtrious part of mankind, from the labors of the week.

On this principle, tho he will never ſuffer the leaſt breach of the laws in being, he wiſhes the ſeverity of them ſoftened, by allowing ſome innocent amuſements after the duties of the day are paſt: he thinks this would prevent thoſe fumes of enthuſiaſm which have had here ſuch fatal effects, and could not be offenſive to that gracious power who delights in the happineſs of his creatures, and who by the royal poet has commanded them to praiſe him in the cymbals and dances.

[181] For my own part, having ſeen the good effect of this liberty in catholic countries, I cannot help wiſhing, though a zealous proteſtant, that we were to imitate them in this particular.

It is worth obſerving, that the book of ſports was put forth by the pious, the religious, the ſober Charles the 1ſt, and the law for the more ſtrict obſervation of Sunday paſſed in the reign of the libertine Charles the 2d.

Love of pleaſure is natural to the human heart, and the beſt preſervative againſt criminal ones, is a proper indulgence in ſuch as are innocent.

Theſe are my ſentiments, and I am happy in finding Lord Belmont of the ſame opinion. Adio!

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſquire.

[182]

MORDAUNT, the die is caſt, and the whole happineſs of my life hangs on the preſent moment. After having kept the letter confeſſing my paſſion two days without having reſolution to deliver it, this morning in the garden, being a moment alone with Lady Julia in a ſummer-houſe, the company at ſome diſtance, I aſſumed courage to lay it on a table whilſt ſhe was looking out at a window which had a proſpect that engag'd all her attention: when I laid it down, I trembled, a chillneſs ſeized my whole frame, my heart dy'd within me; I withdrew inſtantly, without even ſtaying to ſee if ſhe took it up: I waited at a little diſtance hid in a cloſe arbour of woodbines, my heart throbbing with apprehenſion, and [183] by the time ſhe ſtaid in the ſummer-houſe, had no doubt of her having ſeen the letter: when ſhe appeared I was ſtill more convinced; ſhe came out with a timid air, and looked round as if fearful of ſurprize: the lively crimſon fluſh'd her cheek, and and was ſucceeded by a dying paleneſs; I attempted to follow, but had not courage to approach her. I ſuffered her to paſs the arbor where I was, and advance ſlowly towards the houſe: when ſhe was out of ſight I went back to the ſummer-houſe, and found the letter was gone. I have not ſeen her. I am called to dinner: my limbs will ſcarce ſupport me: how ſhall I bear the firſt ſight of Lady Julia! how be able to meet her eyes!

I have ſeen her, but my fate is yet undetermined; ſhe has avoided my eyes, which I have ſcarce dar'd to raiſe from the ground: I once look'd at her when ſhe did [184] not obſerve me, and ſaw a melancholy on her countenance which ſtab'd me to the ſoul. I have given ſorrow to the heart of her, whom I would wiſh to be ever moſt happy; and to whoſe good I would ſacrifice the deareſt hope of my ſoul. Yes, Mordaunt, let me be wretched, but let every bleſſing heaven can beſtow, be the portion of the lovelieſt of her ſex.

How little did I know of love, when I gave that name to the ſhameful paſſion I felt for the wife of my friend! the extreme beauty of the counteſs Meleſpini, that unreſerved manner which ſeldom fails to give hope, the flattering preference ſhe ſeemed to give me above all others, lighted up in my ſoul a more violent degree of youthful inclination, which the eſteem I had for her virtues refined to an appearance of the nobleſt of affections, to which it had not the remoteſt real reſemblance.

[185] Without any view in my purſuit of her but my own ſelfiſh gratification, I would have ſacrificed her honor and happineſs to a tranſient fondneſs, which diſhonored my character, and, if ſucceſsful, might have corrupted a heart naturally full of probity; her amiable reproofs, free from that feverity which robs virtue of half her charms, with the generous behaviour of the moſt injured of mankind, recalled my ſoul to honor, and ſtoped me early in the career of folly; time wore out the impreſſion of her charms, and left only a cold eſteem remaining, a certain proof that ſhe was never the object of more than a light deſire, ſince the wounds which real love inflicts are never to be intirely healed.

Such was the infamous paſſion which I yet remember with horror: but my tenderneſs for Lady Julia, more warm, more animated, more violent, has a delicacy of which thoſe only who love like me can [186] form any idea: independent of the charms of her perſon, it can never ceaſe but with life; nor even then if in another ſtate we have any ſenſe of what has paſſed in this; it is eternal, and incorporated with the ſoul. Above every ſelfiſh deſire, the firſt object of my thoughts and wiſhes is her happineſs, which I would die, or live wretched, to ſecure: every action of my life is directed to the ſole purpoſe of pleaſing her: my nobleſt ambition is to be worthy her eſteem. My dreams are full of her; and when I wake, the firſt idea which riſes in my mind is the hope of ſeeing her, and of ſeeing her well and happy: my moſt ardent prayer to the ſupreme Giver of all good is for her welfare.

In true love, my dear Mordaunt, there is a pleaſure abſtracted from all hope of return; and were I certain ſhe would never be mine, nay, certain I ſhould never behold her more, I would not, for all the [187] kingdoms of the world, give up the dear delight of loving her.

Thoſe who never felt this enlivening power, this divinity of the ſoul, may find a poor inſipid pleaſure in tranquillity, or plunge into vicious exceſſes to animate their tedious hours; but thoſe who have, can never give up ſo ſweet, ſo divine a tranſport, but with their exiſtence, or taſte any other joy but in ſubordination.

O Mordaunt! when I behold her, read the ſoft language of thoſe ſpeaking eyes, hear thoſe harmonious ſounds—who that has a ſoul can be inſenſible!—yet there are men dead to all ſenſe of perfection, who can regard that angel form without rapture, can hear the muſic of that voice without emotion! I have myſelf with aſtoniſhment ſeen them, inanimate as the trees around them, liſten coldly to thoſe melting [188] accents—There is a ſweetneſs in her voice, Mordaunt, a melodious ſoftneſs, which fancy cannot paint: the enchantment of her converſation is inexpreſſible.

I am the moſt wretched of mankind, and wretched without the right of complaining: the baſeneſs of my attempt deſerves even the pangs I ſuffer. Could I, who made a parade of refuſing to meet the advances of the daughter of almoſt a ſtranger, deſcend to ſeduce the heireſs of him on earth to whom I am moſt obliged? O Mordaunt! have we indeed two ſouls? Can I ſee ſo ſtrongly what is right, yet want power to act up to my own ſentiments? The torrent of paſſion bears down all before it. I abhor myſelf for this weakneſs. I would give worlds to recall that fatal letter: her coldneſs, her reſerve, are more than I can ſupport. My madneſs has undone me.—My aſſiduity is importunate. [189] I might have preſerved her friendſhip. I have thrown away the firſt happineſs of my life. Her eyes averted ſhun me as an object of hatred. I ſhall not long offend her by my preſence. I will leave her for ever. I am eager to be gone, that I may carry far from her—O Mordaunt! who could have thought that cruelty dwelt in ſuch a form? She hates me, and all my hopes are deſtroyed for ever.

This day, the firſt of my life; what a change has this day produced! Theſe few flying hours have raiſed me above mortality. Yes: I am moſt happy; ſhe loves me, Mordaunt: her conſcious bluſhes, her downcaſt eyes, her heaving boſom, her ſweet confuſion, have told me what her tongue could not utter: ſhe loves me, and all elſe is below my care: ſhe loves me, and I will purſue her. What are the mean [190] conſiderations of fortune to the tender union of hearts? Can wealth or titles deſerve her? No, Mordaunt, love alone.—She is mine by the ſtrongeſt ties, by the ſacred bond of affection. The delicacy of her ſoul is my certain pledge of happineſs: I can leave her without fear; ſhe cannot now be another's.

I told you my deſpair this morning; my Lord propoſed an airing; chance placed me in lady Julia's chaiſe. I entered it with a beating hearr: a tender fear of having offended, inſeparable from real love, kept me ſome time ſilent; at length, with ſome heſitation, I beg'd her to pardon the effect of paſſion and deſpair, vowed I would rather die than diſpleaſe her; that I did not now hope for her love, but could not ſupport her hate.

I then ventured to look up to the lovelieſt of women; her cheeks were ſuffuſed [191] with the deepeſt bluſh; her eyes, in which was the moſt dying languor, were caſt timidly on the ground, her whole frame trembled, and with a voice broken and interrupted, ſhe exclaimed, ‘"Hate you, Mr. Mandeville, O heaven!"’ ſhe could ſay no more; nor did ſhe need, the dear truth broke like a ſudden flaſh of light on my ſoul.

Yet think not I will take advantage of this dear prepoſſeſſion in my favor, to ſeduce her from her duty to the beſt of parents; from Lord Belmont only will I receive her: I will propoſe no engagements contrary to the rights of an indulgent father, to whom ſhe is bound by every tie of gratitude and filial tenderneſs: I will purſue my purpoſe, and leave the event to heaven, to that heaven which knows the integrity, the diſintereſted purity of my intentions: I will evince the reality of my [192] paſſion by endeavoring to be worthy of her. The love of ſuch a woman, is the love of virtue itſelf: it raiſes, it refines, it ennobles every ſentiment of the heart; how different from that fever of ſelfiſh deſire I felt for the amiable counteſs.

O Mordaunt! had you beheld thoſe bluſhes of reluctant ſenſibility, ſeen thoſe charming eyes ſoftened with a tenderneſs as refined as that of angels.—She loves me—let me repeat the dear ſounds.—She loves me, and I am happier than a god!

I have this moment a letter from my father: he approves my deſign, but begs me for a ſhort time to delay it: my heart ill bears this delay: I will carry the letter to lady Julia.

She approves my father's reaſons, yet begs I will leave Belmont: her will is the [193] law of my heart; yet a few days I muſt give to love. I will go on Tueſday to lord T—'s. His friendſhip will aſſiſt me in the only view which makes life ſupportable to me; he will point out, he will lead me to the path of wealth and greatneſs.

Expect to hear from me when I arrive at Lord T—'s. I ſhall not write ſooner: my moments here are too precious.

Adieu.

TO HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſq

[194]

HAPPY in ſeeing in my ſon that heroic ſpirit, which has ever diſtinguiſhed our houſe, I ſhould with pleaſure conſent to his deſign, were this a proper time to execute it, provided he went a volunteer, and determined to accept no command but as a reward of real ſervices, and with a reſolution it ſhould never interfere with that independence to which I would have him ſacrifice every other conſideration; but when there is ſo ſtrong a probability of peace, his going would appear like making a parade of that courage which he did not expect would be tried.

Yes, my ſon, I am well aſſured we ſhall have peace; that the moſt amiable of [195] princes, the friend of humankind, pitying the miſeries of his ſpecies, and melting with compaſſion at the wide extended ſcene of deſolation, meditates ſuch a peace as equally provides for the intereſt and honor of Britain, and the future quiet of mankind. The terms talked of are ſuch as give us an immenſe addition of empire, and ſtrengthen that ſuperiority of naval force on which our very being depends, whilſt they protect our former poſſeſſions, and remove the ſource of future wars, by ſecuring all, and much more than all, for which this was undertaken; yet, by their juſt moderation, convince the world a Britiſh monarch is governed only by the laws of honor and equity, not by that impious thirſt of falſe glory, which actuates the laurel'd ſcourges of mankind.

After ſo long, ſo extenſive and bloody a war, a war which had depopulated our [196] country, and loaded us with a burden of debt, from which nothing can extricate us but the noble ſpirit of public frugality, which, if ſteadily and uniformly purſued, will rank the name of our Prince with thoſe of Elizabeth, and Henry the great, all ardently wiſh for peace, but thoſe who gain by the continuance of war; the clamors of theſe are inconceivable; clamors which can be founded only in private intereſt, becauſe begun before they could even gueſs at the terms intended, and continued when ſuch are mentioned as reaſon herſelf would dictate: but ſuch ever will be the conduct of thoſe in whom love of wealth is the primary paſſion.

Heaven and earth! can men wearing the form, and profeſſing the ſentiments of humanity, deaf to the cries of the widow and the orphan, labor to perpetuate the dreadful carnage, which has deluged the world [197] with the blood of their fellow creatures, only to add to the maſs of their already unweildy wealth, and prey longer on the diſtreſſes of their country!

Theſe clamors are as illegal as they are indecent: peace and war are the prerogative of the crown, ſacred as the liberties of the people, nor will ever be invaded by thoſe who underſtand and love our happy conſtitution: let us ſtrengthen the hands of our ſovereign by our warm approbation during the courſe of this arduous work, and if his miniſters abuſe their truſt, let them anſwer it, not to the noiſe of unthinking faction, or the unfeeling boſom of private intereſt, but to the impartial laws of their country.

Heaven forbid I ſhould ever ſee a Britiſh King independent on his people collectively; but I would have him raiſed above [198] private cabals, or the influence of any partial body of men, however wealthy or reſpectable.

If the generous views of our Prince do not meet with the ſucceſs they merit, if France refuſes ſuch a peace as ſecures the ſafety of our colonies, and that ſuperiority, as a naval power, ſo neceſſary to the liberties of Europe, as well as our own independence, you ſhall join the army in a manner becoming your birth, and the ſtyle of life in which you have been educated: till then reſtrain within juſt bounds that noble ardor ſo becoming a Briton, and ſtudy to ſerve that country with your counſels in peace, which will not, I hope, have occaſion for your ſword in war. Adieu.

To Miſs HOWARD.

[199]

MY Emily, your friend, your unhappy Julia, is undone. He knows the tenderneſs which I have ſo long endeavored to conceal. The trial was too great for the ſoftneſs of a heart like mine; I had almoſt conquered my own paſſion, when I became a victim to his: I could not ſee his love, his deſpair, without emotions which diſcovered all my ſoul: I am not formed for deceit: artleſs as the village maid, every ſentiment of my ſoul is in my eyes; I have not learnt, I will never learn to diſguiſe their expreſſive language. With what pain did I affect a coldneſs to [200] which I was indeed a ſtranger! But why do I wrong my own heart? I did not affect it. The native modeſty of my ſex gave a reſerve to my behavior, on the firſt diſcovery of his paſſion, which his fears magnified into hate. O, Emily! Do I indeed hate him! you to whoſe dear boſom your Julia confides her every thought, tell me if I hate this moſt amiable of mankind? You know by what imperceptible ſteps my inexperienced heart has been ſeduced to love: you know how deceived by the ſacred name of friendſhip—But why do I ſeek to excuſe my ſenſibility? Is he not worthy all my tenderneſs? are we not equal in all but wealth, a conſideration below my care? is not his merit above titles and riches? How ſhall I paint his delicacy, his reſpectful fondneſs? Too plainly convinced of his power over my heart, he diſdains to uſe that power to my diſadvantage; he declares he will never receive me but from my father, he conſents [201] to leave me till a happier fortune enables him to avow his love to all the world; he goes without aſking the leaſt promiſe in his favor. Heaven ſure will proſper his deſigns, will reward a heart like his. O, my Emily, did my father ſee with my eyes! what is fortune in the ballance with ſuch virtue! Had I worlds in my own power, I ſhould value them only as they enabled me to ſhow more ſtrongly the diſintereſtedneſs of my affection.

Born with a too tender heart, which never before found an object worthy its attachment, the exceſs of my affection is unſpeakable. Delicate in my choice even of friends, it was not eaſy to find a lover equal to that idea of perfection my imagination had formed; he alone of all mankind riſes up to it; the ſpeaking grace, the eaſy dignity of his air, are the natural conſequences of the ſuperiority of his ſoul. He [202] looks as if born to command the world. I am interrupted. Adieu.

To Col. BELLVILLE.

YOU never were more miſtaken: you will not have the honor of ſeeing me yet in town. My Lord thinks it infinitely more reſpectful to his royal Maſter to celebrate this happy event in the country.

‘"My congratulations, ſays he, would be loſt in the crowd of a drawing room, but here I can diffuſe a ſpirit of loyalty and joy through half a country, and impreſs all around me with the ſame veneration and love for the moſt amiable of Princes which burns in my own boſom."’

[203] Our entertainment yeſterday was magnifique, and in the Guſto Belmonto: there is a beautiful lake in the park, on the borders of which, on one ſide, interſperſed amongſt the trees, which form a woody theatre round it, at a diſtance of about three hundred yards, tents were fixed for the company to dine in, which conſiſted of all the gentlemen's families twenty miles round. Weſtbrook and his daughter were there, as my Lord would not ſhock them by leaving them only out when the whole neighbourhood were invited; though he obſerved ſmiling, this was a favor, for theſe kind of people were only gentlemen by the courteſy of England. Streamers of the gayeſt colors waved on the tops of the tents, and glittered in the dancing ſunbeams: the tables were ſpread with every delicacy in ſeaſon, at which we placed ourſelves in parties, without ceremony or diſtinction, juſt as choice or accident directed. On a little iſland in the midſt of [204] the lake, an excellent band of muſick was placed, which played ſome of the fineſt compoſitions of Handel during our repaſt; which ended, we ſpread ourſelves on the borders of the lake, where we danced on the verdant green, till tea and coffee again ſummoned us to the tents; and when evening ‘"had in her ſober livery all things clad,"’ a ſuperb ſupper, and grand ball in the ſaloon finiſhed our feſtival.

Nor were the villagers forgot: Tables were ſpread for them on the oppoſite ſide of the lake, under the ſhade of the talleſt trees, and ſo diſpoſed as to form the moſt agreeable points of view to us, as our encampment muſt do to them.

I am ill at deſcribing, but the feaſt had a thouſand unſpeakable charms.

Poor Harry! How I pity him, his whole ſoul was abſorbed in the contemplation [205] of Lady Julia with whom he danced. His eyes perpetually followed her; and if I miſtake not, his will not be the only heart which aches at parting on Tueſday, for ſo long is Harry's going poſtponed. He may go, but, like the wounded deer, he carries the arrow in his breaſt. Adio!

To Miſs HOWARD.

[206]

HOW, my ſweet Emily, ſhall I bear his abſence? an abſence embittered by the remembrance of thoſe lively impaſſioned hours which love alone can give: What joy have I found in owning the ſentiments of my ſoul to one ſo worthy of all my tenderneſs? Yes, Emily, I love him—words can but ill paint what I feel—he, he alone,—yet he leaves Belmont—leaves it by my command, leaves it this very hour, leaves it perhaps for ever—great Heaven! can I ſupport that thought?

If you love, if you pity your unhappy friend, return immediately to Belmont, let me repoſe my ſorrows in that faithful breaſt: Lady Anne is tenderly my friend, but the ſprightlineſs of her character intimidates me: I do not hope to find in her [207] that ſweet indulgence to all my faults, as in the gentle ſoul of my Emily.

I have entreated him to take no leave of me; I ſhall only ſee him with the family: The moment draws near—my fluttering heart—How ſhall I hide my concern!—Lady Anne is coming to my apartment: I muſt go with her to the ſaloon, where he only waits to bid us adieu: his chaiſe is in the court. O Emily! my emotion will betray me.—

He is gone, the whole houſe is in tears: never was man ſo adored, never man ſo infinitely deſerved it. He preſſed my hand to his lips, his eyes ſpoke unutterable love. I leaned almoſt fainting on Lady Anne, and hid my tears in her boſom: ſhe hurried me to my apartment, and left me to give vent to my full heart! She ſees my weakneſs, and kindly ſtrives [208] to hide it from others, whilſt her delicacy prevents her mentioning it to myſelf: ſhe has a tender and compaſſionate heart, and my reſerve is an injury to her friendſhip.

Lady Anne has ſent to aſk me to air; I ſhall be glad to avoid all eyes but hers; perhaps I may have courage to tell her—ſhe merits all my confidence, nor is it diſtruſt but timidity which prevents—ſhe is here—I am aſhamd to ſee her. Adieu! my deareſt, my beloved friend!

To Colonel BELLVILLE.

[209]

WE have loſt our lovely Harry; he left us this morning for Lord T—s. Poor Lady Julia! how I adore her amiable ſincerity! ſhe has owned her paſſion to me as we aired, and mentioned hopes which are founded in madneſs: I ventured gently to remonſtrate, but there is no reaſoning with a heart in love. Time and abſence may effect a cure: I am the confidente of both: I am perplexed how to proceed: I muſt either betray the truſt repoſed in me, or abuſe Lord Belmont's friendſhip and hoſpitality.

In what a falſe light do we ſee every thing through the medium of paſſion! Lady Julia is heireſs to 14,000l. a year, yet [210] thinks Harry's merit may raiſe him to a ſituation which will juſtify his pretending to her, and that this ſtupendous riſe may be brought about in a twelvemonth: he too thinks it poſſible, nay the ſcheme is his. Heaven and earth! yet they are not fools, and Harry has ſome knowledge of mankind.

At preſent there is no talking reaſonably to either of them: I muſt ſoothe them, to bring them off this ruinous inclination by degrees.

As idleneſs is the nurſe of love, I will endeavor to keep Lady Julia continually amuſed: a new lover might do much, but there is nobody near us that is tolerable: indeed the woman who has loved Harry Mandeville, will be ſomewhat hard to pleaſe.

[211] Chance favors my deſigns, my Lord has propoſed a viſit of a fortnight to a neighbouring nobleman, Lord Rochdale, whoſe houſe is generally full of gay people; his ſon too, Lord Melvin, with whom I was acquainted abroad, and who is only inferior to Harry Mandeville, is hourly expected from his travels.

Since I wrote the laſt paragraph an idea has ſtruck me; from a very particular expreſſion in a letter I once received from Lady Belmont, in France, I have a ſtrong ſuſpicion Lord Melvin is intended for Lady Julia; I wiſh he might be agreeable to her, for her preſent paſſion is abſolute diſtraction.

We go to-morrow: when we come back you ſhall hear from me: or, perhaps, for I am ſomething variable in my determinations, as ſoon as I get thither. Expect nothing however: if I do you the honor, [212] you muſt ſet an immenſe value on my condeſcenſion, for I know we ſhall not have a moment to ſpare from amuſements. Adieu!

TO GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

I Have at length left Belmont, and left it certain of Lady Julia's tenderneſs: I am the happieſt of mankind; ſhe loves me, ſhe confeſſes it, I have every thing to hope from time, fortune, perſeverance, and the conſtancy of the moſt amiable of her ſex.

All cold reſerve is baniſhed from that charming boſom; above the meanneſs of ſuſpicion, ſhe believes my paſſion noble and diſintereſted as her own; ſhe hears my vows with a pleaſure which ſhe cannot, [213] nay which ſhe does not wiſh to conceal; ſhe ſuffers me to ſwear eternal tenderneſs—We dined on Wedneſday at the hermitage. The company diſperſed, the moſt delicate of women, not from coquetry, but that ſweet impulſive modeſty, not obvious not obtruſive, which gives to beauty its lovelieſt charm, avoided an opportunity, which eager watchful love at laſt obtained: alone with her in thoſe ſweet ſhades,—O Mordaunt! let not the groſs unloving libertine talk of pleaſure: how taſteleſs are the falſe endearments, the treacherous arts of the venal wanton, to the ſweet unaffected downcaſt eye of virgin innocence, the vivid glow of artleſs tenderneſs, the native vermilion of bluſhing ſenſibility, the genuine ſmile of undiſſembled love!

I write this on the road to Lord T—'s, where I ſhall be to night, I ſhall expect to hear from you immediately. Adieu!

TO HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſquire.

[214]

I Never ſo ſtrongly reliſh the happineſs of my own manner of living, as when I compare it with that of others. I hear perpetual complaints abroad of the tediouſneſs of life, and ſee in every face a certain wearineſs of themſelves, from which I am ſo happy as to be perfectly free. I carry about me an innate diſpoſition to be pleaſed, which is the ſource of continual pleaſure.

That I have eſcaped what is in general the fate of people of my rank, is chiefly owing to my fortunate choice in marriage: our mutual paſſion, the only foundation on which ſenſible ſouls can build happineſs, has been kept alive by a delicacy of behaviour, an angel purity, in Lady Belmont, [215] to which words cannot do juſtice. The tranſports of youthful paſſion yield its ſweetneſs to the delight of that refined, yet animated ſenſation which my heart feels for her at this moment. I never leave her without regret, nor meet her without rapture, the lively rapture of love,

" By long experience mellowed into friendſhip,"

We have been married thirty years: there are people who think ſhe was never handſome; yet to me ſhe is all lovelineſs. I think no woman beautiful but as ſhe reſembles her; and even Julia's greateſt charm, in my eye, is the likeneſs ſhe has to her amiable mother.

This tender, this exquiſite affection, has diffuſed a ſpirit through our whole lives, and given a charm to the moſt common occurrences; a charm to which the dulneſs [216] of apathy, and the fever of guilty paſſion, are equally ſtrangers.

The family where we are furniſh a ſtriking example of the impoſſibility of being happy without the ſoft union of hearts: though both worthy people, having been joined by their parents, without that affection which can alone make ſo near a connexion ſupportable, their lives paſs on in a tedious and inſipid round: without taſte for each other's converſation, they engage in a perpetual ſeries of diverſions, not to give reliſh to, but to exclude, thoſe retired domeſtic hours, which are the moſt ſprightly, and animated of my life; they ſeek, by crowds and amuſements, to fly from each other and from themſelves.

The great ſecret of human happineſs, my dear Mr. Mandeville, conſiſts in finding ſuch conſtant employment for the mind, as, [217] without over-fatiguing, may prevent its languiſhing in a painful inactivity. To this end I would recommend to every man to have not only ſome important point in view, but many ſubordinate ones, to fill up thoſe vacant hours, when our great purpoſe, whatever it is, muſt be ſuſpended: our very pleaſures, even the beſt, will fatigue, if not relieved by variety: the mind cannot always be on the ſtretch, nor attentive to the ſame object, however pleaſing: Relaxation is as neceſſary as activity, to keep the ſoul in its due equipoiſe. No innocent amuſement, however trifling it may ſeem to the rigid or the proud, is below the regard of a rational creature, which keeps the mind in play, and unbends it from more ſerious purſuits.

I often regard at once with pity and aſtoniſhment, perſons of my own rank and age, dragged about in unwieldy ſtate, forging for themſelves the galling fetters of [218] eternal ceremony, or the ſtill heavier chains of ambition; their bodies bending under the weight of dreſs, their minds for ever filled with the idea of their own dignity and importance; to the fear of leſſening which, they ſacrifice all the genuine pleaſures of life.

Heaven grant, my dear friend, I may never be too wiſe, or too proud, to be happy!

To you, my amiable friend, who are juſt entering on the ſtage of life, I would recommend ſuch active purſuits as may make you an uſeful member of ſociety, and contribute to raiſe your own fortune and conſequence in the world, as well as ſecure the eſteem of your fellow citizens, and the approbation of your Prince.

For my own part, like the Roman veterans, I may now be excuſed, if I aſk [219] my diſcharge from thoſe anxious purſuits, which are only becoming in the vigor of our days, and from thoſe ceremonial attentions, which are ſcarce bearable even then. My duty as a ſenator, and my reſpect to my king, nothing but real inability ſhall ever ſuſpend; but for the reſt, I think it time at ſixty to be free, to live to one's ſelf, and in one's own way; and endeavour to be, rather than to ſeem happy.

The reſt of my days, except thoſe I owe to my country and my prince, ſhall be devoted to the ſweets of conjugal and paternal affection, to the lively joys of friendſhip. I have only one wiſh as to this world, to ſee Julia married to a man who deſerves her, who has ſenſibility to make her happy, and whoſe rank and fortune are ſuch as may juſtify us to the world, above which the moſt philoſophic mind cannot entirely riſe; let me but ſee this, and have a hope that they will purſue my [220] plan of life, let me ſee them bleſt in each other, and bleſſing all around them, and my meaſure of earthly felicity will be complete.

You know not, my dear Mr. Mandeville, how much my happineſs in this world has been owing alſo to the lively hope of another: this idea has given me a conſtant ſerenity, which may not improperly be called the health of the mind, and which has diffuſed a brightneſs over all my hours.

Your account of Lord T— made me ſmile; his fear of being diſmiſſed at ſeventy from the toilſome drudgery of buſineſs, is truly ridiculous: rich, childiſh, infirm, ought not eaſe and retirement to be the firſt objects of his wiſhes? But ſuch is the wretched ſlavery of all who are under the abſolute dominion of any paſſion, unguided by the hand of reaſon.

[221] The paſſions of every kind, under proper reſtraints, are the gentle breezes which keep life from ſtagnation; but, let looſe, they are the ſtorms and whirlwinds which tear up all before them, and ſcatter ruin and deſtruction around.

Adieu. I ought to apologize for the length of this; but age is the ſeaſon of garrulity.

To the Earl of BELMONT.

[222]

HOW happy would it be for mankind, if every perſon of your Lordſhip's rank and fortune governed themſelves by the ſame generous maxims!

It is with infinite pain I ſee Lord T— purſuing a plan, which has drawn on him the curſe of thouſands, and made his eſtate a ſcene of deſolation: his farms are in the hands of a few men, to whom the ſons of the old tenants are either forced to be ſervants, or to leave the country to get their bread elſewhere. The village, large, and once populous, is reduced to about eight families; a dreary ſilence reigns over their deſerted fields; the farm houſes, once the ſeats of chearful ſmiling induſtry, now uſeleſs, [223] are falling in ruins around him; his tenants are merchants and engroſſers, proud, lazy, luxurious, inſolent, and ſpurning the hand which feeds them.

Yeſterday one of them went off largely in his debt: I took that occaſion of preſſing him on his moſt vulnerable ſide, and remonſtrating the danger of truſting ſo much of his property in one hand: but I am afraid all I can ſay will have no effect, as he has, by this narrow ſelfiſh plan, a little encreaſed his rents at preſent, which is all he has in view, without extending his thoughts to that future time, when this wretched policy, by depopulating the country, will lower the price of all the fruits of the earth, and leſſen, in conſequence, the value of his eſtate.

With all my friendſhip for Lord T—, I cannot help obſerving in him another fault greatly below his rank and underſtanding, [224] I mean a deſpicable kind of pride, which meaſures worth by the gifts of fortune, of which the largeſt portion is too often in the hands of the leaſt deſerving.

His treatment of ſome gentlemen, whoſe fortunes were unequal to their birth and merit, yeſterday, at his table, almoſt determined me to leave his houſe: I expoſtulated warmly, tho' not impolitely with him on the ſubject, and almoſt got him to confeſs his error. My friendſhip for him, makes me feel ſenſibly what muſt leſſen his character in the eyes of all whoſe eſteem is deſireable. I wiſh him to paſs a month at Belmont, that he may ſee dignity without pride, and condeſcenſion without meanneſs; that he may ſee virtue in her lovelieſt form, and acknowledge her genuine beauty.

I am, my Lord, &c. H. MANDEVILLE.

To GEORGE MORDAUNT, Eſq

[225]

I Have paſt a tedious fortnight at Lord T—'s, without taſting any pleaſure, but that of talking of Lady Julia, with ſome ladies in the neighbourhood who know her: I eſtimate the merit of thoſe I converſe with, by the diſtinction of being known to her: thoſe who are ſo happy as to be of her acquaintance, have in my eye, every charm that poliſhed wit, or elegant knowledge can give; thoſe who want that advantage ſcarce deſerve the name of human beings: all converſation of which ſhe is not the ſubject, is lifeleſs and inſipid; all of which ſhe is, brilliant and divine.

My Lord rallies me on my frequent viſits to theſe Ladies, and, as one of them is extremely handſome, ſuppoſes it a beginning [...]ſſion: the Lady herſelf, I am [226] afraid, is deceived, for as ſhe is particularly warm in her praiſes of Lady Julia, my eyes ſparkle with pleaſure at her approach, I ſingle her out in every company, and dance with her at all our little parties; I have even an attention to her ſuperior to that of common lovers, and feel for her a tenderneſs for which I want a name.

Lady Anne has had the goodneſs to write twice to me, from Lord Rochdale's, whither my Lord went with his amiable family, two days after I left Belmont: Lady Julia is well, ſhe loves me, ſhe hears of me with pleaſure. Ought I at preſent to wiſh more!

I have hinted to Lord T—, my purpoſe, though not the dear motive which inſpired it; he is warmly my friend, if there is truth in man. I will be more explicit the firſt time I ſee him alone: ſhall I own to you one weakneſs of my heart? I would be [227] ſerved by any intereſt but Lord Belmont's: how can I pretend to his daughter, if all I have is, in a manner, his gift? I would be rich independently of his friendſhip.

Lord T— is walking in the garden alone, I will go to him, and explain all my deſigns: his knowledge of mankind will guide me to the beſt road to wealth and honor, his friendſhip will aſſiſt me to the ample extent of his power. Adieu!

To HENRY MANDEVILLE, Eſquire.

[228]

OH, do you know I have a little requeſt to make you? but firſt, by way of preface, I muſt inform you Lady Belmont, has been reading me a ſerious lecture about the Caro Bellville, who has wrote to her to beg her interceſſion in his favor.

I find fools have been impertinent in regard to our friendſhip: there are ſo few pleaſures in this world, I think it extremely hard to give up one ſo lively, yet innocent, as that of indulging a tender eſteem for an amiable man. But to our converſation:

‘"My dear Lady Anne, I am convinced you love Colonel Bellville."’

Love him, Madam? no, I rather think not; I am not ſure: The man is not ſhocking, and dies for me: I pity him poor creature, [229] and pity, your Ladyſhip knows, is a kin to love.

Will you be grave one moment?

A thouſand, if your Ladyſhip deſires it: nothing ſo eaſy to me; the graveſt creature in the world naturally.

You allow Colonel Bellville merit?

Certainement.

That he loves you?

To diſtraction.

And you return it?

Why as to that—he flatters agreeably, and I am fond of his converſation on that account: and let me tell you, my dear Lady Belmont, it is not every man that can flatter; it requires more genius than one would ſuppoſe.

[230] You intend ſome time or other to marry him?

Marry? O heavens! How did ſuch a thought enter your Ladyſhip's imagination? Have not I been married already? And is not once enough in conſcience, for any reaſonable woman!

Will you pardon me if I then aſk, with what view you allow his addreſs?

I allow? Heavens, Lady Belmont! I allow the addreſſes of an odious male animal? if fellows will follow one, how is to be avoided! it is ones misfortune to be handſome, and one muſt bear the conſequences.

But, my dear Lady Anne, an unconected life,—Is the pleaſanteſt life in the world. Have not I 3000l. a year? am not I a widow? miſtreſs of my own actions? with youth, health, a tolerable underſtanding, [231] an air of the world, and a perſon not very diſagreeable?

All this I own.

All this? yes, and twenty times more, or you do nothing. Have not theſe unhappy eyes, carryed deſtruction from one climate to another? Have not the ſprightly French, the haughty Romans, confeſt themſelves my ſlaves? Have not—But it would take up a life to tell you all my conqueſts.

But what is all this to the purpoſe, my dear?

Now I proteſt I think it is vaſtly to the purpoſe. And all this you adviſe me to give up to become a tame domeſtic, inanimate—really my dear Madam, I did not think it was in your nature to be ſo unreaſonable.

It is with infinite pain, my deareſt Lady Anne, I bring myſelf to ſay any thing [232] which can give you a moment's uneaſineſs. But it is the taſk of true friendſhip—

To tell diſagreeable truths: I know that is what your Ladyſhip would ſay: and, to ſpare you what your delicacy ſtarts at mentioning, you have heard aſperſions on my character, which are the conſequences of my friendſhip for Col. Bellville.

I know and admire the innocent chearfulneſs of your heart, but I grieve to ſay, the opinion of the world—

As to the opinion of the world, by which is meant the malice of a few ſpiteful old cats, I am perfectly unconcerned about it; but your Ladyſhip's eſteem is neceſſary to my happineſs: I will therefore to you vindicate my conduct: which, though indiſcreet, has been really irreproachable. Though a widow, and accountable to nobody, I have ever lived [233] with Colonel Bellville, with the reſerve of bluſhing apprehenſive fifteen, whilſt the warmth of my friendſhip for him, and the pleaſure I found in his converſation, have let looſe the baleful tongue of envy, and ſubjected my reſolution to the malice of an ill-judging world, a world I deſpiſe for his ſake, a world, whoſe applauſe is too often beſtowed on the cold, the ſelfiſh, and the artful, and denied to that generous unſuſpecting openneſs and warmth of heart, which are the ſtrongeſt characteriſticks of true virtue. My friendſhip, or if you pleaſe my love, for Colonel Bellville, is the firſt pleaſure of my life; the happieſt hours of which have been paſt in his converſation; nor is there any thing I would not ſacrifice to my paſſion for him, but his happineſs; which, for reaſons unknown to your Ladyſhip, is incompatible with his marrying me.

[234] But is it not poſſible to remove thoſe reaſons?

I am afraid not.

Would it not then, my dear Madam, be moſt prudent tobreak off a connexion, which can anſwer no purpoſe but making both unhappy?

I own it would, but prudence was never a part of my character. Will you forgive and pity me Lady Belmont, when I ſay, that though I ſee in the ſtrongeſt light my own indiſcretion, I am not enough miſtreſs of my heart to break with the man to whom I have only a very precarious and diſtant hope of being united? There is an enchantment in his friendſhip, which I have not force of mind to break through, he is my guide, my guardian, protector, friend; the only man I ever loved, the man to whom the laſt receſſes of my heart are open: muſt I give up the tender exquiſite refined delight of his converſation, [235] to the falſe opinion of a world, governed by prejudice judging by the exterior, which is generally fallacious, and condemning, without diſtinction, thoſe ſoft affections without which life is ſcarcely above vegetation?

Do not imagine, my dear Lady Belmont, I have really the levity I affect: or, had my prejudices againſt marriage been ever ſo ſtrong, the time I have paſſed here would have removed them: I ſee my Lord and you, after an union of thirty years, with as keen a reliſh for each other's converſation as you could have felt at the moment which firſt joined you: I ſee in you all the attention, the tender ſolicitude of beginning love, with the calm delight and perfect confidence of habitual friendſhip. I am therefore convinced marriage is capable of happineſs, to which an unconnected ſtate is lifeleſs and inſipid; and from obſerving the lovely delicacy of your [236] Ladyſhip's conduct, I am inſtructed how that happineſs is to be ſecured; I am inſtructed how to avoid that taſteleſs, languid, unimpaſſioned hour, ſo fatal to love and friendſhip.

With the man to whom I was a victim, my life was one continued ſcene of miſery; to a ſenſible mind, there is no cold medium in marriage; its ſorrows, like its pleaſures, are exquiſite. Relieved from thoſe galling chains, I have met with a heart ſuited to my own; born with the ſame ſenſibility, the ſame peculiar turn of thinking: pleaſed with the ſame pleaſures and exactly formed to make me happy: I will belive this ſimilarity was not given to condemn us both to wretchedneſs: as it is impoſſible either of us can be happy but with the other, I will hope the bar, which at preſent ſeems invincible, may be removed: till then indulge me, my dear Lady Belmont, in the innocent [237] pleaſure of loving him, and truſt to his honor for the ſafety of mine.

The moſt candid and amiable of women, after a gentle remonſtrance on the importance of reputation to happineſs, left me, ſo perfectly ſatisfied, that ſhe intends to invite Bellville down. I ſend you this converſation as an introduction to a requeſt I have to make you, which I muſt poſtpone to my next. Heavens! how perverſe! interrupted by one of the verieſt cats in nature, who will not leave us till ages after the poſt is gone. Adieu! for the preſent! it is pretily enough contrived, and one of the great advantages of ſociety, that ones time, the moſt precious of all poſſeſſions, is to be ſacrifiſed, from a falſe politeneſs to every idle creature who knows not what elſe to do. Every body complains of this, but nobody attempts to remedy it.

[238] Am not I the moſt inhuman of women, to write two ſheets without naming Lady Julia? She is well, and beautiful as an angel: we have a ball to-night on Lord Melvin's return, againſt which ſhe is putting on all her charms. We ſhall be at Belmont to-morrow, which is two or three days ſooner than my Lord intended.

Lady Julia dances with Lord Melvin, who is, except two, the moſt amiable man I know: ſhe came up juſt as I ſat down to write, and looked as if ſhe had ſomething to ſay: ſhe is gone, however, without a word; her childiſh baſhfulneſs about you is intolerable.

The ball waits for us. I am interrupted by extreme pretty fellow, Sir Charles Mellifont, who has to-night the honor of my hand. Adio!

To Lady ANNE WILMOT.

[239]

‘"WE have a ball to-night on Lord Melvin's return, againſt which ſhe is putting on all her charms."’

O Lady Anne! can you indeed know what it is to love, yet play with the anxiety of a tender heart? I can ſcarce bear the thought of her looking lovely in my abſence, or in any eyes but mine; how then can I ſupport the idea of her endeavoring to pleaſe another, of her putting on all her charms to grace the return of a man, young, amiable, rich, noble, and the ſon of her father's friend? a thouſand fears, a thouſand conjectures torment me: ſhould ſhe love another—the poſſibility diſtracts [240] me.—Go to her, and aſk her if the tendereſt, moſt exalted paſſion, if the man who adores her—I know not what I would ſay—You have ſet me on the rack—If you have pity, my deareſt Lady Anne, loſe not a moment to make me eaſy.

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