A TOKEN FOR CHILDREN.
The Firſt Part.
[]EXAMPLE I. Of one eminently converted, between eight and nine years old, with an account of her life and death.
MRS. Sarah Howley, when ſhe was between eight and nine years old, was carried by her friends to hear a ſermon, where the miniſter preach⯑ed upon Mat. xi. 13. My yoke is eaſy, and my burden is light: in the applying of which ſcripture, this child was mightily awakened, and made deeply ſen⯑ſible of the condition of her ſoul, and her need of Chriſt; ſhe wept bitterly to think what a caſe ſhe was in; and went home and got by herſelf into a chamber, and upon her knees ſhe wept and cried to the Lord as well as ſhe could, which might eaſily be perceived by her eyes and countenance.
2. She was not contented at this, but ſhe got her little brother and ſiſter into a chamber with her, and told them of their condition by nature, and wept over them, and prayed with them and for them.
[2]3. After this ſhe heard another ſermon upon Prov. xxix. 1. He that, being often reproved, hardneth his heart, ſhall ſuddenly be deſtroyed, and that without remedy: at which ſhe was more affected than before, and was ſo exceeding ſollicitous about her ſoul, that ſhe ſpent a great part of the night in weeping and praying, and could ſcarce take any reſt day or night for ſome time together, deſiring with all her ſoul to eſcape from everlaſting flames, and to get an intereſt in the Lord Jeſus; O what ſhould ſhe do for Chriſt! what ſhould ſhe do to be ſaved?
4. She gave herſelf much to attending upon the word preached, and ſtill continued very tender un⯑der it, greatly favouring what ſhe heard.
5. She was very much in ſecret prayer, as might eaſily be perceived by thoſe who liſtened at the chamber door, and was uſually very importunate, full of tears.
6. She could ſcarce ſpeak of ſin, or be ſpoke to, but her heart was ready to melt.
7. She ſpent much time in reading the ſcripture, and a book called The beſt friend in the worſt of times; by which the work of God was much pro⯑moted upon her ſoul, and was much directed by it how to get acquaintance with God, eſpecially to⯑ward the end of that book. Another book that ſhe was much delighted with, was Mr. Swinnock's Chriſtian Man's Calling, and by this ſhe was taught in this meaſure to make religion her buſineſs. The Spiritual Bee was a great companion of hers.
8. She was exceeding dutiful to her parents, very loath to grieve them in the leaſt: and if ſhe had at any time (which was very rare) offended them ſhe would weep bitterly.
9. She abhorred lying, and allowed herſelf in no known ſin.
[3]10. She was very conſcientious in ſpending of time, and hated idleneſs, and ſpent her whole time either in praying, reading, inſtructing at her needle, at which ſhe was very ingenious.
11. When ſhe was at ſchool, ſhe was eminent for her diligence, teachableneſs, meekneſs and modeſty, ſpeaking little; but when ſhe did ſpeak, it was uſu⯑ally ſpiritual.
12. She continued in this courſe of religious duties for ſome years together.
13. When ſhe was about fourteen years old, ſhe brake a vein in her lungs (as is ſuppoſed) and oft did ſpit blood, yet did a little recover again, but had ſeveral dangerous relapſes.
14. At the beginning of January laſt ſhe was taken very bad again, in which ſickneſs ſhe was in great diſtreſs of ſoul. When ſhe was firſt taken ſhe ſaid, O mother, pray, pray, pray for me, for Satan is ſo buſy that I cannot pray for myſelf; I ſee I am undone without Chriſt, and a pardon! O, I am undone unto all eternity!
15. Her mother knowing how ſerious ſhe had been formerly, did a little wonder that ſhe ſhould be in ſuch agonies: upon which her mother aſked her what ſin it was that was ſo burthenſome to her ſpirits: O mother, ſaid ſhe, it is not any particular ſin of omiſſion or commiſſion, that ſticks ſo cloſe to my conſcience, as the ſin of my nature; without the blood of Chriſt, that will damn me.
16. Her mother aſked her, what ſhe ſhould pray for, for her; ſhe anſwered, That I may have a ſaving knowledge of ſin and Chriſt: and that I may have an aſſurance of God's love to my ſoul. Her mother aſked her why ſhe did ſpeak ſo little to the miniſter that came to her? She anſwered, that it was her duty with patience and ſilence to [4]learn of them: and it was exceeding painful to her to ſpeak to any.
17. One time when ſhe fell into a fit ſhe cried out, O I am going, I am going: but what ſhall I do to be ſaved? Sweet Lord Jeſus I will lye at thy feet, and if I periſh it ſhall be at the fountain of thy mercy.
18. She was much afraid of preſumption, and dreaded a miſtake in the matters of her ſoul, and would be often putting up ejaculations to God, to deliver her from deceiving herſelf. To inſtance in one: Great and mighty God, give me faith and true faith, Lord, that I may not be a fooliſh virgin, having a lamp and no oyl.
19. She would many times be laying hold upon the promiſes, and plead them in prayer. That in Mat. xi. 28.29. was much on her tongue, and no ſmall relief to her ſpirit. How many times would ſhe cry out, Lord, haſt thou not ſaid, Come unto me all ye that are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you reſt.
20. Another time her father bid her be of good cheer, becauſe ſhe was going to a better father; at which ſhe was much affected, and ſaid, but how do I know that? I am a poor ſinner that wants aſſurance; O for aſſurance! It was ſtill her note, O for aſſurance. This was her great, earneſt and conſtant requeſt, to all that came to her, to beg aſſurance for her; and, poor heart, ſhe would look with ſo much eagerneſs upon them, as if ſhe deſired nothing in the world ſo much as that they would pity her, and help her with their prayers; never was poor creature more earneſt for any thing, than ſhe was for an aſſurance, and the light of God's countenance; O the piteous moan that ſhe would make! O the agonies that her ſoul was in!
[5]21. Her mother aſked her, if God ſhould ſpare her life, how ſhe would live? Truly mother, ſaid ſhe, we have ſuch baſe hearts, that I cannot tell; we are apt to promiſe great things when we are ſick, but when we are recovered, we are as ready to forget our ſelves, and turn again unto folly; but I hope I ſhall be more careful of my time, and my ſoul, than I have been.
22. She was full of natural affection to her pa⯑rents, and very careful leſt her mother ſhould be tired out with much watching: her mother ſaid, how ſhall I bear parting with thee, when I have ſcarce dryed my eyes for thy brother? She an⯑ſwered, the God of love ſupport and comfort you: it is but a little while, and we ſhall meet in glory, I hope. She being very weak, could ſpeak but little, therefore her mother ſaid, child, if thou haſt any comfort, lift up thy hand; which ſhe did.
23. The Lord's day before that in which ſhe died, a kinſman of hers came to ſee her, and aſk⯑ing of her, whether ſhe knew him; ſhe anſwered, yea, I know you, and I deſire you would learn to know Chriſt; you are young, but you know not how ſoon you may die; and O to die without Chriſt it is a fearful thing: O redeem time! O time, time, time, precious time! Being requeſted by him not to ſpend herſelf, ſhe ſaid, ſhe would fain do all the good ſhe could while ſhe lived, and when ſhe was dead too, if poſſible; upon which ac⯑count, ſhe deſired that a ſermon might be preach⯑ed at the funeral concerning the preciouſneſs of time. O that young ones would now remember their creator!
24. Some miniſters that came to her, did with earneſtneſs beg that the Lord would pleaſe to give her ſome token for good, that ſhe might go off [6]triumphing, and bills of the ſame nature were ſent to ſeveral churches.
25. After ſhe had long waited for an anſwer of their prayers, ſhe ſaid, Well, I will venture my ſoul upon Chriſt.
26. She carried it with wonderful patience, and yet would often pray that the Lord would give her more patience, which the Lord anſwered to aſtoniſh⯑ment; for conſidering the pains and agonies that ſhe was in, her patience was next to a wonder: Lord, Lord, give me patience, ſaid ſhe, that I may not diſhonour thee.
27. Upon Thurſday, after long waiting, great fears, and many prayers, when all her friends thought ſhe had been paſt ſpeaking, to the aſ⯑toniſhment of her friends ſhe broke forth thus, with a very audible voice, and chearful counte⯑nance: Lord, thou haſt promiſed, that whoſoever comes unto thee, thou wilt in no ways caſt out; Lord, I come unto thee, and ſurely thou wilt in no ways caſt me out. O ſo ſweet! O ſo glo⯑rious is Jeſus! O, I have the ſweet and glorious Jeſus; he is ſweet, he is ſweet, he is ſweet! O the admirable love of God in ſending Chriſt! O free grace to a poor loſt creature! And thus ſhe ran on repeating many of theſe things an hundred times over; but her friends were ſo aſtoniſhed to ſee her in this divine rapture, and to hear ſuch gracious words, and her prayers and deſires ſatiſ⯑fied, that they could not write a quarter of what ſhe ſpoke.
28. When her ſoul was thus raviſhed with the love of Chriſt, and her tongue ſo highly ingaged in the magnifying of God, her father, brethren and ſiſters, with others of the family, were called [7]to whom ſhe ſpake particularly, as her ſtrength would give leave. She gave her bible as a legacy to one of her brothers, and deſired him to uſe [...]hat well for her ſake; and added, to him and [...]he reſt, O make uſe of time to get Chriſt for [...]our ſouls; ſpend no time in running up and [...]own in playing; O get Chriſt for your ſouls while you are young; remember now your creator before you come to a ſick bed; put not off this great work till then, for then you will find it a [...]ard work indeed. I know by experience, the [...]evil will tell you it is time enough, and ye are [...]oung, what need you to be in ſuch haſte? You [...]ill have time enough when you are old. But [...]here ſtands one (meaning her grandmother) that [...]ays behind, and I that am but young, am going [...]efore her. O therefore make your calling and election ſure, while you are in health. But I am [...]fraid this will be but one night's trouble to your thoughts; but remember, theſe are the words of [...] dying ſiſter. O if you knew how good Chriſt [...]as! O if you had but one taſte of his ſweetneſs, [...]ou would rather go to him a thouſand times than [...]ay in this wicked world. I would not for ten [...]houſand, and ten thouſand worlds, part with my [...]ntereſt in Chriſt, O how happy am I, that I am going to everlaſting joys! I would not go back again for twenty thouſand worlds, and will you not [...]trive to get an intereſt in Chriſt.
29. After this, looking upon one of her father's ſervants, ſhe ſaid, what ſhall I do? what ſhall I do at the great day, when Chriſt ſhall ſay to me, Come thou bleſſed of my father, inherit the kingdom prepared for thee: and ſhall ſay to the wicked, Go thou curſed into the lake that burns for ever? What a grief is it for me to think, that I ſhall ſee any [8]of my friends, that I knew upon earth, turned into that lake that burns for ever! O that word fo [...] ever, remember that for ever! I ſpeak theſe words to you, but they are nothing, except God ſpeak to you too; O pray, pray, pray that God would give you grace! and then ſhe prayed, O Lord, finiſh thy work upon their fouls; it will be my comfort to ſee you in glory, but it will be your everlaſting happineſs.
30. Her grandmother told her ſhe ſpent herſelf too much; ſhe ſaid, I care not for that, if I could do any ſoul good. O with what vehemence did ſhe ſpeak, as if her heart were in every word ſhe ſpoke.
31. She was full of divine ſentences, and almoſt all her diſcourſe, from the firſt to the laſt, in the time of her ſickneſs, was about her ſoul, Chriſt's ſweetneſs, and the ſouls of others, in a word, like a continued ſermon.
32. Upon Friday, after ſhe had had ſuch lively diſcoveries of God's love, ſhe was exceeding de⯑ſirous to die, and cried out, Come Lord Jeſus, come quickly, conduct me to thy tabernacle, I am a poor creature without thee; but Lord Jeſus, my ſoul longs to be with thee; O when ſhall it be [...] Why not now, dear Jeſus? Come Lord Jeſus, come quickly; but why do I ſpeak thus? Thy time, dear Lord, is the beſt; O give me patience!
33. Upon Saturday ſhe ſpoke very little (be⯑ing very drowſy) yet now and then ſhe dropt theſe words. How long ſweet Jeſus? Finiſh thy work, come away ſweet dear Lord Jeſus, come quickly; ſweet Lord help, come away, now, now, dear Jeſus come quickly; good Lord give patience to me to wait thy appointed time, Lord Jeſus help me, help me, help me. Thus at ſeveral [9]times (when out of her ſleep) for ſhe was aſleep the [...]eateſt part of the day.
34. Upon the Lord's Day ſhe ſcarce ſpoke any [...]ing, but much deſired that bills of thankſgiving [...]ight be ſent to thoſe who had formerly been [...]raying for her, that they might help her to praiſe God for that full aſſurance that he had given her of is love; and ſeemed to be much ſwallowed up [...]ith the thoughts of God's free love to her ſoul. [...]he oft commended her ſpirit into the Lord's hands; [...]nd the laſt words which ſhe was heard to ſpeak, [...]ere theſe, Lord help, Lord Jeſus help, dear Jeſus, [...]eſſed Jeſus.—And thus upon the Lord's day, between nine and ten of the clock in the forenoon, [...]e ſlept ſweetly in Jeſus, and began an everlaſting [...]bbath, February 19, 1670.
EXAMPLE II. Of a child that was admirably affected with the things of God, when he was between two and three years old; with a brief ac⯑count of his life and death.
A Certain little child, when he could not ſpeak plain, would be crying after God, [...]nd was greatly deſirous to be taught good [...]ings.
2. He could not endure to be put to bed with⯑ [...]ut family duty, but would put his parents upon [...]uty, and would with much devotion kneel down, [10]and with great patience and delight continue [...] duty was at an end, without the leaſt expreſſion of being weary; and he ſeemed never ſo well pleaſ⯑ed, as when he was ingaged in duty.
3. He could not be ſatisfied with family duty but he would be oft upon his knees, by himſelf, i [...] one corner or other.
4. He was much delighted to hear the word [...] God either read or preached.
5. He loved to go to ſchool, that he migh [...] learn ſomething of God, and would obſerve an [...] take great notice of what he had read, and com [...] home and ſpeak of it with much affection; and h [...] would rejoice in his book, and ſay to his mother O mother! I have had a ſweet leſſon to day, wi [...] you pleaſe to give me leave to fetch my book tha [...] you may hear it?
6. As he grew up he was more and more affect⯑ed with the things of another world; ſo that [...] we had not received our information from on [...] that is of undoubted fidelity, it would ſeem in⯑credible.
7. He quickly learned to read the ſcriptures, an [...] would, with great reverence, tenderneſs and groa [...] read till tears and ſobs were ready to hinder him.
8. When he was at ſecret prayer, he would wee [...] bitterly.
9. He was wont oftentimes to complain of th [...] naughtineſs of his heart, and ſeemed to be mu [...] grieved for the corruption of his nature, and fo [...] actual ſin.
10. He had a vaſt underſtanding in the things o [...] God, even to a wonder, for one of his age.
11. He was much troubled for the wandering [...] his thoughts in duty, and that he could not kee [...] [11]his heart always fixed upon God, and the work he was about, and his affections conſtantly raiſed.
12. He kept a watch over his heart, and ob⯑ſerved the workings of his ſoul, and would com⯑plain that they were ſo vain and fooliſh, and ſo [...]ttle buſied about ſpiritual things.
13. As he grew up, he grew daily in knowledge [...]nd experience, and his carriage was ſo heavenly, [...]nd his diſcourſe ſo excellent and experimental, [...]hat it made thoſe which heard it, even aſtoniſhed.
14. He was exceeding importunate with God in [...]uty; and would ſo plead with him, and uſe ſuch arguments in prayer, that one would think it were impoſſible it ſhould enter into the heart of a child; [...]e would beg, and expoſtulate, and weep, ſo that [...]ometimes it could not be kept from the ears of [...]eighbours; one of the next houſe was forced to cry [...]ut, the prayers and tears of that child will ſink me [...]o hell, becauſe by it he condemns my neglect of [...]rayer, and my ſlight performance of it.
15. He was very fearful of wicked company, [...]nd would oft beg of God to keep him from it, [...]nd that he might never be pleaſed in them that [...]ook delight in diſpleaſing of God; and when [...]e was at any time in hearing of their wicked words, taking the Lord's name in vain, or ſwear⯑ [...]ng, or any filthy words, it would even make him [...]emble, and ready to go home and weep.
16. He abhorred lying, with his ſoul.
17. When he had committed any fault, he was [...]aſily convinced of it, and would get in ſome corner [...]nd ſecret place, and with tears beg pardon of God, [...]nd ſtrength againſt ſuch a ſin. He had a friend [...]hat oft watched him, and liſtned at his chamber⯑ [...]oor, from whom I received this narrative.
[12]18. When he had been aſked, whether he would commit ſuch a ſin again, he would never promiſe abſolutely, becauſe he ſaid his heart was naught [...] but he would weep, and ſay, he hoped by the grace of God he ſhould not.
19. When he was left at home alone upon th [...] Sabbath days, he would be ſure not to ſpend any part of the day in idleneſs and play, but be buſied in praying, reading in the bible, and getting o [...] his catechiſm.
20. When other children were playing, he would many a time and oft be praying.
21. One day a certain perſon was diſcourſing with him about the nature, offices, and excellency of Chriſt, and that he alone can ſatisfy for ou [...] ſins, and merit everlaſting life for us, and abou [...] other of the great myſteries of redemption; h [...] ſeemed ſavingly to underſtand them, and was great⯑ly delighted with the diſcourſe.
22. One ſpeaking concerning the reſurrection o [...] the body, he did acknowledge it, but that th [...] ſame weak body that was buried in the church⯑yard, ſhould be raiſed again, he thought very ſtrange, but with admiration yielded, that nothing was impoſſible to God; and that very day he wa [...] taken ſick unto death.
23. A friend of his aſked him whether he wer [...] willing to die, when he was firſt taken ſick; he an⯑ſwered no; becauſe he was afraid of his ſtate as [...] another world: Why child, ſaid the other, tho [...] didſt pray for a new heart, for an humble, and [...] ſincere heart, and I have heard thee; didſt tho [...] not pray with thy heart? I hope I did, ſaid he.
24. Not long after, the ſame perſon aſked him again, whether he were willing to die? He anſwer⯑ed, now I am willing, for I ſhall go to Chriſt.
[13]25. One aſked him what ſhould become of his ſiſter, if he ſhould die and leave her? He anſwered, the will of the Lord muſt be done.
26. He ſtill grew weaker and weaker, but car⯑ried it with a great deal of ſweetneſs and patience, waiting for his change, and at laſt did chearfully commit his ſpirit unto the Lord; calling upon his name, and ſaying, Lord Jeſus, Lord Jeſus, — in whoſe boſom he ſweetly ſlept, dying, as I remem⯑ber, when he was about ſix years old.
EXAMPLE III. Of a little Girl that was wrought upon when ſhe was between four and five years old, with ſome account of her holy life and triumphant death.
1. MARY A. when ſhe was between four and five years old, was greatly affected in hear⯑ing the word of God, and became very ſollicitous about her ſoul and everlaſting condition, weeping bitterly to think what would become of her in an⯑other world, aſking many queſtions concerning God and Chriſt, and her own ſoul. So that this little Mary, before ſhe was full five years old, ſeemed to mind the one thing needful, and to chooſe the bet⯑ter part, and ſate at the feet of Chriſt many a time and oft with tears.
2. She was wont to be much in ſecret duty, and many times come off from her knees with tears.
3. She would chooſe ſuch times and places for ſe⯑cret duty, as might render her leſs obſerved by [14]others, and did endeavour what ſhe poſſibly could to conceal what ſhe was doing, when ſhe was en⯑gaged in ſecret duty.
4. She was greatly afraid of hypocriſy, and o [...] doing any thing to be ſeen of men, and to get com⯑mendation and praiſe; and when ſhe had heard on [...] of her brothers ſaying, that he had been by himſelf at prayer, ſhe rebuked him ſharply, and told him how little ſuch prayers were like to profit him, an [...] that it was little to his praiſe to pray like a hypo⯑crite, and to be glad that any ſhould know what h [...] had been doing
5. Her mother being full of ſorrow after the death of her huſband, this child came to her mo⯑ther, and aſked her why ſhe wept ſo exceedingly Her mother anſwered, ſhe had cauſe enough [...] weep, becauſe her father was dead: No, dear m [...] ⯑ther, ſaid the child, you have no occaſion to w [...] ſo much, for God is a good God ſtill to you.
6. She was a dear lover of faithful miniſters. On [...] time, after ſhe had been hearing of Mr. Whitaker ſhe ſaid, I love that man dearly, for the ſwee [...] words that he ſpeaks concerning Chriſt.
7. Her book was her delight, and what ſhe di [...] read, ſhe loved to make her own, and cared not fo [...] paſſing over what ſhe learned, without extraordi⯑nary obſervations and underſtanding and man [...] times ſhe was ſo ſtrangely affected in reading of th [...] ſcriptures, that ſhe would burſt out into tears, an [...] would hardly be pacified; ſo greatly was ſhe take [...] with Chriſt's ſufferings, the zeal of God's ſervant [...] the danger of a natural ſtate.
8. She would complain oftentimes of the cor⯑ruption of her nature, of the hardneſs of he [...] heart, that ſhe could repent no more thoroughly and be no more humble and grieved for her ſi [...] [15]againſt a good God, and when ſhe did thus com⯑ [...]lain, it was with abundance of tears.
9. She was greatly concerned for the ſouls of [...]thers, and grieved to think of the miſerable con⯑ [...]tion that they were in upon this account; when [...]e could handſomely, ſhe would be putting in ſome⯑thing concerning Chriſt; but above all, ſhe would [...]o what ſhe could to draw the hearts of her bre⯑ [...]ren and ſiſters after Chriſt: and there was no [...]hall hopes, that her example and good counſel did [...]evail with ſome of them when they were very [...]oung, to get into corners to pray, and to aſk very [...]acious queſtions about the things of God.
10. She was very conſcientious in keeping the [...]bbath, ſpending the whole time either in reading [...] praying, or learning her catechiſm, or teaching [...]r brethren and ſiſters. One time when ſhe was [...]ft at home upon the Lord's day, ſhe got ſome [...]her little children together, with her brothers and [...]ters, and inſtead of playing (as other naughty [...]ildren uſe to do) ſhe told them, that that was the [...]ord's day, and that they ought to remember that [...]y to keep it holy; and then ſhe told them, how [...] was to be ſpent in religious exerciſes all the day [...]ng, except ſo much as was to be taken up in the [...]rks of neceſſity and mercy; then ſhe prayed with [...]em herſelf, and, among other things, begged [...]at the Lord would give grace and wiſdom to thoſe [...]le children, that they might know how to ſerve [...]m: as one of thoſe little ones in the company [...]th her told afterwards.
11. She was a child of great tenderneſs and [...]mpaſſion to all, full of bowels of pity; whom [...]e could not be [...]p, ſhe would be ready to weep [...]er; eſpecially if ſhe ſaw her mother at any time [16]troubled, ſhe would quickly make her ſorrows he [...] own, and weep for her, and with her.
12. When her mother had been ſomewhat ſolli⯑citious about any worldly thing, ſhe would, if ſh [...] could poſſibly, put her off from her care one wa [...] or other. One time ſhe told her, O mother, th [...] grace of God is better than that (meaning ſome⯑thing her mother wanted) I had rather have the gra [...] and love of Chriſt, than any thing in the world.
13. This child was often muſing and buſied [...] the thoughts of her everlaſting work; witneſs th [...] ſtrange queſtion, O what are they doing which a [...] already in heaven? And ſhe ſeemed to be great deſ [...]ous to be among them that were praiſi [...] loving, delighting in God, and ſerving of hi [...] without ſin. Her language about ſpiritual matter made many excellent chriſtians to ſtand amazed, [...] judging it ſcarce to be paralleled.
14. She took great delight in reading of t [...] ſcripture, and ſome part of it was more ſweet [...] her than her appointed food; ſhe would get ſeve [...] choice ſcriptures by heart, and diſcourſe of the [...] ſavourily, and apply them ſuitably.
15. She was not altogether a ſtranger to ot [...] good books, but would be reading of them w [...] much affection; and where ſhe might, ſhe noted [...] books particularly, obſerving what in the read [...] did moſt warm her heart, and ſhe was ready up [...] occaſion to improve it.
16. One time a woman coming into the houſe a great paſſion, ſpoke of her condition, as if i [...] were like hers, and it would never be otherwi [...] the child ſaid, it were a ſtrange thing to ſay w [...] it is night, it will never be day again.
17. At another time a near relation of hers be [...] in ſome ſtreights made ſome complaint, to wh [...] [17]ſhe ſaid, I have heard Mr. Carter ſay, a man may go to heaven without a penny in his purſe, but not without grace in his heart.
18. She had an extraordinary love to the people of God; and when ſhe ſaw any that ſhe thought ſeared the Lord, her heart would even leap for [...]oy.
19. She loved to be much by herſelf, and would be greatly grieved if ſhe were at any time depr [...]ved of a conveniency for ſecret duty; ſhe could not live without conſtant addreſs to God in ſecret; and was not a little pleaſed when ſhe could go into a corner to pray and weep.
20. She was much in praiſing God, and ſeldom or never complained of any thing but ſin.
21. She continued in this courſe of praying and praiſing of God, and great dutifulneſs and ſweet⯑neſs to her parents, and thoſe that taught her any thing. She did greatly encourage her mother while ſhe was a widow, and deſired that the abſence of a huſband might in ſome meaſure be made up [...]y the dutifulneſs and holineſs of a child. She ſtudied all the ways that could be to make her mo⯑ther's life comfortable.
22. When ſhe was between eleven and twelve years old, ſhe ſickened, in which time ſhe carried [...]t with admirable patience, and did what ſhe could with ſcripture arguments to ſupport and encourage her relations to part with her, as ſhe was going to glory, and to prepare themſelves to meet her in a bleſſed eternity.
23. She was not many days ſick before ſhe be⯑came dangerous, of which ſhe was ſenſible and re⯑joiced that ſhe was now going apace to Chriſt. She called to her friends, and ſaid be not troubled, for I [18]know I am one of the Lord's own. One aſked her, how ſhe knew that? She anſwered, the Lord hath told me, that I am one of his dear children. And thus ſhe ſpoke with a holy confidence in the Lord's love to her ſoul, and was not in the leaſt daunted when ſhe ſpake of her death; but ſeemed greatly delighted in the apprehenſion of her nearneſs to her father's houſe. And it was not long before ſhe was filled with joy unſpeakable in believing.
24. When ſhe juſt lay a dying, her mother came to her, and told her, ſhe was ſorry that ſhe had reproved and corrected ſo good a child ſo oft. O [...] mother, ſaid ſhe, ſpeak not thus, I bleſs God, now I am dying, for your reproofs and corrections too [...] for, it may be, I might have gone to hell, if it had not been for your reproofs and corrections.
25. Some of her neighbours coming to viſit her, aſked her, if ſhe would leave them? She anſwered them, if you ſerve the Lord, you ſhall come after me to glory.
26. A little before ſhe dyed, ſhe had a great con⯑flict with Satan, and cryed out, I am none of his her mother ſeeing her in trouble, aſked her what was the matter? She anſwered, Satan did trouble me, but now I thank God all is well, I know, I am none his, but Chriſts.
27. After this ſhe had a ſenſe of God's love and a glorious ſight as if ſhe had ſeen the very heavens open, and the angels come to receive her by which her heart was filled with joy, and he tongue with praiſe.
28. Being deſired by the ſtanders by, to give them a particular account of what ſhe ſaw. She anſwered, you ſhall know herea [...]ter; and ſo in an extaſy of joy and holy triumph, ſhe went to hea⯑ven [19]when ſhe was about twelve years old. Hal⯑lelujah.
EXAMPLE IV. Of a child that began to look towards hea⯑ven when ſhe was about four years old, with ſome obſervable paſſages in her life and at her death.
1. A Certain little child, when ſhe was about four years old, had a conſcientious ſenſe of her duty towards her parents, becauſe the com⯑mandment faith, Honour thy father and thy [...]ther. And though ſhe had little advantage of education, ſhe carried it with the greateſt reverence to her pa⯑rents imaginable, ſo that ſhe was no ſmall credit as well as comfort to them.
2. It was a uſual thing for her to weep if ſhe ſaw her parents troubled, though herſelf had not been the occaſion of it.
3. When ſhe came from ſchool, ſhe would with grief and abhorrence ſay, that other children had dinned againſt God by ſpeaking grievous words, which were ſo bad, that ſhe durſt not ſpeak them again.
4. She would be oftentimes admiring of God's mercy for ſuch goodneſs to her rather than to others; that ſhe ſaw ſome begging, others blind, ſome crooked, and that ſhe wanted nothing that was good for her.
[20]5. She was many a time, and often, in one place or another, in tears upon her knees.
6. This poor little thing would be ready to coun⯑ſel other little children, how they ought to ſerve God; and putting them upon getting by themſelves to pray; and hath been known, when her friends have been abroad, to have been teaching children to pray, eſpecially upon the Lord's day.
7. She very ſeriouſly begged the prayers of o⯑thers, that they would remember her, that the Lord would give her grace.
8. When this child ſaw ſome that were laughing, who ſhe judged to be very wicked; ſhe told them that ſhe feared that they had little reaſon to be merry. They aſked whether one might not laugh? She anſwered, No indeed, till you have grace; they who are wicked have more need to cry than to laugh.
9. She would ſay, that it was the duty of pa⯑rents, maſters and miſtreſſes, to reprove thoſe un⯑der their charge for ſin, or elſe God will meet with them.
10. She would be very attentive when ſhe read the ſcriptures, and be much affected with them.
11. She would by no means be perſuaded to pro⯑phane the Lord's day, but would ſpend it in ſome good duties.
12. When ſhe went to ſchool it was willingly and joyfully, and ſhe was very teachable and exem⯑plary to other children.
13. When ſhe was taken ſick, one aſked her, Whether ſhe were willing to die? She anſwered, Yes, if God would pardon her ſins. Being aſked how her ſins ſhould be pardoned? She anſwered, through the blood of Chriſt.
14. She ſaid, ſhe did believe in Chriſt, and de⯑ſired [21]and longed to be with him, and did with a great deal of chearfulneſs give up her ſoul to him.
There were very many obſervable paſſages in the life and death of this child, but the hurry and grief that her friends were in buried them.
EXAMPLE V. Of the Pious Life and Joyful Death of a Child, which died when he was about twelve Years old.
1. CHarles Bridgman had no ſooner learned to ſpeak, but he betook himſelf to prayer.
2. He was very prone to learn the things of God.
3. He would be ſometimes teaching them their duty that waited upon him.
4. He learned by heart many good things before [...]e was well fit to go to ſchool: and when he was [...]ent to ſchool, he carried it ſo, that all that ob⯑ [...]erved him, either did or might admire him. O [...]he ſweet nature, the good diſpoſition, the ſincere [...]eligion which was in this child!
5. When he was at ſchool, what was it that he [...]eſired to learn, but Chriſt, and him crucified?
6. So religious and ſavoury were his words, his [...]ctions ſo upright, his devotion ſo hearty, his fear [...]f God ſo great, that many were ready to ſay as [...]hey did of John, What manner of child ſhall this be.
7. He would be much in reading the holy ſcrip⯑ [...]res.
[22]8. He was deſirous of more ſpiritual knowledge, and would be oft aſking very ſerious and admirable queſtions.
9. He would not ſtir out of doors before he had poured out his ſoul to the Lord.
10. When he eat any thing, he would be ſure to lift up his heart unto the Lord for a bleſſing upon it; and when he had moderately refreſhed himſelf by eating, he would not forget to acknowledge God's goodneſs in feeding of him.
11. He would not lie down in his bed till he had been upon his knees; and when ſometimes he had forgotten his duty, he would quickly get out of his bed, and kneeling down upon his bare knees, would aſk God forgiveneſs for that ſin.
12. He would rebuke his brethren if they were at any time too haſty at their meals, and did eat without aſking a bleſſing; his check was uſually this, Dare you do thus? God be merciful to us, thi [...] bit of bread might choak us.
13. His ſentences were wiſe and weighty, and might well become ſome ancient chriſtian.
14. His ſickneſs was a lingering diſeaſe, againſt which, to comfort him, one tells him of poſſeſſion [...] that muſt fall to his portion; And what are they? ſaid he, I had rather have the kingdom of heaven than a thouſand ſuch inheritances.
15. When he was ſick, he ſeemed much taken up with heaven, and aſked very ſerious queſtion about the nature of his ſoul.
16. After he was pretty well ſatisfied about that he enquired how his ſoul might be ſaved; the an⯑ſwer being made, by the applying of Chriſt's me⯑rits by faith; he was pleaſed with the anſwer, and was ready to give any one that ſhould deſire it, a [...] account of his hope.
[23]17. Being aſked, whether he had rather live or die? he anſwered, I deſire to die, that I may go to my ſaviour.
18. His pains increaſing upon him, one aſked him, whether he would rather ſtill endure thoſe pains, or forſake Chr [...]ſt? Alas, ſaid he, I know not what to ſay, being a child; for theſe pains may ſtagger a ſtrong man, but I will ſtri [...]e to endure the beſt that I can. Upon this he called to mind that martyr Thomas Binley, who being in priſon, the night before his burning, put his finger into the candle, to know how he could endure the fire. O (ſaid the child) had I lived then I would have run through the fire to have gone to Chriſt.
19. His ſickneſs laſted long, and at leaſt three days before his death he propheſied his departure, and not only that he muſt die, but the very day. On the Lord's day, ſaid he, look to me: neither was this a word of courſe, which you may gueſs by his often repetition, every day aſking till the day came indeed, What is Sunday c [...]me? At laſt the looked for day came on; and no ſooner had the ſun beautified that morning with its light, but he falls into a trance, his eyes were fixed, his face chearful, his lips ſmiling, his hands and face claſp⯑ed in a bow, as if he would have received ſome bleſſed angel that were at hand to receive his ſoul. But he comes to himſelf, and tells them how he ſaw the ſweeteſt body that ever eyes beheld, who bid him be of good cheer, for he muſt preſently go with him.
20. One that ſtood near him, as now ſuſpecting the time of his diſſolution nigh, bid him ſay, Lord, into thy hands I commend my ſpirit, which is thy [24]due; for why, thou has redeemed it, O Lord my God, moſt true.
21. The laſt words which he ſpake, were ex⯑actly theſe: Pray, pray, pray, nay, yet pray; and the more prayers, the better all proſpers: God is the beſt phyſician; into thy hands I commend my ſpirit. O Lord Jeſus receive my ſoul: now cloſe mine eyes: for⯑give me father, mother, brother, ſiſter, all the world. Now I am well, my pain is almoſt gone, my joy is at hand. Lord have mercy on me. O Lord receive my ſoul unto thee. And thus he yielded his ſpi⯑rit up unto the Lord, when he was about twelve years old.
This Narrative was taken out of Mr. Ambroſe his Life's Leaſe.
EXAMPLE VI. Of a poor Child that was awakened when he was about five Years old.
1. A Certain very poor child, that had a very bad father, but it was to be hoped a very good mother, was, by the providence of God, brought to the ſight of a godly friend of mine, who upon the firſt ſight of the child had a great pity for him, and took an affection to him, and had a mind to bring him up for Chriſt.
2. At the firſt he did with great ſweetneſs and kindneſs allure the child, by which means it was not long before he got a deep intereſt in the heart of the child, and he began to obey him with more readineſs than children uſually do their parents.
3. By this a door was opened for a farther work, [25]and he had a greater advantage to inſtill ſpiritual principles into the ſoul of the child, which he was not wanting in, as the Lord gave opportunity, and the child was capable of.
4. It was not long before the Lord was pleaſed to ſtrike in with the ſpiritual exhortations of this good man, ſo that the child was brought to a liking of the things of God.
5. He quickly learned great part of the aſſem⯑bly's catechiſm by heart, and that before he could read his primmer within book; and he took a great delight in learning his catechiſm.
6. He was not only able to give a very good ac⯑count of his catechiſm, but he would anſwer ſuch queſtions as are not in the catechiſm, with greater underſtanding than could be expected from one of his age.
7. He took great delight in diſcourſing about the things of God; and when my friend had been either praying or reading, expounding or repeat⯑ing of ſermons, he ſeemed very attentive, and ready to receive the truths of God, and would with in⯑credible gravity, diligence and affection wait till duties were ended, to the no ſmall joy and admira⯑tion of them which obſerved him.
8. He would aſk very excellent queſtions, and diſcourſe about the condition of his ſoul and hea⯑venly things, and ſeemed mightily concerned what ſhould become of his ſoul when he ſhould dye: ſo that his diſcourſe made ſome chriſtians even to ſtand aſtoniſhed.
9. He was greatly taken with the great kindneſs of Chriſt in dying for ſinners, and would be in tears at the mention of them; and ſeemed at a ſtrange rate to be affected with the unſpeakable love of Chriſt.
[26]10. When no body had been ſpeaking to him, he would burſt out into tears, and being aſked the reaſon, he would ſay, that the very thoughts of Chriſt's love to ſinners in ſuffering for them, made him that he could not but cry.
11. Before he was ſix years old, he made con⯑ſcience of ſecret duty; and when he prayed, it was with ſuch extraordinary meltings, that his eyes have looked red and ſore with weeping by himſelf for his ſins.
12. He would be putting of Chriſtians upon ſpi⯑ritual diſcourſe when he ſaw them, and ſeemed little ſatisfied unleſs they were talking of good things.
13. It is evident, that this poor child's thoughts were very much buſied about the things of another world, for he would oftentimes be ſpeaking to his bed-follow at mid-night about the matters of his ſoul; and when he could not ſleep, he would take hea⯑venly conference to be ſweeter than his appointed reſt. This was his uſual cuſtom, and thus he would provoke and put forward an experienced chriſtian to ſpend waking hours in talk of God, and the ever⯑laſting reſt.
14. Not long after this, his good mother dyed, which went very near his heart, for he greatly ho⯑noured his mother.
15. After the death of his mother, he would often repeat ſome of the promiſes that are made unto fatherleſs children, eſpecially that in Exod. xxii. 22. Ye ſhall not afflict any widow, or the fa⯑therleſs child; if thou afflict them in any wiſe, and they cry at all unto me, I will ſurely hear their cry.—Theſe words he would often repeat with tears, and ſay, I am fatherleſs and mother⯑leſs upon earth, yet if any wrong me, I have a fa⯑ther [27]in heaven who will take my part; to him I commit myſelf, and in him is all my truſt.
16. Thus he continued in a courſe of holy duties, living in the fear of God, and ſhewed wonderful grace for a child, and died ſweetly in the faith of Jeſus.
My friend is a judicious Chriſtian of many years experience, who was no ways related to him, but a conſtant eye and ear witneſs of his godly life, honourable and chearful death, from whom I re⯑ceived this information.
EXAMPLE VII. Of a notorious wicked Child, that was taken up from begging, and admirably convert⯑ed; with an account of his Holy Life and Joyful Death, when he was nine Years old.
1. A Very poor child of the pariſh of Newington-Butts, came begging to the door of a dear chriſtian friend of mine, in a moſt lamentable con⯑dition; but it pleaſed God to raiſe in the heart of my friend a great pity and tenderneſs towards this poor child, ſo that in charity he took him out of the ſtreets, whoſe parents were unknown, who had no⯑thing at all in him to commend him to any one's cha⯑rity but his miſery. My friend eyeing the glory of God, and the good of the immortal ſoul of this wretched creature, diſcharged the pariſh of the child, and took him as his own, deſigning to bring him up in the fear of the Lord. A noble piece of charity! And that which did make the kindneſs far the greater [28]was, that there ſeemed to be very little hopes of doing any good upon this child, for he was a very monſter of wickedneſs, and a thouſand times more miſerable and vile by his ſin, than by his poverty. He was running to hell as ſoon as he could go, and was old in naughtineſs when he was young in years; and one ſhall ſcarce hear of one ſo like the devil in his infancy, as this poor child was. What ſin was there (that his age was capable of) that he did not commit? What by the corruption of his nature, and the abominable example of little beg⯑gar-boys, he was arrived to a ſtrange pitch of im⯑piety. He would call filthy names, take God's name in vain, curſe and ſwear, and do almoſt all kind of miſchief, and as to any thing of God worſe than an heathen.
2. But this ſin and miſery was but a ſtronger motive to that gracious man to pity him, and to do all that poſſibly he could to pluck this fire-brand out of the fire; and it was not long before the Lord was pleaſed to let him underſtand that he had a de⯑ſign of everlaſting kindneſs upon the ſoul of this poor child; for no ſooner had this good man taken this creature into his houſe, but he prays for him. and labours with all his might to convince him of his miſerable condition by nature, and to teach him ſomething of God, the worth of his ſoul, and that eternity of glory or miſery that he was born to; and bleſſed be free grace, it was not long before the Lord was pleaſed to ſhew-him that it was himſelf which did put it into his heart to take in this child, that he might bring him up for Chriſt. The Lord ſoon ſtruck in with his godly inſtruc⯑tions; ſo that an amazing change was ſeen in the child, in a few weeks ſpace he was ſoon con⯑vinced of the evil of his ways; no more news now [29]of his calling of names, ſwearing, or curſing, no more taking of the Lord's name in vain; now he is civil and reſpective; and ſuch a ſtrange alteration was wrought in the child, that all the pariſh that [...]ung of his villainy before, was now ready to talk of his reformation; his company, his talk, his im⯑ployment is now changed, and he is like another creature; ſo that the glory of God's free grace be⯑gan already to ſhine in him.
3. And this change was not only an external one, and to be diſcerned abroad, but he would get by himſelf, and weep and mourn bitterly for his hor⯑rible wicked life, as might eaſily be perceived by them that lived in the houſe with him.
4. It was the great care of his godly maſter to ſtrike in with thoſe convictions which the Lord had made, and to improve them all he could; and he was not a little glad to ſee his labour was not in vain in the Lord; he ſtill experiences that the Lord [...]oth carry on his own work mightily upon the heart of the child; he is ſtill more and more bro⯑ken under a ſenſe of his undone ſtate by nature; [...]e is often in tears, and bemoaning his loſt and mi⯑ſerable condition. When his maſter did ſpeak of [...]he things of God, he liſtened earneſtly, and took [...]n with much delight and affection what he was [...]aught. Seldom was there any diſcourſe about ſoul matters in his hearing, but he heard as if it were [...]or his life, and would weep greatly.
5. He would, after his maſter had been ſpeaking [...]o him, or others, of the things of God, go to him [...]nd queſtion with him about them, and beg of him [...]o inſtruct and teach him further, and to tell him [...]hoſe things again, that he might remember and un⯑derſtand them better.
6. Thus he continued ſeeking after the know⯑ledge [28]was, that there ſeemed to be very little hopes of doing any good upon this child, for he was a very monſter of wickedneſs, and a thouſand times more miſerable and vile by his ſin, than by his poverty. He was running to hell as ſoon as he could go, and was old in naughtineſs when he was young in years; and one ſhall ſcarce hear of one ſo like the devil in his infancy, as this poor child was. What ſin was there (that his age was capable of) that he did not commit? What by the corruption of his nature, and the abominable example of little beg⯑gar-boys, he was arrived to a ſtrange pitch of im⯑piety. He would call filthy names, take God's name in vain, curſe and ſwear, and do almoſt all kind of miſchief, and as to any thing of God worſe than an heathen.
2. But this ſin and miſery was but a ſtronger motive to that gracious man to pity him, and to do all that poſſibly he could to pluck this fire-brand out of the fire; and it was not long before the Lord was pleaſed to let him underſtand that he had a de⯑ſign of everlaſting kindneſs upon the ſoul of this poor child; for no ſooner had this good man taken this creature into his houſe, but he prays for him. and labours with all his might to convince him of his miſerable condition by nature, and to teach him ſomething of God, the worth of his ſoul, and that eternity of glory or miſery that he was born to; and bleſſed be free grace, it was not long before the Lord was pleaſed to ſhew him that it was himſelf which did put it into his heart to take in this child, that he might bring him up for Chriſt. The Lord ſoon ſtruck in with his godly inſtruc⯑tions; ſo that an amazing change was ſeen in the child, in a few weeks ſpace he was ſoon con⯑vinced of the evil of his ways; no more news now [29]of his calling of names, ſwearing, or curſing, no more taking of the Lord's name in vain; now he is civil and reſpective; and ſuch a ſtrange alteration was wrought in the child, that all the pariſh that [...]ung of his villainy before, was now ready to talk of his reformation; his company, his talk, his im⯑ployment is now changed, and he is like another creature; ſo that the glory of God's free grace be⯑gan already to ſhine in him.
3. And this change was not only an external one, and to be diſcerned abroad, but he would get by himſelf, and weep and mourn bitterly for his hor⯑rible wicked life, as might eaſily be perceived by them that lived in the houſe with him.
4. It was the great care of his godly maſter to [...]trike in with thoſe convictions which the Lord had made, and to improve them all he could; and he was not a little glad to ſee his labour was not in [...]ain in the Lord; he ſtill experiences that the Lord [...]oth carry on his own work mightily upon the heart of the child; he is ſtill more and more bro⯑ken under a ſenſe of his undone ſtate by nature; he is often in tears, and bemoaning his loſt and mi⯑ [...]erable condition. When his maſter did ſpeak of the things of God, he liſtened earneſtly, and took [...]n with much delight and affection what he was [...]aught. Seldom was there any diſcourſe about ſoul matters in his hearing, but he heard as if it were for his life, and would weep greatly.
5. He would, after his maſter had been ſpeaking [...]o him, or others, of the things of God, go to him [...]nd queſtion with him about them, and beg of him [...]o inſtruct and teach him further, and to tell him [...]hoſe things again, that he might remember and un⯑ [...]erſtand them better.
6. Thus he continued ſeeking after the know⯑ledge [30]of God and Chriſt, and practiſing holy du⯑ties, till the ſickneſs came into the houſe, with which the child was ſmitten; at his firſt ſickening the poor child was greatly amazed and afraid, and, though his pains were great, and his diſtemper very tedious, yet the ſenſe of his ſin, and the thought of the miſerable condition that he feared his ſoul was ſtill in, made his trouble ten times greater; he was in grievous agonies of ſpirit, and his former ſins ſtared him in the face, and made him tremble; the poiſon of God's arrows did even drink up his ſpirit; the ſenſe of ſin and wrath was ſo great, that he could not tell what in the world to do; the weight of God's diſpleaſure, and the thoughts of lying under it to all e [...]ernity, did even break him to pieces, and he did cry out very bitterly, what ſhould he do? he was a miſerable ſinner, and he feared that he ſhould go to hell; his ſins had been ſo great and ſo many, that there were no hopes for him. He was not by far ſo much concerned for his life, as for his ſoul, what would become of that for ever. Now the plague upon his body ſeemed nothing to that which was in his ſoul.
7. But in this great diſtreſs, the Lord was pleaſed to ſend one to take care of his ſoul, who urged to him the great and precious promiſes which were made to one in his condition, telling him, that there was enough in Chriſt for the chiefeſt of ſinners, and that he came to ſeek and ſave ſuch a loſt creature as he was. But this poor child found it a very difficult thing for him to believe that there was any mercy for ſuch a dreadful ſinner as he had been.
8. He was made to cry out of himſelf, not only for his ſwearing and lying, and other outwardly notorious ſins; but he was in great horror for the ſin of his nature, for the vileneſs of his heart, and [31]original corruption under it; he was in ſo great an⯑guiſh, that the trouble of his ſpirit made him in a great meaſure to forget the pains of his body.
9. He did very particularly confeſs and bewail his ſins with tears; and ſome ſins ſo ſecret, that none in the world could charge him with.
10. He would condemn himſelf for ſin, as de⯑ſerving to have no mercy, thought that there was not a greater ſinner in all London than himſelf, and he abhorred himſelf as the vileſt creature he knew.
11. He did not only pray much, with ſtrong cries and tears himſelf, but he begged the prayers of Chriſtians for him.
12. He would aſk chriſtians, whether they thought there were any hopes for him, and would beg of them to deal plainly with him, for he was greatly afraid of being deceived.
13. Being informed how willing and ready the Lord Jeſus was to accept of poor ſinners, upon their repentance and turning, and being counſelled to venture himſelf upon Chriſt for mercy and ſalva⯑tion, he ſaid he would fain caſt himſelf upon Chriſt, but he could not but wonder how Chriſt ſhould be willing to die for ſuch a vile wretch as he was, and he found it one of the hardeſt things in the world to believe.
14. But at laſt it pleaſed the Lord to give him ſome ſmall hopes that there might be mercy for him, for he had been the chiefeſt of ſinners; and, he was made to lay a little hold upon ſuch promiſes, as that, Come unto me all ye that are weary and [...]avy laden, and I will give you reſt. But O how did this poor boy admire and bleſs God for the [...]eaſt hopes! How highly did he advance free and rich grace, that ſhould pity and pardon him! and at [...]aſt he was full of praiſe, and admiring of God, [32]ſo that (to ſpeak in the words of a good man, that was an eye and an ear-witneſs) to the praiſe and glory of God be it ſpoken, the houſe at that day, for all the ſickneſs in it, was a little lower heaven, ſo full of joy and praiſe.
15. The child grew exceedingly in knowledge, experience, patience, humility, and ſelf-abhorrence; and he thought he could never ſpeak bad enough of himſelf, the name that he would call himſelf by, was a toad.
16. And though he prayed before, yet now the Lord poured out upon him the ſpirit of prayer in an extraordinary manner, for one of his age; ſo that now he prayed more frequently, more earneſt⯑ly, more ſpiritually than ever. O how eagerly would he beg to be waſhed in the blood of Jeſus! and that the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords, that was over heaven and earth, and ſea, would par⯑don and forgive him all his ſins, and receive his ſoul into his kingdom. And what he ſpoke, it was with ſo much life and fervour of ſpirit, as that it filled the hearers with aſtoniſhment and joy.
17. He had no ſmall ſenſe of the uſe and excel⯑lency of Chriſt, and ſuch longings and breathings of his ſoul after him, that when mention had been made of Chriſt, he hath been ready almoſt to leap out of his bed for joy.
18. When he was told, that if he ſhould reco⯑ver, he muſt not live as he liſt; but he muſt give up himſelf to Chriſt, and be his child and ſervant, bear his yoke, and be obedient unto his laws, and live a holy life, and take his croſs, and ſuffer mocking and reproach, it may be perſecution for his name ſake. Now, child (ſaid one to him) are you willing to have Chriſt upon ſuch terms? He ſignified his willingneſs by the earneſtneſs of his looks [33]and words, and the caſting up of his eyes to hea⯑ven, ſaying, yes, with all my ſoul, the Lord help⯑ing me, I will do this.
19. Yet he had many doubts, and fears, and was ever and anon harping upon that, that though he were willing, yet Chriſt he feared was not willing to accept him, becauſe of the greatneſs of his ſin; yet his hopes were greater than his fears.
20. The Wedneſday before he died, the child lay as it were in a trance for about half an hour, in which time he thought he ſaw a viſion of angels: when he was out of his trance, he was a little un⯑eaſy, and aſked his nurſe, why ſhe did not let him go? Go whither, child, ſaid ſhe? Why along with thoſe brave gentlemen, ſaid he; but they told me, they would come and fetch me away for all you upon Friday next. And he doubled his words many times, upon Friday next thoſe brave gentlemen will come for me; and upon that day the child died joyfully.
21. He was very thankful to his maſter, and very ſenſible of his great kindneſs in taking him up out of the ſtreets when he was a begging, and he admired at the goodneſs of God, which put it into the mind of a ſtranger to look upon, and to take ſuch fatherly care of ſuch a pitiful ſorry crea⯑ture as he was. O my dear maſter, (ſaid he) I hope to ſee you in heaven, for I am ſure you will go thither. O bleſſed, bleſſed be God that made you to take pity upon me, for I might have died, and have gone to the devil, and have been damned for ever, if it had not been for you.
22. The Thurſday before he died, he aſked a very godly friend of mine what he thought of his condition, and whither his ſoul was now going? for he ſaid he could not ſtill but fear, leſt he ſhould deceive dimſelf with falſe hopes; at which my friend [34]ſpoke to him thus: child, for all that I have en⯑deavoured to hold forth the grace of God in Chriſt to thy ſoul, and given you a warrant from the word of God, that Chriſt is as freely offered to you, as to any ſinner in the world; if thou art but willing to accept of him, thou mayeſt have Chriſt and all that thou doſt want, with him; and yet thou giveſt way to theſe thy doubtings and fears, as though I told thee nothing but lyes; thou ſayeſt, thou feareſt that Chriſt will not accept of thee, I fear thou art not heartily willing to accept of him. The child anſwered, indeed I am: why then child, if thou art unfeignedly willing to have Chriſt, I tell thee, he is a thouſand times more willing to have thee, and waſh thee, and ſave thee, than thou art to deſire it. And now at this time Chriſt offers himſelf freely to thee again, therefore receive him humbly by ſaith into thy heart, and bid him welcome, for he deſerv⯑eth it: upon which words the Lord diſcovered his love to the child; and he gave a kind of leap in his bed, and ſnapped his fingers and thumb together with abundance of joy, as much as to ſay, well, yea, all is well, the match is made, Chriſt is willing, and I am willing too; and now Chriſt is mine, and I am his for ever. And from that time forward, in full joy and aſſurance of God's love, he continued earneſtly praiſing God, with deſiring to die, and be with Chriſt. And on Friday morning he ſweetly went to reſt, uſing that very expreſſion, Into thy hands, Lord, I commit my ſpirit. He died punctually at that time which he had ſpoke of, and in which he expected thoſe angels to come to him; he was not much above nine years old when he died.
This narrative I had from a judicious holy man, unrelated to him, who was an eye and ear-witneſs to all theſe things.